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2020.09.24 23:01 autotldrYoung Women Take a Frontline Role in Thailand’s Protests
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Sept. 24, 2020, 1:30 p.m. ET.BANGKOK - As tens of thousands of people have gathered for a series of pro-democracy protests in Thailand in recent weeks, their ranks have been dominated by an emerging political force: young women. In Belarus, hundreds of women were arrested last week while marching in Minsk to protest the return to power of the country's strongman, President Aleksandr G. Lukashenko. In some ways, it should not be novel that women are helping to lead the protest movement in Thailand, which by some measures is one of Asia's most equitable societies for women. Women have taken part in previous protest movements. A core of so-called aunties, many from rural areas ignored by Bangkok's ruling elite, were integral to an opposition force called the Red Shirts, who occupied downtown Bangkok for weeks before a bloody crackdown in 2010.But in protest leadership, women had been mostly absent. On a protest stage in front of the Grand Palace on Saturday night, Ms. Chumaporn, the co-founder of Women for Freedom and Democracy, raised an issue that is rarely discussed in a country where criticism of the king can earn people up to 15 years in prison.
2020.09.24 06:13 TheMidnightArchiveThe Abduction and Murder of Amber Hagerman
A Trip to The Grocery Store The late winter in Texas is a mild time usually, with steady wind and a biting chill in the air. The season is one of change, the life force of the previous year is fading away to succumb to a newness imbued by the heat of the Spring and Summer. January 12th, 1996 in Arlington, Texas was no different, the sun was shining, the wind was steady, and the temperature hovered around the mid-sixties. On this day Donna Whitson and her two children, nine-year-old Amber and five-year-old Ricky Hagerman were in Arlington visiting Donna’s parents, Glenda and Jimmie Whitson. The family arrived at their destination around 3pm and upon disembarking Donna’s car the kids asked to ride their bikes, the ones that Donna had her parents keep at their home for them. Donna, without a second thought, assented to the request with the limitation that the kids stay within a block of their grandparents’ home. She wanted them to be safe. Once astride their bicycles and away from nagging adults, Amber disregarded the boundary set upon her and her brother. Amber led Ricky to the local neighborhood play spot, a shuttered Winn-Dixie grocery store and after approximately 15 minutes of riding around the parking lot and loading dock the younger Ricky was ready to turn back home, whether out of fear of being beyond their boundary or being tired is unknown. What is known is that Amber had elected to stay and ride her bike around the parking lot of the store on her own for a while longer, that Ricky went home alone, and that in the intervening time something horrible would happen to Amber that would shape substance and conscious of the her family forever. On January 12th, Mr. Jim Kevil was sitting on his back porch looking out over his yard and fence, a view that happened to encompass the next-door Winn-Dixie store’s loading dock and the street it was on. Around 3:15 pm Mr. Kevil saw a lone young girl riding a colorful bike around the grocery store loading dock when a dark colored truck quickly pulled into the parking lot. Jim Kevil would later state that the driver of the truck was either white or Hispanic and between the ages of 25-40, this unknown subject grabbed Amber, who let out a scream and began kicking her abductor. The driver then put Amber in his vehicle before he sped off West bound down Abrams Road. Not just a passive witness, Mr. Kevil called 911 to report the incident to the police and to try to aid in the capture of the kidnapper and the return of the little girl. This would be the last time that anyone would see Amber Hagerman alive. After arriving home alone five-year-old Ricky Hagerman was sent by his family back to the Winn-Dixie to retrieve his sister. Turning his bike around Ricky did as requested, only to return to an empty parking lot. Only a brief eight minutes had elapsed since he had last seen his sister, but it was too late; Amber was gone. Ricky once again arrived alone to the Whitson home prompting Grandfather Jimmie Whitson to race to the store in his car to search for Amber himself. Jimmie would arrive at the store at about the same time as an Arlington police officer, summoned by Jim Kevil’s 911 call did; the only remnant of Amber was her abandoned bicycle. Law Enforcement, including the local police and the FBI (involved as a result of the pleas of Amber’s distraught family), coupled with a mass of volunteers began a wide net search for the missing girl, but came up empty. Amber had vanished. Discovery January 16, 1996 is a day that Amber’s family will never forget. Four days after she had been taken by an unidentified male from that Winn-Dixie parking lot, Amber Hagerman’s body was discovered in the early morning hours by an anonymous man walking his dog near the Forest Hills Apartment Complex in Arlington, Texas. Her body was found face down in a creek approximately 4 miles from her abduction site. Prior to this, apartment maintenance workers had been in that area and seen nothing, suggesting that the remains were either placed there after the workers had left or moved down stream by a torrential rainstorm that had just occurred. Amber’s family was informed shortly after the discovery, shocked they initially refused to believe the news with her father quoted in a New York Times article written at the time as saying, “She’s still alive” to the reporters covering the case and camped outside the Whitson home. Amber was discovered wearing nothing but a single sock and the medical examiner would later confirm investigators suspicions, there was evidence of sexual assault and physical abuse, the cause of death: lacerations to the neck and throat. Additionally, the medical examiner stated that there was evidence that Amber had been kept alive for at least two days after her abduction before she was murdered, and her body disposed of. Investigation Still Ongoing More than 20 years later the investigation is still technically ongoing, to date the Arlington Police Department (APD) has not formally announced that they have any suspects or persons of interest. APD Detective Ben Lopez stated in a recent interview that the APD still receives tips regularly regarding the case and the department thoroughly investigates each one like it could be the piece of the puzzle that finally gives Amber’s family closure and justice. An explanation of this unsolved murder most likely lies in the fact that Amber’s body was left in running water for an indeterminate amount of time, coupled with the storm that raised the creek level and most likely moved the body from the dump site, forensic evidence would have been all but erased and any physical evidence diluted or washed away. Not helping the investigation is the fact that there is only one witness to the crime: Jim Kevil was the sole person to come forward with information regarding the abduction, despite the fact that Amber was taken in broad daylight on a residential street. To date no one else has come forward with evidence or statements to aid in the apprehension of the unknown subject. Some reports assert that this is a result of the immigrant community in the area and the traditional apprehension of this population in talking to law enforcement thought that remains unsubstantiated speculation. It is believed that Amber’s abductor and murderer was a stranger to her given that he took her by force and did not attempt to talk her into his vehicle. With this, I agree with the official narrative. Where I differ is on why Amber was taken. Based on the speed at which the abduction occurred it suggests to me that Amber may have been watched for some time before being taken. As stated previously Amber Hagerman was abducted in a window of approximately 8 minutes from when her brother left and then returned to bring her home. The official narrative is that this was an act of extreme opportunity when the perpetrator just happened to be driving by when he saw her alone. This would suggest that there was an event that triggered sporadic actions in the perpetrator, to quote a popular television show there must have been a stressor that induced this action. Regardless of the why, the fact of the matter is that Amber Hagerman’s killer is still at large. He has gone unpunished for his heinous actions against this innocent little girl and by extension her family. As a result of chance and a fluke of nature no evidence or additional witnesses remain of what happened on that fateful winter day. Amber’s killer is nameless, and her family is left with no closure or answers, only questions and heartache. Possible Suspects Richard Lee Franks Richard Lee Franks was charged on March 16, 2000 with the aggravated kidnapping of Opal Jo Jennings from Saginaw, a town a few miles north of Fort Worth. On March 26, 1999 6-year-old Opal was playing with her 3-year-old cousin in a vacant lot next to her grandparent’s house when Franks pulled up to the lot in his black Mercury Cougar. He then exited his vehicle and approached the kids feigning conversation with them. When Franks was close enough, he plucked Opal off the ground, punched her in the chest and put her in his car. What happened next was not unlike in Amber’s case, a large-scale search was launched for Opal led by her family and the local police department, it would not be for five years that Opal would be found. Her remains were discovered in a wooded area while two individuals were riding their horses along a remote trail. As a result of the state in which the remains were found, there was little physical or forensic evidence. What was clear was that the cause of death was most likely the result of a blow to the head. Franks would later be charged with Opal’s kidnapping but not her murder as there was no evidence to prove beyond the shadow of a doubt that Franks had indeed murdered her. In fact, he claimed that he had driven her to a local store to get a drink and left her there. What lends credence to Franks as a potential suspect is the similarity between Amber and Opal, and the way that they were taken. Both were seemingly impulse driven abductions based on the speed in which they occurred. This link between Opal and Amber was not solely based on the research of internet sleuths. Mark Simpson, an investigating officer in the Hagerman case in an address to the National Children’s Advocacy Center’s 26 Annual National Symposium on Child Abuse to the fact that Franks had prior criminal history involving children, all young, brown haired girls and that Opal’s kidnaping occurred in the same county as Amber’s. Based on proximity, prior history, and similarity in method at the very least one could expect that APD would investigate Franks as a person of interest however, that has not been the case. Terapon Adhahn Born in Bangkok, Thailand. Terapon immigrated to the United States as a child when his mother married a U.S. serviceman and he returned to the United States. As he grew older Terapon would become a Buddhist monk as well as follow in his stepfather’s footsteps and join the U.S. Army. Adhahn has been connected to (either directly as the known perpetrator or suspected) multiple offenses, both resolved or unresolved, against children throughout Washington State including rape, kidnapping, and murder. He has also been questioned in connection the Amber Hagerman case by APD though has not been named as an official suspect. In 1990 Adhahn was charged with sexual assault against a 16-year-old relative. This charge would result in him being forced to register as a sex offender and enter rehabilitation but as a first offense was not enough for him to be deported. On May 31, 2000 an 11-year-old unnamed (for reasons of privacy) Spanaway County Girl was abducted on her way to school. She was bound and taken to a secluded training field close to the Fort Lewis Military Base where she was repeatedly assaulted over the course of an hour. After the assaults Adhahn left her bound on a road nearby where she would be discovered walking, still bound with her eyes taped over, by a Tacoma City Police Officer. In December 2005, Adre’anna Jackson would also be abducted on her way to school, she disappeared from Lakewood in Pierce County, Washington and was never seen again. Over a year later, April 2006, skeletal remains were found in a field near her Tillicum neighborhood. Investigators showed pictures of Adhahn to residents who identified him as a known handyman who frequently worked in the area. He is regarded as a person of interest in this case. On July 4, 2007 Zina Linnik had been watching a firework display with her siblings on a hilltop near her home when her father, Mikhail Linnik, on his back porch presumably also watching the display, heard his daughter cry out. When he arrived at the spot that Zina was taken all that was left was a single shoe she had been wearing, Mikhail also saw a gray Chevy Astro van speeding away and he was able to partially make out the license plate. Four days alter Terapon Adhahn was arrested for the kidnapping of Zina. However, this speedy apprehension was not enough, on condition of prosecution not seeking the death penalty, Adhahn led investigators to the remains of young Zina Linnik. She had been strangled with a zip tie though Adhahn would claim that her death had been an accident. Additionally, while living in the Tacoma area, Adhahn was responsible for the care of an unnamed (again for the sake of privacy) 12-year-old girl. Her mother allowed the girl to live with Adhahn since she was unable to provide for her daughter, Adhahn only a “friend of her mother’s boyfriend”. Over the course of the next three years Adhahn would subject the young girl to repeated sexual assault, stopping only when she was able to run away after being assaulted at gun point. Why Terapon Adhahn? It has been reported that, coupled with his extensive and horrendous history with children, Terapon lived for a time with his aunt in the Fort Worth area around 1996. During the investigation, law enforcement noticed striking similarities in the method of kidnapping, assault, and victims in the Adhahn case and with a few officers having been trained in Texas for the Amber Alert System, were familiar with the Hagerman case. Additionally, he used a similar vehicle in the Fort Lewis incident as was seen in Amber’s abduction. Terapon has been question regarding Amber's abduction and murder though not formally named as a suspect or even a person of interest. Similar Cases Heidi Seeman – San Antonio, Texas On August 4, 1990 11-year-old Heidi Seeman was walking home from a sleep-over at a friend house the previous night. Her unnamed friend walked Heidi a part of the way home, to a midpoint between their houses at the intersection of Stahl road and Willow Run Street. Approaching the intersection Heidi’s friend as well as neighbors in the area reported seeing a red car with dark tinted windows pass by the girls slowly, and the driver watching them intently. Thinking nothing much of it, the girls parted ways and Heidi was never seen again. On August 25th, 1990 her remains were found in Hays County, Texas. No additional details were released regarding her death aside from the fact that a medical examiner ruled her death as a result of homicide. Erica Botello – San Antonio, Texas Closer in circumstance to Amber Hagerman, 7-year-old Erica Botello was taken on August 23, 1990 from the playground (or road next to depending on source) near her apartment complex. She was not unsupervised or alone the entire time she was playing. Erica was with her Father however he stepped inside for a brief time. When he went back outside, Erica was gone. Her remains would be found on August 25, 1990 in a storm drain about a mile from her home and abduction site. There is little information regarding Erica’s as she was and is eclipsed by the case of Heidi Seeman, a young white girl just a few years older than Erica, a girl of Hispanic dissent, from a wealthier side of San Antonio to the working class area that the Botello family lived in. Any information found on Erica is usually limited to brief sentences and always in tandem to Heidi. Legacy and Aftermath What happened to Amber Hagerman is not a mystery, it is known. She was taken from her family, held and assaulted over the course of two days, killed, and her body was disposed of in a creek not far from her abduction site. Her killer did all of these things without leaving any evidence, and slipped away. What isn't known is who did those things to her? Was it someone she knew? Had that person been watching her? Was this all really the result of chance and opportunity? One can hope that these questions, and more, will be answered one day but with each passing day the possibility that they never will be becomes all the more real. It has been 24 years since Amber Hagerman was abducted and murdered yet her legacy lives on. Amber’s abduction and murder was the impetus for the creation for the AMBER Alert System. This is a coordinated effort between law enforcement, radio, television, and cellphone broadcast systems to alert the general public in the region of an abduction to the incident and any information that law enforcement has on the abduction such as their physical description as well as the description of the vehicle they were last seen with. This system has resulted in the safe return of almost 1,000 children in the United States since its inception as a regional program in 1997, then national (and international) in 2000 however it is also under scrutiny for saving so few and being so annoying as an alert results in an alarm blaring through the device that receives it, and for saving so few. Critics question whether it saving just one life is worth it, is saving so few worth it? I say yes. Sources Amber Hagerman Arlington police mum about whether DNA evidence exist in unsolved Amber Hagerman case CRIME HUNTER: Sleep interrupted? Think about Amber Hagerman Toronto Sun [APD "Missing" flyer for Amber Haggerman, 1996] - Side 1 of 1 - The Portal to Texas History AA28.pdf Gale In Context: Biography - Document - Body of Kidnapped Texas Girl Is Found Body of Girl Who Was Dragged Screaming Off Bicycle Is Found - Los Angeles Times How Were Amber Alerts Created? The Amber Hagerman Cold Case - A&E Child abuse symposium speaker tells of similar abduction/murder cases with different endings - al.com Richard Lee Franks Medical examiner: Remains are those of missing girl - Plainview Herald Richard Lee Franks Texas Prison Inmates The Texas Tribune FRANKS v. STATE FindLaw Family prepares to bury girl who was abducted five years ago - Midland Reporter-Telegram FBI, Texas Rangers investigating death of 6-year-old girl in Saginaw Fort Worth Star-Telegram Terapon Adhahn Adhahn pleads guilty to murder of Tacoma girl, 12 The Seattle Times Killer of Tacoma child reveals motive in papers The Seattle Times Terapon Adhahn pleads guilty to rape, murder of Zina Linnik HeraldNet.com Child abduction-rape investigation widens - seattlepi.com Heidi Seeman and Erica Botello August marks 30 years since disappearances of Heidi Seeman, Erica Botello 1990 kidnapping, murder of two San Antonio girls still unsolved
2020.09.24 06:08 TheMidnightArchiveThe Abduction and Murder of Amber Hagerman
The Abduction and Murder of Amber Hagerman A Trip to The Grocery Store The late winter in Texas is a mild time usually, with steady wind and a biting chill in the air. The season is one of change, the life force of the previous year is fading away to succumb to a newness imbued by the heat of the Spring and Summer. January 12th, 1996 in Arlington, Texas was no different, the sun was shining, the wind was steady, and the temperature hovered around the mid-sixties. On this day Donna Whitson and her two children, nine-year-old Amber and five-year-old Ricky Hagerman were in Arlington visiting Donna’s parents, Glenda and Jimmie Whitson. The family arrived at their destination around 3pm and upon disembarking Donna’s car the kids asked to ride their bikes, the ones that Donna had her parents keep at their home for them. Donna, without a second thought, assented to the request with the limitation that the kids stay within a block of their grandparents’ home. She wanted them to be safe. Once astride their bicycles and away from nagging adults, Amber disregarded the boundary set upon her and her brother. Amber led Ricky to the local neighborhood play spot, a shuttered Winn-Dixie grocery store and after approximately 15 minutes of riding around the parking lot and loading dock the younger Ricky was ready to turn back home, whether out of fear of being beyond their boundary or being tired is unknown. What is known is that Amber had elected to stay and ride her bike around the parking lot of the store on her own for a while longer, that Ricky went home alone, and that in the intervening time something horrible would happen to Amber that would shape substance and conscious of the her family forever. On January 12th, Mr. Jim Kevil was sitting on his back porch looking out over his yard and fence, a view that happened to encompass the next-door Winn-Dixie store’s loading dock and the street it was on. Around 3:15 pm Mr. Kevil saw a lone young girl riding a colorful bike around the grocery store loading dock when a dark colored truck quickly pulled into the parking lot. Jim Kevil would later state that the driver of the truck was either white or Hispanic and between the ages of 25-40, this unknown subject grabbed Amber, who let out a scream and began kicking her abductor. The driver then put Amber in his vehicle before he sped off West bound down Abrams Road. Not just a passive witness, Mr. Kevil called 911 to report the incident to the police and to try to aid in the capture of the kidnapper and the return of the little girl. This would be the last time that anyone would see Amber Hagerman alive. After arriving home alone five-year-old Ricky Hagerman was sent by his family back to the Winn-Dixie to retrieve his sister. Turning his bike around Ricky did as requested, only to return to an empty parking lot. Only a brief eight minutes had elapsed since he had last seen his sister, but it was too late; Amber was gone. Ricky once again arrived alone to the Whitson home prompting Grandfather Jimmie Whitson to race to the store in his car to search for Amber himself. Jimmie would arrive at the store at about the same time as an Arlington police officer, summoned by Jim Kevil’s 911 call did; the only remnant of Amber was her abandoned bicycle. Law Enforcement, including the local police and the FBI (involved as a result of the pleas of Amber’s distraught family), coupled with a mass of volunteers began a wide net search for the missing girl, but came up empty. Amber had vanished. Discovery January 16, 1996 is a day that Amber’s family will never forget. Four days after she had been taken by an unidentified male from that Winn-Dixie parking lot, Amber Hagerman’s body was discovered in the early morning hours by an anonymous man walking his dog near the Forest Hills Apartment Complex in Arlington, Texas. Her body was found face down in a creek approximately 4 miles from her abduction site. Prior to this, apartment maintenance workers had been in that area and seen nothing, suggesting that the remains were either placed there after the workers had left or moved down stream by a torrential rainstorm that had just occurred. Amber’s family was informed shortly after the discovery, shocked they initially refused to believe the news with her father quoted in a New York Times article written at the time as saying, “She’s still alive” to the reporters covering the case and camped outside the Whitson home. Amber was discovered wearing nothing but a single sock and the medical examiner would later confirm investigators suspicions, there was evidence of sexual assault and physical abuse, the cause of death: lacerations to the neck and throat. Additionally, the medical examiner stated that there was evidence that Amber had been kept alive for at least two days after her abduction before she was murdered, and her body disposed of. Investigation Still Ongoing More than 20 years later the investigation is still technically ongoing, to date the Arlington Police Department (APD) has not formally announced that they have any suspects or persons of interest. APD Detective Ben Lopez stated in a recent interview that the APD still receives tips regularly regarding the case and the department thoroughly investigates each one like it could be the piece of the puzzle that finally gives Amber’s family closure and justice. An explanation of this unsolved murder most likely lies in the fact that Amber’s body was left in running water for an indeterminate amount of time, coupled with the storm that raised the creek level and most likely moved the body from the dump site, forensic evidence would have been all but erased and any physical evidence diluted or washed away. Not helping the investigation is the fact that there is only one witness to the crime: Jim Kevil was the sole person to come forward with information regarding the abduction, despite the fact that Amber was taken in broad daylight on a residential street. To date no one else has come forward with evidence or statements to aid in the apprehension of the unknown subject. Some reports assert that this is a result of the immigrant community in the area and the traditional apprehension of this population in talking to law enforcement thought that remains unsubstantiated speculation. It is believed that Amber’s abductor and murderer was a stranger to her given that he took her by force and did not attempt to talk her into his vehicle. With this, I agree with the official narrative. Where I differ is on why Amber was taken. Based on the speed at which the abduction occurred it suggests to me that Amber may have been watched for some time before being taken. As stated previously Amber Hagerman was abducted in a window of approximately 8 minutes from when her brother left and then returned to bring her home. The official narrative is that this was an act of extreme opportunity when the perpetrator just happened to be driving by when he saw her alone. This would suggest that there was an event that triggered sporadic actions in the perpetrator, to quote a popular television show there must have been a stressor that induced this action. Regardless of the why, the fact of the matter is that Amber Hagerman’s killer is still at large. He has gone unpunished for his heinous actions against this innocent little girl and by extension her family. As a result of chance and a fluke of nature no evidence or additional witnesses remain of what happened on that fateful winter day. Amber’s killer is nameless, and her family is left with no closure or answers, only questions and heartache. Possible Suspects Richard Lee Franks Richard Lee Franks was charged on March 16, 2000 with the aggravated kidnapping of Opal Jo Jennings from Saginaw, a town a few miles north of Fort Worth. On March 26, 1999 6-year-old Opal was playing with her 3-year-old cousin in a vacant lot next to her grandparent’s house when Franks pulled up to the lot in his black Mercury Cougar. He then exited his vehicle and approached the kids feigning conversation with them. When Franks was close enough, he plucked Opal off the ground, punched her in the chest and put her in his car. What happened next was not unlike in Amber’s case, a large-scale search was launched for Opal led by her family and the local police department, it would not be for five years that Opal would be found. Her remains were discovered in a wooded area while two individuals were riding their horses along a remote trail. As a result of the state in which the remains were found, there was little physical or forensic evidence. What was clear was that the cause of death was most likely the result of a blow to the head. Franks would later be charged with Opal’s kidnapping but not her murder as there was no evidence to prove beyond the shadow of a doubt that Franks had indeed murdered her. In fact, he claimed that he had driven her to a local store to get a drink and left her there. What lends credence to Franks as a potential suspect is the similarity between Amber and Opal, and the way that they were taken. Both were seemingly impulse driven abductions based on the speed in which they occurred. This link between Opal and Amber was not solely based on the research of internet sleuths. Mark Simpson, an investigating officer in the Hagerman case in an address to the National Children’s Advocacy Center’s 26 Annual National Symposium on Child Abuse to the fact that Franks had prior criminal history involving children, all young, brown haired girls and that Opal’s kidnaping occurred in the same county as Amber’s. Based on proximity, prior history, and similarity in method at the very least one could expect that APD would investigate Franks as a person of interest however, that has not been the case. Terapon Adhahn Born in Bangkok, Thailand. Terapon immigrated to the United States as a child when his mother married a U.S. serviceman and he returned to the United States. As he grew older Terapon would become a Buddhist monk as well as follow in his stepfather’s footsteps and join the U.S. Army. Adhahn has been connected to (either directly as the known perpetrator or suspected) multiple offenses, both resolved or unresolved, against children throughout Washington State including rape, kidnapping, and murder. He has also been questioned in connection the Amber Hagerman case by APD though has not been named as an official suspect. In 1990 Adhahn was charged with sexual assault against a 16-year-old relative. This charge would result in him being forced to register as a sex offender and enter rehabilitation but as a first offense was not enough for him to be deported. On May 31, 2000 an 11-year-old unnamed (for reasons of privacy) Spanaway County Girl was abducted on her way to school. She was bound and taken to a secluded training field close to the Fort Lewis Military Base where she was repeatedly assaulted over the course of an hour. After the assaults Adhahn left her bound on a road nearby where she would be discovered walking, still bound with her eyes taped over, by a Tacoma City Police Officer. In December 2005, Adre’anna Jackson would also be abducted on her way to school, she disappeared from Lakewood in Pierce County, Washington and was never seen again. Over a year later, April 2006, skeletal remains were found in a field near her Tillicum neighborhood. Investigators showed pictures of Adhahn to residents who identified him as a known handyman who frequently worked in the area. He is regarded as a person of interest in this case. On July 4, 2007 Zina Linnik had been watching a firework display with her siblings on a hilltop near her home when her father, Mikhail Linnik, on his back porch presumably also watching the display, heard his daughter cry out. When he arrived at the spot that Zina was taken all that was left was a single shoe she had been wearing, Mikhail also saw a gray Chevy Astro van speeding away and he was able to partially make out the license plate. Four days alter Terapon Adhahn was arrested for the kidnapping of Zina. However, this speedy apprehension was not enough, on condition of prosecution not seeking the death penalty, Adhahn led investigators to the remains of young Zina Linnik. She had been strangled with a zip tie though Adhahn would claim that her death had been an accident. Additionally, while living in the Tacoma area, Adhahn was responsible for the care of an unnamed (again for the sake of privacy) 12-year-old girl. Her mother allowed the girl to live with Adhahn since she was unable to provide for her daughter, Adhahn only a “friend of her mother’s boyfriend”. Over the course of the next three years Adhahn would subject the young girl to repeated sexual assault, stopping only when she was able to run away after being assaulted at gun point. Why Terapon Adhahn? It has been reported that, coupled with his extensive and horrendous history with children, Terapon lived for a time with his aunt in the Fort Worth area around 1996. During the investigation, law enforcement noticed striking similarities in the method of kidnapping, assault, and victims in the Adhahn case and with a few officers having been trained in Texas for the Amber Alert System, were familiar with the Hagerman case. Additionally, he used a similar vehicle in the Fort Lewis incident as was seen in Amber’s abduction. Terapon has been question regarding Amber's abduction and murder though not formally named as a suspect or even a person of interest. Similar Cases Heidi Seeman – San Antonio, Texas On August 4, 1990 11-year-old Heidi Seeman was walking home from a sleep-over at a friend house the previous night. Her unnamed friend walked Heidi a part of the way home, to a midpoint between their houses at the intersection of Stahl road and Willow Run Street. Approaching the intersection Heidi’s friend as well as neighbors in the area reported seeing a red car with dark tinted windows pass by the girls slowly, and the driver watching them intently. Thinking nothing much of it, the girls parted ways and Heidi was never seen again. On August 25th, 1990 her remains were found in Hays County, Texas. No additional details were released regarding her death aside from the fact that a medical examiner ruled her death as a result of homicide. Erica Botello – San Antonio, Texas Closer in circumstance to Amber Hagerman, 7-year-old Erica Botello was taken on August 23, 1990 from the playground (or road next to depending on source) near her apartment complex. She was not unsupervised or alone the entire time she was playing. Erica was with her Father however he stepped inside for a brief time. When he went back outside, Erica was gone. Her remains would be found on August 25, 1990 in a storm drain about a mile from her home and abduction site. There is little information regarding Erica’s as she was and is eclipsed by the case of Heidi Seeman, a young white girl just a few years older than Erica, a girl of Hispanic dissent, from a wealthier side of San Antonio to the working class area that the Botello family lived in. Any information found on Erica is usually limited to brief sentences and always in tandem to Heidi. Legacy and Aftermath What happened to Amber Hagerman is not a mystery, it is known. She was taken from her family, held and assaulted over the course of two days, killed, and her body was disposed of in a creek not far from her abduction site. Her killer did all of these things without leaving any evidence, and slipped away. What isn't known is who did those things to her? Was it someone she knew? Had that person been watching her? Was this all really the result of chance and opportunity? One can hope that these questions, and more, will be answered one day but with each passing day the possibility that they never will be becomes all the more real. It has been 24 years since Amber Hagerman was abducted and murdered yet her legacy lives on. Amber’s abduction and murder was the impetus for the creation for the AMBER Alert System. This is a coordinated effort between law enforcement, radio, television, and cellphone broadcast systems to alert the general public in the region of an abduction to the incident and any information that law enforcement has on the abduction such as their physical description as well as the description of the vehicle they were last seen with. This system has resulted in the safe return of almost 1,000 children in the United States since its inception as a regional program in 1997, then national (and international) in 2000 however it is also under scrutiny for saving so few and being so annoying as an alert results in an alarm blaring through the device that receives it, and for saving so few. Critics question whether it saving just one life is worth it, is saving so few worth it? I say yes. Sources Amber Hagerman Arlington police mum about whether DNA evidence exist in unsolved Amber Hagerman case CRIME HUNTER: Sleep interrupted? Think about Amber Hagerman Toronto Sun [APD "Missing" flyer for Amber Haggerman, 1996] - Side 1 of 1 - The Portal to Texas History AA28.pdf Gale In Context: Biography - Document - Body of Kidnapped Texas Girl Is Found Body of Girl Who Was Dragged Screaming Off Bicycle Is Found - Los Angeles Times How Were Amber Alerts Created? The Amber Hagerman Cold Case - A&E Child abuse symposium speaker tells of similar abduction/murder cases with different endings - al.com Richard Lee Franks Medical examiner: Remains are those of missing girl - Plainview Herald Richard Lee Franks Texas Prison Inmates The Texas Tribune FRANKS v. STATE FindLaw Family prepares to bury girl who was abducted five years ago - Midland Reporter-Telegram FBI, Texas Rangers investigating death of 6-year-old girl in Saginaw Fort Worth Star-Telegram Terapon Adhahn Adhahn pleads guilty to murder of Tacoma girl, 12 The Seattle Times Killer of Tacoma child reveals motive in papers The Seattle Times Terapon Adhahn pleads guilty to rape, murder of Zina Linnik HeraldNet.com Child abduction-rape investigation widens - seattlepi.com Heidi Seeman and Erica Botello August marks 30 years since disappearances of Heidi Seeman, Erica Botello 1990 kidnapping, murder of two San Antonio girls still unsolved
2020.09.23 17:16 alejandroclarkNeed help with understanding blood work after I went "parasite hunting" and discovered abnormal results
The obligatory 33 years old, Caucasian male, 76 inches tall, and weighs 220 pounds, no notable medical diagnoses, medication, drugs, smoking, or alcohol disclaimer. tl;dnr: Thought I had a parasite based on recurring symptoms and location (Thailand), test revealed I did not, blood tests also revealed I had some less than optimal blood work results, which lead me to get some vitamin and mineral tests and now I need help deciphering the abnormalities (high in Serum Iron but low in B12 and Folic Acid). My symptoms (which lead me to believe I had a parasite): I just went to a tropical disease hospital to check whether I had a parasite after these symptoms occurred a few months ago, on and off:
Oily, sticky, mucous-y stool
Some minor weight loss
These symptoms mostly came and went during the last few months. Oddly enough, the last three or four full moons, the insomnia, diarrhea, and a feeling of anxiety returned the same way each time. We did three stool sample tests (spread across a few days) about ten days after the full moon and all tests were negative for parasites. We did blood work and I noticed something so I decided to investigate further. Some minor red flags on my blood work the doctor said to ignore: In my hematology report, I noticed the following seemed to be a little close to being out of the optimal range: Red blood cell count of 4.59 (million cells per microliter) where the lower threshold seems to be 4.7 to 5 Mean corpuscular hemoglobin of 33.2 picograms (seems a little high on the range) Mean Platelet Volume of 8.3 fL (where the acceptable range seems to be 8-12 The rest of my blood work seemed okay including electrolytes. Hmmm... I don't know why but I wanted to test for more stuff based on some "conclusion leaping" through Google. I started to piece together some other symptoms I had like the fatigue, mouth ulcers, faintness, breathlessness, and joint pain. So, I asked to test for:
Total Iron Bonding Capacity
A week later, I went back to get my results and... No malaria detected and C-Reactive Protein seemed normal. But, there were confusing and abnormal results My Folic Acid levels (in serum) were 12.23 ng/mL (I read "the optimal level is greater than 14.7 ng/mL") My Vitamin B12 levels were 267 pg/mL ("the proposed optimal range is 500–1300 pg/mL") My Serum Iron levels were 238 ug/dL (Typical REFERENCE range is 60 to 170 ug/dL) My Transferin Saturation was 88.1% (Typical REFERENCE range is under 50%) Additionally, my TIBC was 270 ug/dL Having low B12 and Folic Acid on top of having higher Iron would explain some of the symptoms I've had over the last few months (and much of my life, to go out on a limb). Depression, anxiety, fatigue, mouth ulcers, pins and needles, shortness of breath, joint pain, irregular heart rhythm, irritability, some brain fog and memory stuff, feeling faint, diarrhea. An even longer hmmmmmm... Could these slightly out of normal range test results be the reason for my symptoms? Would it be safe to assume I should supplement with B12 and Folic Acid? Should I cut back on Iron? It seems unusual to be high in Iron and low in B12, doesn't it? I would really appreciate any form of clarity, guidance, advise, or anecdotal experiences (if they are allowed in this subreddit) as I am somewhat "on my own" here in my current country's healthcare system. Thank you eternally for reading this and considering my health.
2020.09.23 13:19 alejandroclarkI went parasite hunting and discovered these abnormal blood test results
The obligatory 33 years old, Caucasian male, 76 inches tall, and weighs 220 pounds, no notable medical diagnoses, medication, drugs, smoking, or alcohol disclaimer. tl;dnr: Thought I had a parasite based on recurring symptoms and location (Thailand), test revealed I did not, blood tests also revealed I had some less than optimal blood work results, which lead me to get some vitamin and mineral tests and now I need help deciphering the abnormalities. My symptoms (which lead me to believe I had a parasite): I just went to a tropical disease hospital to check whether I had a parasite after these symptoms occurred a few months ago, on and off:
Oily, sticky, mucous-y stool
Some minor weight loss
These symptoms mostly came and went during the last few months. Oddly enough, the last three or four full moons, the insomnia, diarrhea, and a feeling of anxiety returned the same way each time. We did three stool sample tests (spread across a few days) about ten days after the full moon and all tests were negative for parasites. We did blood work and I noticed something so I decided to investigate further. Some minor red flags on my blood work the doctor said to ignore: In my hematology report, I noticed the following seemed to be a little close to being out of the optimal range: Red blood cell count of 4.59 (million cells per microliter) where the lower threshold seems to be 4.7 to 5 Mean corpuscular hemoglobin of 33.2 picograms (seems a little high on the range) Mean Platelet Volume of 8.3 fL (where the acceptable range seems to be 8-12 The rest of my blood work seemed okay including electrolytes. Hmmm... I don't know why but I wanted to test for more stuff based on some "conclusion leaping" through Google. I started to piece together some other symptoms I had like the fatigue, mouth ulcers, faintness, breathlessness, and joint pain. So, I asked to test for:
Total Iron Bonding Capacity
A week later, I went back to get my results and... No malaria detected and C-Reactive Protein seemed normal. But, there were confusing and abnormal results My Folic Acid levels (in serum) were 12.23 ng/mL (I read "the optimal level is greater than 14.7 ng/mL") My Vitamin B12 levels were 267 pg/mL ("the proposed optimal range is 500–1300 pg/mL") My Serum Iron levels were 238 ug/dL (Typical REFERENCE range is 60 to 170 ug/dL) My Transferin Saturation was 88.1% (Typical REFERENCE range is under 50%) Additionally, my TIBC was 270 ug/dL Having low B12 and Folic Acid on top of having higher Iron would explain some of the symptoms I've had over the last few months (and much of my life, to go out on a limb). Depression, anxiety, fatigue, mouth ulcers, pins and needles, shortness of breath, joint pain, irregular heart rhythm, irritability, some brain fog and memory stuff, feeling faint, diarrhea. An even longer hmmmmmm... Could these slightly out of normal range test results be the reason for my symptoms? Would it be safe to assume I should supplement with B12 and Folic Acid? Should I cut back on Iron? It seems unusual to be high in Iron and low in B12, doesn't it? I would really appreciate any form of clarity, guidance, advise, or anecdotal experiences (if they are allowed in this subreddit) as I am somewhat "on my own" here in my current country's healthcare system. Thank you eternally for reading this and considering my health.
2020.09.23 11:06 Fluid-NewsYoung Thais rocking the foundations of their country
If you have been following ASEAN news, Thailand has the enviable record of a select few countries that have done prettye well in this pandemic, health wise. However, university students and democracy advocates are dismayed by the corruption, highlighted by the freeing of the Red Bull heir for drive-murdering a policeman. Adding to the woes are the atrocious economic situation where jobs have been lost and graduates having very slim chances of landing a job in the near future. There are growing voices blaming the Thai monarchy for aiding this corruption in Thailand. Their signature salute is the 3 finger salute from the Game of Thrones. With tourism being shutdown, poor rural folks who used to rake in tourist dollars in the transport,food and night life sectors have now found themselves jobless,penniless and starving. What will the future hold for ASEAN's second largest economy by GDP?
2020.09.15 03:52 kevin_vSeeing How Thailand's Muay Thai is Like No Other Fighting Sport or Art - Yodpetek Boondeksian
Yodpetek BoondeksianYou want to understand real Muay Thai. Watch Red, Yodpetek, from last night. In dimensions of his fighting, the quality of control, he's fighting way beyond what pretty much any western Muay Thai fighter has ever fought, & really beyond many contemporary Thai stadium fighters.https://web.facebook.com/nuidino/videos/740827979810171 As much is to be debated about child fighting, and there are points to be made on both sides, the surreal understanding of space & timing, since a very young age, is what makes Thailand's Muay Thai like no other fighting art or sport in the world.
2020.09.14 14:44 HDBlackSheepMy [29M] girlfriend [24F] is acting in a very ambiguous way and I fear we're headed toward a break-up.
Hi everyone, I tried to do a title as descriptive as possible. So here is the situation : My GF comes from a city not far from mine, but she decided to study abroad, so she spent the last two years abroad. Last year was her last year of Master and she had to take a traineeship, so she decided to take it in my city in a museum. Her plan was : 6 month here for her traineeship then going back abroad to finish her studies and then come back here to do a second masters. We met on a dating app last year on september 20th (I'm saying it because it matters for later). We have been very fusionnal from the start, and we've been seeing each other a lot right from the start : on the first week we saw each other 3 times, we spent the night together and stayed together all day in the morning. Between october and december, we settled to seeing each other 3 to 4 times a week. Then during her exams, she spent most of her time at my place, except when she had an exam coming soon and needed some time to really study in "hardcore mode". Early february she went back abroad to finish her studies, planning to spend the next 4-5 months there. Originally we planned to visit each other every few weeks so we wouldn't have to spend too much time apart. That's around that time that she started suggesting the idea that maybe, we could live together next year (academic year 2020-2021). I wasn't really on board to begin with, but over the weeks, speaking about it (the fact she was already at my place most of the time for instance) and thinking about how we felt for each other, I went from a "I would rather not" to a "Maybe, we will see how it goes by then" to a "Why not, let's do it". She also wanted us to move to a new place that would be "our place" and not just "my place" (and that would be a little bit more affordable). I then had a trip to Thailand for three weeks from february 22 to march 14. During that time, we called each other everyday, we texted a lot, and she did a lot of appartments research (she was very motivated in finding an appartment for us). When I flew back home, she suprised me at the airport (I thought she was still abroad), we reunited (it was romantic, fiery, etc, just like in a movie) and the plan was to spend the week together, then we'd go abroad together, I'd leave after the week-end was over and we'd settle in our temporary long distance relationship. Enter Covid-19 : in the middle of that week, our country went in lockdown, and my girlfriend, fearing she'd be stuck abroad for months decided to stay with me. We spent the lock down together, and we kinda realized it was silly to find a new place, first of all because I lucked out on my place (it's a very good price for the size and it's well situated), second, because I already have a lot of furnitures that would not fit in many other places, third, because it was forbidden to organize visits for a couple of months and last, because my GF started to really like my appartment. So we spent the lock-down together, and it went rather well. We didn't have many fights, spent almost 24/7 together for months and we didn't feel sick of each other or anything. From mid-march to the end of july. I did notice that she was getting less physical with the time though. We arrived to the logical conclusion that living together wouldn't be a problem considering we kinda "weathered the storm" of the lock-down. Now, during all those months, she had been writing her master thesis .. at a disastrous rate. The lock-down really made it hard on her : she wasn't motivated, when she got to working, it was a slow and atedious advance, and we didn't get to go out and do activities to help her change her mind. She was trying to finish it for the end of June at first, but she eventually realised she couldn't make it, so she went for the mid-august deadline. At the end of July, she went back abroad to finish her thesis and get a chance to say good-bye to her life there. And that's when shit started : she didn't manage to finish her thesis in time and decided to postpone to mid-september, she didn't get to see all the friends she wanted to see there, and when she came back after two and a half week, instead of having a fiery, romantic reunion, she broke into tears as soon as we got home. She said she missed her life there, that she wasn't sure about her future, that she wasn't sure she wanted to make the compromises necessary to live with someone (she always pictured herself able to pick her stuff up and leave for another country if the chance arose), and that she feared being in a relationship would tie her down. We discussed, I told her that I didn't necessary plan to stay in one place, but that I didn't envision moving for the next two to three years. Little parenthesis here : when I went to Thailand, I met so many people taking months or a year off and traveling, and I enjoyed traveling abroad so much that I decided that I wanted to travel more in my future. My GF said she wanted to, at some point, make a big trip abroad for a few months at least, and I was really seduced by the idea. So we ended up "planning" (air quotes because it's still in the idea stage) to take a year off to travel around the world in a few years (maybe 3 to 4, so we can save some money for it, and get some professionnal experience before). Closing the parenthesis. Basically I told her I wanted to be relatively stable for the next two years (she's doing 1 year masters this year anyway), probably three, then see where I go, with the idea that it would be nice to travel around the world first before throwing everything away and relocate to a new place where we will need time to settle, get our marks, learn the language, etc. She kinda agreed to it, told me that having this discussion really helped her see she wasn't "cornered" and made her feel better. So that was mid august. Three weeks from now. The next week we went on vacation to Croatia (we had planned it before we knew she wouldn't meet her august deadline). The week there was great, I feel like we really both needed it after months of lock-down and stress. Back from Croatia (week - 2), she had to move out of her place abroad, so her dad brought all her stuff back to my place. So that was getting real now, with all her stuff at my place (she already had a good amount before, but now all her stuff is here). The very next morning, she looks off, I talk to her and she ends up telling me she has doubts. That she doesn't know if it's a good idea to live together, that she's not sure she's ready to make the necessary concessions, that she wants to be able to live her own life, invite friends whenever she wants, go out with them without owing anybody any explanations. That she's afraid that seeing each other all the time, but not necessarily as quality time, will kill our relationship. That she thinks maybe it's better that she finds a place to live nearby, so we can both have our own place, even if she ends up being at my place 6 nights per week. It took me a moment to swallow the pill (inside, I was like "did you really NEVER think about that before all your stuff is at my place ? seriously wtf ?"), but I eventually told her I understood (I did tell her it was annoying she'd consider all that only now, that I had considered it long before, when she proposed that we'd live together), and that I didn't want to pressure her to anything, that the last thing I wanted was to force her into a position where she would be unhappy. I told her she could take her own place and that we could back-pedal back to before the lock-down. I wake up the next morning, and I expect her to be looking for places to live. Nope, she's changed her mind. She says that knowing that I understand and was accepting her choice made her feel much better, lifted the pressure she felt, and that she realised she was sad at the idea to leave, so now she stays. For now. (for fuck sake, I will never understand women). So we settle for this : we will try living together, if it doesn't work, or if she feels unhappy (or if I feel unhappy for that matter), she finds her own place and we go back to how it was before. Cool. So the week pass by, she gets back into working on her master's thesis (it's still a disaster), and I prepare to leave for another vacation in France for a week. So week - 1, aka last week, I'm off last friday, and go live on an island in Brittany for a week, with very little access to 4G, and a very busy schedule. So I just send her messages in the morning, at noon and in the evening. I do the best I can to check up on her and see how she's doing whenever I can. The week flies by at the speed of light, and that brings us to Saturday night. She's in full stress for her thesis because her deadline is on wednesday and she doesn't know how she'll meet it. When I get home, you get it, it's not the fiery, romantic and sexy reunion yet again, but I'm greeted by a girlfriend who is neck-deep in her thesis, has basically no time for me and is stressed out. Now if it was only that, I'm ok with it, I understand. It's not what I dreamt about for a week, but I am a realistic dude, I know big priorities like this get in the way. However, after we chat a little, she still seems off, so I ask her if there is anything else.. And then she tells me. She tells me she doesn't feel whole anymore because of her thesis, that she can't be present in anything really because of it always looming over her, that she has doubts. She says she doesn't feel the same thing for me anymore. She says she doesn't know if it's the stress of the thesis, if it's a temporary bumps. If it's the routine we had during the lockdown, where we would stay home all day, watch some netflix, not see anyone, not have any activities. That she's not happy that way, that it makes her doubt herself, us, us living together (yet again). When I asked her if she still loved me (we used to say it to each other, she was the first to say it to me in January, and has said it a lot ever since), she first said "she thought so". She said she feels attached to me, but not in the way she would like. That she isn't passionnate anymore. I told her "You're not in love with me anymore ? " (making the difference between being in love and loving someone). And she kinda didn't respond. She asked me if I was, I told her I was, but that I didn't want to be if she isn't and if she's going to dump me. That I really don't want to throw myself in this relationship and open my heart even more if she's going to end up dumping me like a turd. During that discussion she started crying, she said she really don't want us to end, that she wants us to get over this bump and that it's why she's told me all of it. So now I have become full of doubts and restless. I don't know what to think, what to do. The last thing that made me write this wall of text (for this I am sorry), is that this morning, I was looking for something to do next week-end : I asked her if she wanted to go to the beach and have a nice time, to celebrate the end of her thesis and relieve stress. She told me she had planned a week-end with her family already and was going to be away all week-end. Now, I wouldn't be alarmed by this, if not for two reasons : 1) She didn't even mention it to me before (she made plan with her sister and her family last week, but didn't think to tell me about it) 2) Next sunday is the 20th of september. Yeah, you got it, our one year anniversary. Now, I'm not very much the kind of guy who puts too much importance in anniversaries, but SHE IS! Without fail, she has been mentionning our X-month anniversary EVERY MONTH since the 20th of october last year. She has also insisted we organised something for our 1, 3 and 6 months and has had little attentions on the other months. And now we get to our 1 year anniversary, a landmark worthy of notice, and she either forgets about it all together, or consciously decides she doesn't want to spend our one year anniversary together. I mean wtf ? What is that supposed to mean ? All I know is that this, on top of everything else that happened in the last month or so, has set up all the alarms and red flags in my head. So there I am, writing a post on reddit for almost two hours, hoping to get some advice, some outside view. I am sorry I wrote this giant wall of text, and I thank you already if your have read all the way to this point. PS : I didn't think to mention it before, but I switched job at the begining of this year : I was supposed to start my new gig (in which I have no experience) on the very week our country went into lock-down. This resulted in me being temporarily unemployed ever since. The gig I was supposed to do was cancelled, and my firm has been looking for a new place for me ever since, but I have no experience and my profile isn't very attractive to the clients, considering the massive amount of experienced consultants who have been laid off because of the crisis. I decided last month that after all my vacations (that I was forced to take, even though I'm technically unemployed), I would start looking for a new job somewhere else (to hell with the appearances and the bad reputation of being instable in my carreer, I need to find something at this point). And right now, all I can thing about when I think about it, is that Chris Rock bit about how when you lose your job, you're against the clock before you lose your girl... That women naturally feel less attracted by a man who loses his job, no matter how much they care about him.
2020.09.10 15:24 -No_Pasaran-Moving on, post recovery?
Life Guidance Woah, where to start? When I was a kid, I dreamed of wearing a blue helmet, and riding in a white armored vehicle, and saving Bosnian villagers in the snow. I knew it would be morally complex, and tough, I even knew that I might be in a situation where I did the wrong thing in the circumstances and had to deal with the consequences. After being in the cadets, as a kid. I joined the military young. Knowing that this was the route to the United Nations Peacekeeping work. Late summer, after I completed basic training, the world changed forever on September 11, 2001. I thought we would all be sent to Afghanistan immediately, and was intelligent enough to know that there was limited to no connection between The Saudis and Emiratis on the planes, and Afghan villagers and people. My unit didn’t deploy en masse, and I settled into University, officer training, and contributed to the firefighters strike cover. In 2004, we did deploy, but to Iraq. I knew it was a joke. Weapons of mass distraction, and smoke and mirrors. The guys before me were guarding oil pipelines. We did some interesting work, and I was able to guide my team, to do the right thing. I got back, delivered pizzas, and was lost. I got a battalion job and volunteered again to return to Iraq in a specialist (close Protection) role. More interesting, more dynamic, and more complex. Only this time we were mortared to shit, on almost a daily and nightly basis. It was admittedly rough. Mortars are brutal weapons and fuck the mind, after a time. I took leave in Dubai, drowned myself in adrenaline, alcohol, sun, freedom, and nicotine. At the end of that break, I pondered the logic of returning to possible brutal death, being ripped apart by shrapnel, but met a peaceful, beautiful and lovely woman. I did my last few weeks/months in Iraq and visited her at home in Russia. I felt peace and comfort in the forests, villages, and wooden houses of Siberia, and In her arms. After a short stint back in my battalion, I jacked the military and took the decision to become a scuba diving instructor in Thailand. But en route, I visited her in Emirates and decided to stay. I got a great job, and a car and a villa and lived the life, until I fucked it up being reckless and arrogant. I started again, tried scuba diving in Oman, taught kids abseiling, and Kayaking, but realised I wasn’t earning my weekends. I needed war. I found a job in Afghanistan. I worked hard for that job and did well. It was amazing. The sound of helicopters overhead once more felt like home. Afghanistan is (unsurprisingly) a shit show. All the foreigners there, are mad as fish. Me included. I married my Russian partner and experienced happiness for a while. The job came to an end, and I got another role in Kenya, supporting a security operation in Somalia. Two years that lasted. I got drunk when I could and made some good friends. I fell for an aid worker and told my then-wife. After a year of, to and fro between these two amazing women. I ended up with neither. When that contract drew to a close and being disillusioned with private security work, I made the switch to Humanitarian Aid. I felt it was noble. Where I wanted to be. My kind of people. I went to Jordan, worked in refugee camps. Traveled throughout the Middle East and imparted my security knowledge on people who didn’t seem to want or need it. I got binned there too. Face not fitting. Seemingly. I returned to Africa and Somalia. Got my shit together and thrashed myself on the cross-trainer. I was beginning to feel like something was wrong. But I fought it. I was approaching 30 and knew I had to make some smart choices. I took a motorcycle trip around Kenya and took a good job in Somalia. I clashed with my corrupt colleague, earned a lot of money, and decided to take a long trip. I quit and took a year-long motorcycle trip to Mongolia. Looking for solitude and peace. I found self-doubt, fear, and loneliness. I paused in Russia, teaching English for a while, and attended my best buddies wedding in Thailand. After months of searching, and after getting nicely settled in Russia. I took a job, for an aid organisation, in Ukraine in late 2014, and went to Donetsk. I did a good job, providing security support for aid workers. But the cracks were really beginning to appear. Then, one dark afternoon in winter. Out alone, and visiting another humanitarian aid organisation. A rogue militia member tried to stop me driving, I attempted to evade him, on the empty streets he knew much better than me. Not knowing if he was a police officer, I was stopping at red traffic lights. He caught up with me and attempted to shoot out my car tyres. I went to a government office and surrendered to the guards. I was taken, to an interrogation centre, stripped, searched, and interrogated for hours. It really fucked me up. It was the final straw. The calmness, serenity, and numbness I felt were of the extreme. I was returned to my hotel and was left in a state of extreme shock. The next morning, after a sleepless few hours. I was collected by my brand new driver, who promptly drove out on to the road only to be smashed into by a car. I can say now, after much reflection and therapy. That the severe impact of this relatively minor, road traffic collision on top of the events of the previous night. Took their toll. I made it back across the front lines and continued working as if nothing happened. The woman in my life at the time was supportive but knew something was darkly wrong. I flipped out once again, about perceived corruption and inaction and lost my job. After pondering for a while, I set up on my own, in Ukraine, a humanitarian organisation. Started selling medical equipment and providing security advice. Eventually, I got $50,000 of funding from the UN, and built toilets on the front line to protect civilians from landmines. But it was all falling apart. The stress of managing myself and my team. The soviet bureaucracy, Politics. I was eventually bedridden. Stoned and incapable. Just agonising over how to keep my team employed and myself useful. My family coaxed me to my home country, for a week. For a break and a birthday party. A country that was completely alien to me in every way. I was depressed, down, and lost. Long nights in fear. Confusion and worry reigned. I stayed a while longer and it all fell apart. I started forgetting where I was, what I was doing and was struggling with the basics. I tried to get jobs but was too angry and frustrated. I did what I was told in the past, was the brave thing to do, and asked for help. I asked a lot of organisations, had a number of assessments, and was passed from pillar to post, forgotten about, and assessed. I entered what would become two long, cold, lonely years of “help”. It was the darkest and most frustrating period of my life. I don't wish to the experience of being so vulnerable and low on anyone. When enough people treat you like you are incapable. You finally become incapable. I was already fucked, but the nonsense and turmoil of the support system in my country makes it 10 times worse. Eventually, I got some treatment that helped and got much better. It took another year but I got a job and started training as a firefighter and loved learning again. After another security job nearly tempted me back to the Middle East and desert. I opted to stay and make a go of the quiet normal life. I’m a manager in the fire service and I hate it. It’s lonely and my team does their own thing. My managers go around me. I feel as if I am physically present but the discussion is happening around me. Perhaps like I am invisible. I have deep, complex thoughts but don’t have the confidence to raise them. I don’t have the energy to pursue any complex strategies and am always searching my mind for the big win. I don’t know what to do. I don’t know where I am or what to do, or where to go. I’m not even sure what is the right Reddit for this post. But, I read Reddit and see like-minded people here who have a very similar critical, black humoured, intelligent, and realistic mind as mine. So, I figure maybe the community has some insight or wisdom to share. Or ideas. Thank you
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2020.09.06 11:41 TheGeckoWranglerItem for Auction: The Grinning Tiger
Welcome again, dear patrons, to the Red Moth Auction Hall! Today’s item is perfect for livening up bare floors. But before we can begin, we ask that any newcomers review and observe the standards of this hall: The buyer takes all responsibility for any piece obtained through the Red Moth Auction Hall, and is thus responsible for anything happening in connection with it. The exception to this rule is cases of burglary, which the Red Moth Auction Hall graciously offers compensation for and assistance in dealing with. The buyer, upon affiliating with the Red Moth Auction Hall, will not disclose any information about the Red Moth Auction Hall to outside sources, unless given express permission to do so. This would be applicable in the case of initiating new patrons and members. Anyone found guilty of violating this rule will be banned from attending future auctions, and swiftly dealt with. Should the buyer have any questions on their new item not answered on site or through the provided information, they are free to call our customer service representative with the number provided through the auction hall’s membership papers. They will gladly help as much as they are capable. Without further ado, these are the terms, requirements, and otherwise valuable information regarding today’s item. It is in your best interest to read this information before placing any bids. Item name: The Grinning Tiger This Item was originally obtained in Eastern Turkey, and has been among our archives for quite some time. It is the complete preserved hide of an incredibly large Panthera Tigris Tigris, measuring at 12 feet from head to tail. It’s left eye contains a marble engraved with Turkish writing. Interestingly enough, the mouth appears to form a distinctive grin. This particular Panthera Tigris Tigris specimen hails from a distinct population commonly referred to as “Caspian Tigers”. This population, as with many distinct tiger populations, has been extinct for several decades, due entirely to excessive hunting and trapping by a combination of thrill-seeking explorers and terrified villagers. And while Panthera Tigris Tigris survives through the Bengal, Siberian, Indochinese, South China, and Malayan tiger populations, each separate population bears subtle yet unique characteristics. To lose one population is to lose their traits entirely. Within folklore, tigers have an imposing presence: they’re seen as a sign of royalty, wrath, and fearlessness across Eastern Asia, while a white tiger is seen as one of the four guardian beasts of Japan. There are also tales of blue furred “Maltese tigers” across China. However, also among tiger folklore are stories of the were-tigers: fearsome beasts who were human by day and monstrous half-tigers by night. In China, they were said to be the result of a curse(often involving varying levels of magic), doomed to roam the night as a mindless, ravenous maneater. Stories from Thailand claim that tigers who ate many people would become part human themselves. But Malaysia legends tell a different tale: they say that were-tigers were in fact benevolent, rarely hunting people and even protecting farms from wild pigs. This particular hide was previously used as a rug by a British big-game hunter from the early 1900s. He traveled to Turkey in pursuit of a fabled giant tiger said to roam the woods of an isolated Turkish village. However, upon his arrival, the villagers tried to dissuade him from hunting his target, whom they referred to as “Muhafiz”: they insisted this tiger was their guardian, guiding lost people out of the woods, pulling drowning children from rivers to leave them unharmed on shore, and protecting them from thieves, leopards, and even other tigers. Several villagers claimed the tiger had even brought them freshly killed deer during food shortages. But unfortunately, the hunter was cold and cruel. After several nights of watching and waiting, he left the woods with an impossibly large tiger. The villagers mourned Muhafiz, along with a local woodcarver that disappeared around the same time. But this did nothing to stop the hunter from having the beast skinned and made into a rug. He displayed it proudly in his trophy room, even being so bold as to replace the left eye with a black marble bearing the word “Muhafiz” on it. After claiming what he considered his greatest prize, a series of tragedies befell the hunter. First, his trophy room was ransacked by burglars: he woke one morning to find that every single mount and skin in his trophy room was either missing or torn to absolute ribbons. Next, his entire household staff was murdered the following night: entirely, save for one Turkish maid. One night later, his wife and 4 children were murdered as well, all-but destroying the hunter’s now dwindling sanity. But the string of tragedies ended after the next night, when the hunter himself was murdered. He was found the next day in an absolutely horrifying sight: he had been skinned, his hide placed in the center of his former trophy room, and his skull was found hanging from a nearby wall. The rest of his remains were never found, but scrawled on the walls in a viscous red liquid was a message: “Bütün dünyamı benden aldın. Şimdi sana ayni ödeme yaptım.” Oddly enough, his prized tiger rug had been returned, and was found draped over the one useable chair left in the trophy room. Macabre stories aside, the skin is beautifully preserved: there’s no signs of bald spots or faded coloration anywhere, and all the teeth and claws are accounted for. Additionally, the animal’s pattern and coloration is truly majestic, the deep shade of golden orange blending perfectly with the black stripes. The chiseled marble eye is also beautifully polished, the word written on it still perfectly legible. The head in turn is wonderfully shaped as well: you’d almost think it was actually staring at you! And with the hide’s large, imposing size, this item will certainly cover the floor of any den or living room exquisitely, adding an untamed, exotically wild flare to any room! While I’m sure you’re all eager to start the bid, we must ask that you review the following terms and conditions of this item first:
This item should not be kept in a neighborhood, or otherwise highly populated area.
If at all avoidable, no objects should be placed on this item at any point.
Do not walk on this item without first cleaning your shoes.
The room containing this item should have at least 1 door leading outside. Leave it unlocked and slightly open at night.
Do not keep guns in the same room as this item under any circumstance. You might find yourself in the item’s place if you do.
All doors inside the house should be fitted with silver or partially silver knobs and hinges(while they can’t harm the item, they often dissuade the item from entering). They should also be made of thick, durable wood.
Do not sleep without locking your room’s doors, and do not leave your room in the middle of the night.
If you ever observe that the item appears to be swelling, rising, and forming bones, immediately lock yourself within a different room. It tends to be rather unpredictable when first awakening.
The item will often change position overnight. Don’t be alarmed if you find it in front of your room in the morning.
Don’t be alarmed if you hear doors opening or glass breaking at night: most likely, the item is going hunting.
Even if the sounds aren’t from the item, anything that could possibly break into your home will regret the choice quickly: Muhafiz knows when people enter his territory, and his response to intruders is never kind.
If, when you first find it in the morning, the item’s trademark grin is wider than normal, move it back to it’s original position.
If, however, the item’s grin is missing, keep your distance: it is dissatisfied with the evening’s hunt. While it primarily only activates at night, it’s been known to wrap itself around victims during the day to save them for later. It happens quickly, and Muhafiz won’t let himself be removed until nightfall.
If Muhafiz wraps around you for any reason, we unfortunately can provide no advice on further action.
Before going to bed each night, take note of the item’s right eye: if it appears motionless, no additional action is required. If however, the eye appears to be following you, leave a steak in front of the item(the kind of meat doesn’t matter).
Check your doors the next morning. If there are long, 1 inch-deep scratches on any of them, leave another steak: this most likely happened because it didn’t get the first one.
If the scratches are worse the following morning, combine the steak with one rabbit. This has never failed to calm him before.
If you ever find that a door has been completely destroyed, consider introducing deer to your area: he’s most likely eliminated potential prey in the immediate area, and is becoming restless.
If, in the middle of the night, you wake to the sound of an old man singing, try to ignore it. Muhafiz occasionally recites old folksongs, and absolutely hates being interrupted.
You may notice tiny wooden tiger sculptures suddenly appearing around you home. Do not move them if avoidable. They are a sign that Muhafiz likes you and your household. Moving them may insult and offend him.
If in the morning you find the body of a deer on the item, it’s a gift from Muhafiz. Remove and cook any viable meat, then discard of the excess remains. While you are free to tan and use the hide, do not attempt to preserve and display the deer’s head: this is an excellent way to offend Muhafiz.
If you notice reports implying a surge of brutal murders within 50 miles of your house, don’t be overly alarmed: Muhafiz is simply hunting. The reports should die down eventually, as Muhafiz is specific on whom he targets. It’s also worth noting he can move at near impossible speeds to pursue prey.
Avoid allowing particularly rude or offensive individuals around the item. The Item is normally only active at night, but it is always watching for new victims. Excessively impolite people are just within his prey standards.
Avoid acting repulsively, sadistically, or otherwise unkindly around the item. Muhafiz targets individuals perceived by him as “wicked”. If he targets you, the only advice we can provide is to sell the item(if you survive long enough to know you’ve been targeted) to a new owner 50+ miles away from your home: those doors can’t stop him from entering if he really wants to, and he never forgets a target.
Under no circumstances should anyone be in your yard at night. While he only “hunts” individuals deemed wicked, Muhafiz will probably still give unwelcome individuals a “warning swipe”. Bear in mind even his “warning swipe” can leave 1 inch-deep scratches in wood.
If for whatever reason Muhafiz approaches you at night, observe his behavior and act accordingly.
If Muhafiz growls at you, he’s angry, but not necessarily to the point of violence(you probably wouldn’t have gotten a chance to react if he was). Bow apologetically, and apologize verbally if you know what you did to anger him. That should be enough to calm him down. He’ll usually leave to go hunting afterwards.
If he begins singing, try to sing back to the best of your ability. He occasionally gets lonely, and likes singing with people. He’ll probably be offended if you don’t at least try to sing.
If he just stares at you with his eyes squinted, you’re perfectly safe: he simply likes you, and wanted to confirm your safety.
If he smiles at you, we unfortunately can provide no advice on further action. He’s targeted you, and you’re simply far too close to escape.
If you acknowledge the following, and respect the previously mentioned rules, we are certain this piece will be in good hands under your ownership. We wish you the best of luck during the bid!* *The Red Moth Auction Hall may not be held liable for any loss of persons, mass destruction of property, animal remains found around or within your home, pets running away from fear, loss of sleep due to loud animal calls, cases of multiple broken bones and torn muscles, brutal murders, violent animal attacks, fatal or non fatal injuries, or deaths and disappearances resulting from ownership of the piece known as “The Grinning Tiger”.
Hi, I want to submit a story that has happened to me and my wife 6 years ago, I am a French guy that lives in Thailand for nearly 20 years. It is a scary encounter that has happened over a period of little more than two weeks until now I still afraid that this thing comes again. Feel free to use my story for your vdo or even ask me for some more info. First of all, I am born and raised in France and I move to South East Asia nearly 19 years ago. I move in Thailand because I wasn't feeling good in my country. Since my childhood, I have witnessed my country and Europe, in general, going from what we use to call a Free Country to a non-sense and close to communist ideology. I wasn't feeling right there and as I am a kind of open-minded, rebellious, and truth seekers guy, I was starting to have some trouble with authorities just for trying to bring some subjects to the eyes of others. I use to really love my country for what it was back in the 70' and 80'. Today you cannot say I love France from before, if you do it in public you get called "nazi, white supremacist, fascist, racist, and many other bad words" and I cannot see why I cannot love what my country use to be. France has never been a Nazi country but those brainwashed people use words that are putting you in trouble and even on a trail. Anyway, there are so many things that are going wrong in Europe in general that I can write an encyclopedia. So I come to Thailand and feel much better here. People love their country and do what it takes to make it even better and also I come here because it is a beautiful place with good weather and lovely people. I also love the way they take care they cultural heritage and always respect it. Also, I know the country for a long time and has the biggest movie production in Thailand was asking me for more than a year to come and work for them. after some years in Bangkok, I move up north near Chiang Mai and leave here with my wife and our two dogs. After some years of running a successful business in Chiang Mai, we decide to move out of the town and rent a house in the mountains not far from Chiang Mai. We find a very nice little house in Nam Phrae area just at the entrance of Op Khan national park. We were lucky to live there as nature lovers we have many beautiful animals all around us, the park has tigers, bears, monkeys, and many kinds of birds all running freely in and some time out of the park of 550 Km square. One night we have a clouded Leopard on our roof, when I go out to check what was on the roof it jumps from the roof, and in two jumps it was out of our land and over the fence. We really enjoy the life there. The house and the land have a good vibe and both of us and the friends that are coming to see us were experiencing a good time at this place. Thai people are Buddhist and most of them have a deep contact with their environment (things most westerners are not understanding) they really notice the vibes of a place and if the vibe isn't good they will not stay there. But in the case of our place, all our Thai friends really enjoy the place. Also in the Thai tradition and culture, every house has what we call a Spirit house. The spirit house isn't from their Buddhist heritage but from before when the very long time ancestors were animist, but this tradition still here today and it is really rare to see a house without a spirit house. The spirit house is mainly a little house where the spirit from the ancestor of the land and the family is supposed to live. It is an important thing in Thailand, when Thai people come to visit us they "Way" (traditional gesture with both hands join at head level, little like praying, but it the way to give respect and salute) the spirit house to give respect to ancestors of the land and ask them permission to enter. Like every house in Thailand, our house has a spirit house in front of our house. We treat it with the respect of the traditions. The first 3 years were very good, I never notice anything suspicious. I am maybe a foreigner but I always also have this feeling since I was a child, that someplace has something I cannot explain, but I remember me as a child running out of some places only has my inner feeling was telling me to do so. The western culture tells us there is no such thing as ghosts or entities. I was believing in the teaching I receive but at the same time, I always have a strong suspicion about what I was feeling and for some years I put it on a psychological issue. But in the case of our house, I never felt anything that makes me uncomfortable. One evening in the third year living there, I was at the back of the house in the kitchen, I was doing something and I was facing the windows but wasn't looking at it. For a second or so I have a quick feeling that I was watching by someone. So, I look at the windows and see something very strange, it looks little like the shape of a human but with blurry outlines and moving very fast out of my sight. It was close to the windows and in between the windows and a kind of little bamboo fence, also we have at night a neon light always open in the front and back of the house so I can see it very well, it moves really fast out of the windows and I try to follow it by moving in front of the glass door we have in the kitchen. But it is like in a matter of a second this thing is already too far to be seen. No human or even animals can go that fast. If I can describe it I will say it looks like a kind of black smoke or something like that and shaped as a kind of human outline and it must be in 3 dimensions because I cannot see through it and it moves without any noises. My feeling was very strange after that. I remember running to the bedroom to tell my wife about it and as Thais are much more aware of these things then we are I was expecting a kind of explanation from her or an interpretation of some kind. But nothing, she listens to me and may have thought I have mistaken for an animal or even I was dreaming. It was my first encounter with this thing but not the last. Just a few days after in the evening I was laying on the bed with our two dogs close to me. The curtains of the window were closed but I can see through it as our light is always on the outside at night (It is common for Thais in the countryside to leave the light on the outside at night time). I was on the bed looking at something on the computer when, suddenly I have the same kind of feeling than a few days before, being watched. I look in the direction of the window, and behind the curtain between the light outside and the window, I saw the same dark thing moving really fast without a sound. I opened the curtain and look outside and again nothing to be seen, but at the same time, my two dogs start to barking and growling. But they are small dogs and it was impossible for them to see what was going on outside behind the curtains. Just before it happens they were on the ground relaxing, then suddenly they stand and start barking and growling. They go to the door enclosure and start to growl in the direction of the main door and get kind of piss off by something. After maybe half a minute they were kind of afraid with their tail in between their legs and run under the bed and faces the door of the bedroom as if they were waiting for something to enter the bedroom and also growling slowly. My wife was in another part of the house, I called her and explain to her that I've just seen the same thing for the second time and let her notice how our dogs were reacted to something that wasn't there. I know she was thinking that the dog reaction wasn't right, but in this kind of case, Thai people will not speak about it by fear of inviting something unwelcomed in the house. I can see her reaction but she just says it must be an animal outside, but I know she didn't believe in what she was saying. From that day our two dogs don't want to put their legs outside the house at night, not even with us on the terrasse. Nearly every night at some point the dogs react to something outside the house and start to bark at the main door, then growling and finally, tail in between their legs running to take refuge under the bed and staring at the bedroom door with a slower growl like they were waiting for something to come inside the bedroom. A few times I've been out with a sword to look at what was making them so afraid, but not find anything at all. It becomes a kind of strange thing that happens nearly on a daily basis and we don't know what to do about it. A few times I carry the dogs outside than they always run back inside and under the bed. This was really strange as they are really happy dogs and always use to like hunting around the house especially at night time. But one thing I have noticed was, every time the dogs have this kind of reaction the house feels very different. The best way I can explain this feeling is like the overall energy of the house become heavier and kind of electric at the same time. But it means nothing it is just how we felt the house at these strange times. A few days later, at night the weather was really hot, much more than usual. I wasn't able to sleep at all, I was feeling like I cannot breathe. So I decided to go to take the fresh air on the terrasse and relax on the hammock. I leave the main door open and called the dogs to join me outside, just in case they will come. They both come to the door and right away turns back and back under the bed (before these events the dogs never go under the bed, they prefer to be on the floor or even on the sofa). So I try to relax as the air outside was way better than inside the house. I take my phone and start to read some messages. All around me the sound of all the insects of the night was loud as usual and I was having a good time. Suddenly all the insects stop their sounds and I hear the sound making me feel like somebody or something was walking and walk on some dead branch on the floor making it cracked one time. I can estimate the sound was about 10 or 15 meters from me, I started to look in the direction of the sound but nothing was there, so I was thinking a fruit must have fallen down on the floor, but deep inside me I also know well enough what is the sound when fruits are falling. I just ignore it and continue to swing on the hammock and look at my phone. A minute or so later another cracking sound but this time it was very close to me. Next to me at the side of the terrasse was a few bamboos and a kind of tall and skinny palm trees and just behind it, I use to park my motorcycle. The sound was coming from around there, about 2 to 3 meters from where I was in the hammock. I open the light on the back of the phone and start to light the area. Suddenly just after the bamboos in between it and my motorbike, I saw two big eyes but no head at all, the eyes look like the eyes of a panther and what was really strange it looks like it was spaced from at least 20 centimeters one from the other one. As soon as I light it makes like the eyes turn from me to somewhere and it disappears right away. I jump out of the hammock and get goosebumps to my whole body and run into the house, the few meters to go inside seems to be kilometers. I finally arrive in the house and close the door as fast as I can, the dogs were growling to something. I cannot really explain what I have seen it is just like two eyes with no head and body and it looks huge. Behind it was my motorbike and it has many chrome parts and this thing was in between and just turns as soon as I light it. I was kind of shaking inside, I told my wife about it and once more she denies to talk about it, by fear of bringing this thing closer to us. After some time I finally calm down and decide to try to change my mind by looking at a movie on my computer. The dogs stay alert for some time then they stop and after a little time always under the bed they start to growl again. Then my wife comes to me with a strange expression on her face and she started to tell me with a low tone voice she just sees this black thing from the kitchen windows and she is also looking terrified. Even if she was kind of terrified I was kind of happy to not be the only one to have seen it, it comforts my feeling that I am not turning crazy. This strange situation has lasted for nearly three weeks, the ones the most affected was our two dogs. The day after the strangest experience we've been to a little shop two kilometers away where we are used to go. We going to buy some food from the woman who owns the shop. Since the night before I cannot stop thinking about what has happened and was fearful that it can go further. I don't know why but I have the feeling we really need to talk with her about what we experiencing. I tell my wife let talk to her about it. My feeling was right as it happens that her father is the spiritual healer of the village and he also takes care of strange events like that. We explain the whole situation to her and she says she will talk to her father about it. Later that day she shows up at our gate and handles us an envelope with four little red ropes with a tie inside. She tells us to hang one at the top of the main door and another one at the top of the bedroom door. The other two rope is for us to put around our wrist, her father makes it for us. After a few days nothing has changed, it still the same the digs are afraid at night and they are disturbed by something. The energy in the house is sometimes normal but it can change very fast. I decide to go to see her again and tell her about it. She tells me she will speak to her father again and he may need to perform a ceremony at our place. She also tells me that this kind of thing can't be done at any time. First, her father has to decide on the day following some rules and it should be done early morning. It takes four days for them to come. Without us knowing they come to our house at 6:30 am. Her father as a plastic bag in one hand with some plants in it, some flowers, a little branch, some candles, and incense sticks, and a roll of a white rope like the one used in the temples. The first thing he asks was to bring him a little bucket of water and to fill two big buckets with water. He sat on the terrasse and start to prepare things. He put the dried fruit (King of fruit in Thai, not for eating) in each bucket and he lights a candle and puts a few drops of wax inside the water in each bucket. He does the same with incense and prepares a plate with the flowers and some leaves inside and the dried fruit then he goes into each room of the house and says something in Pali (the Buddha Language) and he blows on the top of the plate in each room. After that, he takes the little bucket and the small branch and throws some of the water on every wall of the house inside and outside. After that, he gives me the roll of white rope and tells me I have to put the rope all around our house upper than the doors and windows. He helps me to do it. After that, he told us we have to take a shower with the water in the two big buckets before 9 am and not after. Before they leave the house he turns to me and says I was the one targeted by this thing and ask me if before these events I have some experiences or feelings. He was right a few days before I first saw the black thing I have a dinner in Chiang Mai with some friends leaving in Chiang Rai. We have been to a Swiss restaurant because they are from Switzerland. It was a nice dinner with very good friends. But on my way back home just after I quit the big road and was riding my motorcycle on the last 4 kilometers to my home. I have a strange feeling that something that I can't see was next or behind me and it gives me chills, so I accelerated and feel better after. I arrive home and didn't think about it. In my head, this was due to my imagination but after thinking about it, how come when I was busy at riding my motorbike on a mountain road I just get disturbed by a strange feeling and can even feel where this thing was next to me. After linking all the events in time it is possible that I get hooked by something at that moment. Anyway, after asking me about it, the father and his daughter leave our house and we take a shower with the water and even shower our two dogs, as they were the most affected. I was really suspicious about the issue of the ceremony, I was sure as soon as the night arrives the dogs will start to be fearful again and the house will become heavy once more. But anyway, I try what the father says because when this kind of thing happens, it can be fun at the beginning but quickly it becomes out of control and it brings bad vibes in our house as well as on our lives. The night arrives, and at my big surprise, the dogs were not afraid at all to go out even on their own. Also, the overall energy has changed a lot everything is back to normal and for the dogs, it really looks like they had already forgotten what the house energy was for nearly three weeks. From this experience, I learn a few things. First listen to what your feeling tells you, human in the west are so materialist and only rely on science. But the world and universe, in general, is much more than what we see, we are not used to listening to our feeling and interpret what it says. There are other things that science doesn't know about yet, life seems to be more than what we know. Second, I learn how to interpret the reactions of my dogs and I can tell you in a few cases when I take them for a walk in our village there is places where they won't go and know more about the village, I also now know why they won't go there. Animals' feelings are much more developed than human and it is good to learn with them and be close to them. The reality is much more deeper and strange than what we are able to see. Just listen to yourself. For those who not believe may be open yourself to the world and not only what you think you are seeing. These are the facts of a real story, believe it or not, it will not change it.
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Link: Link: 220.127.116.11.5. 6. 18.104.22.168 --Azur Lane Base Canteen-- The sun was setting as we reached the base canteen. “Here we are!” I raise my voice as Little E looks at me, confused. “Is there a surprise inside?” she asked me. I nod and open the door. She cautiously walks inside and sees it was dark. “Hello? Anyone here?” she calls out in the dark. At that moment, the lights turn on, blinding the little girl. “WELCOME TO THE FLEET LITTLE E!!!” “HUH!?” Little E rubs her eyes to see everyone on base coming out from tables and chairs and surprising her. Streamers and balloons fell around her as she was stunned. She looks around to see the canteen was converted to a party hall with a musical stage, dance floor, arcade station, photo booth, and a buffet of food. “What’s going on!?” Little E was flabbergasted as I walked over to her, snickering. “A welcome party for you, Little E,” I explained to her. “Yorktown wanted to host a welcome party for you, and well, who doesn’t like a party.” I grin as she looks for the aircraft carrier. Once she finds her, she sprints to her, giving her a hug. “Thank you Grandma Yorkie!!” Little E cries out. Yorktown’s face flushes pink as she returns the embrace. “It’s nothing Little E. I would do any-” Before she could finish, Little E planted a kiss on her cheek. Immediately, the Yorktown-class carrier goes full red as her nose jets out blood like a fire hydrant on a hot summer day in New York City. Little E jumps away as the nose bleeding Yorktown faints. Hornet catches her as Vestal does a blood transfusion. “Don’t worry Commander! Mercy and Comfort sent me an oil tanker of blood for us! We should be fine!” Vestal informs me. “Well with that, let’s party!” I say. With that, DJ Akashi starts popping tones as everyone starts to mingle. I walk over to Enty, unbuttoning my uniform. “What a surprise, right?” “Yup.” Enty nods as she hands me a bag. “Here some comfortable clothes.” “Thank you.” I smile as I head over to the restrooms. “You can have fun, Enty. I can ask someone else to be my drunk guard.” She raises an eyebrow. “Are you sure? Iron Blood brought in their fresh barrels as well as Sardegna breaking out the vintage bottles tonight. People are excited for that and well… you know how some shipgirls become after drinking. And Saint Louis, your usual drunk guard, is on a mission so...” “I’ll find someone else to protect me from the drunks,” I tell her. “Enjoy yourself. You deserve it Mom E.” “Oh quiet.” She playfully shoves me towards the bathroom. I enter the bathroom and change from my commander’s uniform to a t-shirt and cargo pants. I splash my face with cold water and clean my glasses before I exit. Outside, I see West Virginia lean against the opposite wall, waiting. “Sorry if I took too long,” I tell her, getting out of her way for the bathroom. “Oh no, Commander.” West Virginia shakes her head. “I was waiting for you.” I noticed she was looking around nervously like she was being watched. “Everything alright?” I asked her. She jumped at my question. I raise my eyebrow as West isn’t easily spooked. She has a cold exterior, sometimes hard to approach like her sister Colorado, but she isn’t that easily surprised. “Everything’s fine.” She answers me, her voice springy. We walked into the party. “I just… I heard from Enterprise that you need a drunk guard and I am offering my service for you tonight.” “Don’t you and the battleship row girls usually drink at these events?” I think back to Oktoberfest when they were drinking like no tomorrow. “Well…” She worryingly looks around again. “I am just… worried about you with the drunks. That’s all.” “Okay, West,” I give into the lie, but she is hiding something from me. “Just know you are allowed to drink some alcoholic, just not as much as everyone else.” “I understand.” She nods as we join the party. The night was young, yet everyone was partying like no tomorrow. From the girls eating food made by the top chefs Dunkerque, KGV, and Nevada to some of the younger ones playing at the game corner, everyone seems to be having a good time. “Sh~ik~kan~” I hear whispers in my ears. I sigh as I feel both my arms pulled into something soft… “Akagi. Taihou.” I address my assailants. I could smell the sake off them. “To what pleasure brings you two to capture me?” “I just want a dance with you~,” They both say in unison as they lead me to the dance floor. “Please get your-” West tries to get them off me, but they shove her aside. “Back off!” Akagi tells the battleship. “It’s my turn with shikkan!” “No!” Taihou pulls me closer to her. “It’s my turn with shikkan!” “Hehehehe~ Sh~ik~kan~” We stop in our tracks and look in front of us. We see Junyou, holding two bottles of sake. “I think you need to learn how to read the room, Akagi and Taihou.” She downs the two bottles, tossing them aside. She lumbers forward, her red eyes glaring at them. “Junyou, please try to-” I try to reason with her, but she lunges at us. “Don’t get between me and Shikkan!!” She screams. When shipgirls and alcohol combine… it gets a little wild. With Junyou and some sake, she reverts back to her clingy self. West pulls me out of the fight as the yanderes’ sisters and Mikasa pull them apart. “Thank you,” I tell them as we head our own ways. With the music pumping, I see some owning the dance floor. I spot Denver breakdancing with her sisters and the Brooklyn-class; Fubuki doing some fancy footwork with Hibiki; Repulse dancing with Renown; Spee shuffling with her bombastic sister; a lot of girls having fun. I see Little E dancing with the Yorktown-class, being swung around by Yorktown. Her smile was from port to starboard as she happily laughed. Her happiness almost made me forget my problems… almost. Through the crowd across the canteen, I can tell that Belfast didn’t come. “I hope she takes my advice and gets fresh air.” I think back to telling her about that. “Kommandant!” I snap back into reality and see Z23 taking me by the arm. “Kommandant, would you dance with us?” “Us?” I look past her and see the rest of Starter Squad dancing. “Please?” She begs me. “Sure.” I nod. I look back at West and toss her my cloth bag. “Keep an eye on that.” “Of course.” West nods as I am dragged to the dance floor. “I may not have good moves, but I know how to dance!” I tell them as I start to groove with them. --- At the drink bar, Bismarck and Hood share a pint of fresh Iron Blood beer. “*Gulp* ahhhhhhh~” Hood downs the pint. “Another one please.” From the counter, a manjuu fills her another pint. Bismarck watches as the battlecruiser downs that pint. “Slow down Hood,” The Iron Blood leader tells her. “We have more barrels of this stuff. Don’t need to down it.” “Sorry Bismarck.” Hood wipes her lips. “Just need to let out some emotions.” “Well, I’m all ears.” Bismarck offers, sipping on her pint. Hood puts her head on the counter, looking at her friend with a frown. “It’s Belfast.” “Oh.” “I had hoped she would be here tonight, but sadly she isn’t.” She takes another sip of her pint. “I just want to tell her that I forgive her for what she’s done. I want to see my friend again…” She finishes the pint and orders another. Bismarck sighs and rubs the down battlecruiser’s back. “You know, this situation Belfast’s facing reminds me of when I made a deal with the Sirens.” Bismarck tries to comfort her. “Being under someone else's control sucks. I remember watching everything I did, while I was under their control. Every shell fired, every hit made, every ship sunk by my guns. When you Royals purged me from Siren control and took me prisoner, I hated myself. I hated that I gave away my honor for power. Power that was supposed to save my home, but only sees that same power corrupts and consumes it. The only reason I stand here today and lead the Iron Blood is that my friends loved me and brought me back from my despair.” she takes a sip. Hood lifts herself up, watching the platinum blonde battleship finishing her pint. “Belfast needs to understand that her friends still care for her. Keep trying Hood.” Bismarck looks at her companion and sees her wiping tears from her clear blue eyes. “Are you okay Hood?” “Yeah,” Hood answers, sitting up. “Thank you, Bismarck. You really know how to boost morale.” The Iron Blood leader smirks “Comes with leadership.” They finish their pints. “Don’t give up Hood. Belfast just needs support. I know the Kommandant is giving it his all, even though it is slow.” “Yeah. I do hope Belfast understands it isn’t her fault. Only time can tell.” “Ja.” Another pint of beers is served to them. “To friends?” “To friends.” They cheer as they drink. --Three pints later-- “Oh Biscuit!” Hood howlers. “Even though you look cold, unapproachable, serious, and other things~ you are a beauty to behold. I understand why your former commander called you the Queen of the Seas~” She wraps her arms around the uncomfortable, red-faced, Iron Blood leader. Only six pints of beer caused the elegance Hood of the Royal Navy to become an eccentric drunk. Another pint is poured for her. Hood tries to grab it, but Bismarck stops her. “I think that enough for you tonight, Hood,” Bismarck tells her. “Oh Biscuit~” Hood pouts as she is denied the drink. “It only a little beer~” “This is your seventh pint.” “Oh pppffffffff!” She waves it off. “Laffey could drink your brewery dry and still fire straight at an enemy ship a thousand football pitches [A/N: Soccer fields] away!” “That’s because she has a high alcohol tolerance.” Bismarck counters as the battlecruiser start to sway. “You are a lightweight.” “Lightweight! HA! I am the pride of the Royal Navy! A battlecruiser!” The drunk Hood boasts. “I’ll show you light weight~” She grabs the leader’s pint and forcibly chugs it. Bismarck’s cheeks flushed red as Hood seductively licked her lips. It was either the party atmosphere, the beer, or both, but she looked stunning. Hood leaned closer to the charmed leader. “Hood…” Bismarck gulps as she hears someone tap the mic. “Hello party-goers!” Akashi’s voice echoes out. “DJ Akashi’s stage is now holding karaoke! Any willing takers nya?” The party halls go into murmurs as people are thinking about who will go first. Hood stops her advances and gives the Iron Blood leader a knowing look. She drunkenly goes to the stage. “Ha! Our first singer nya!” Akashi exclaims as she hands Hood a mic. “And what song would you like to sing?” Hood scrolls through the list of songs before finding it. She clicks it and gets to the center of the stage. She takes the mic and smiles. “This is for the Iron Blood beauty at the bar!” Bismarck’s face goes bright red as whatever Hood is about to sing, this is dedicated to her. A couple of snickers as the Akashi starts to play the music. The low orchestra led to a riff of guitars as Bismarck realized what Hood was about to sing. She grabs the sides of her head in shock. “OH MEIN GOTT!!!!” “From the mist a shape, a ship is taking form~” Hood begins to sing. The crowd howls and laughs, cheering the battlecruiser on, as the mighty Bismarck sinks into her chair. “And the silence of the sea is about to drift into a storm.” Tirpitz walks over to her embarrassed sister, pint in hand. “Um… sister?” “Ja?” Bismarck doesn’t turn to face her sister. Embarrassment has taken her. “Sign of Power~” “Hood is singing-” “I know.” “Show of force!!” “And she is dedicating this to you.” Tirpitz takes a seat next to her. “Yup.” Bismarck hides her embarrassment. “Raise the anchor, battleship’s plotting its course!” “She is nailing the pitch.” The white hair battleship comments, head nodding along. "For some drunk." “Sink me.” Bismarck requests. “Sink me now.” She can already see Prinz have a shit-eating grin across her face. She is probably ready to relentlessly tease her about this scene. “Pride of a nation~, a beast made of steel!” “Ask KGV for that.” Tirpitz rubs her sister’s back. “Need a drink to forget this?” “Bismarck in motion!!” “I need ten breweries to forget this.” she cries out as Tirpitz signals the manjuu bartender. “I need a few pints for my sister here!” “Queen of the ocean! She was made to rule the waves across the seven seas!!” --- After that, shocking yet damn good performance of Bismarck by Hood, we had more performances. Prinz brought a mildly annoyed Wales on stage to perform Time of my Life with the Dirty Dancing dance. I think Wales, like Hood, had a few pints too much as she was angrily going along with the Iron Blood cruiser. After those two, West got up and played her signature song, Take me Home, Country Road, and once she was done, she was joined by her sisters and the battleship row for Queen’s Bohemian Rhapsody. God, I heard from California that Tennessee was taking singing lessons from Memphis, but damn, Tennessee got a voice. Some other highlight singers were: Yorktown sang What You’re Made of, Enterprise performed Phantom 9, Cleveland sang 13 Battle Stars, Mikasa, surprisingly sang A Cruel Angel Thesis [A/N: Why are they singing these songs? Some have reasons, some don’t. I am just having fun, nothing more.], Reno and Cooper performed Be the One with Littorio singing I kissed a Girl. Houston sang The Final Countdown. Lastly, I took the stage and decently performed Move Along. After that, I hand it off to Lexington as we start to slow things down. “Alright, everybody!” Lexington reels in everyone. “This will be the last song for the night! Grab a partner everyone! It’s time to slow down.” The music kicks in with the rolling as Lady Lex begins to sing Fly Me to the Moon. I see some pairs start to slow dance: Cleve and Helena, Reno and Cooper, Amagi and Akagi; everyone was grabbing someone they loved and cared for a slow dance, be it a lover, trusted friend, or dear sister. I see Victorious pull an annoyed Tirpitz to the dance floor. I spot Hood and Bismarck do a slow dance in the corner, both ships having red cheeks. I look around and spot my partner. I walk over to where the Yorktown sisters and Little E are. Enterprise walks over to me. “Shall we?” she offers me her hand. “Sorry Enty, not tonight.” I politely decline her offer. “Hey Little E, do you know how to slow down?” Little E blinked as the others around us were surprised. “Umm, no.” she squeaks. “Well,” I give her a warm smile. “It’s a good time to learn.” --- The Yorktown sisters watch as the Commander takes Little E by the hand and begins to teach her how to slow dance. “Awwww~” Yorktown’s eyes were full of hearts as she watched them. Her nose bled as she watched. “Nose Yorktown,” Hornet comments as she hands her a napkin. The eldest sister cleans her nose. “Thank you, Hornet. But it is so cute. It's like a father dancing with his daughter! How could I not gush about this?” “Yeah…” Enterprise rubs the back of her head. “Let’s go!” Yorktown proclaims as she heads to the dance floor. Along the way, she grabs Wasp by the arm. “Yes, Yorktown?” Wasp looks at her as they begin to waltz. “I just want to dance with my sister.” “You know I’m not-” “Half-sister or not, you are family, okay?” Yorktown shutdowns Wasp as they dance. Hornet giggles as she offers her hand to Enterprise. “Shall I have this dance, Lad-Ee?” Enterprise rolls her eyes at the joke. “You are not letting me down on that joke, aren’t you?” “Yup!” Hornet smiles as Enterprise takes her hand. They join the packed dance floor as everyone slow dances. --- After the final song ends, the party slowly ends. Most of the girls head back to their dorms, ready to pass out, while some linger in the canteen, just chatting. I was at the bar with West, who was toning her guitar while sitting at a nearby table were the Yorktown sisters, Bismarck, drunk Hood, Z23, Dunkerque, and the little angel, Little E. “Thank you for the party!” Little E thanks us as she sits on Enty’s lap. “I had a fun time with everyone!” “Your welcome.” I smile as a manjuu hands me a bottle of water. “I'm glad you enjoyed it.” “Yeah.” Little E leans back and stares up at the ceiling. “I only wished Auntie Bel was here tonight.” “Yeah…” Enty exchange quick glances with everyone as Hood hicks. “Yeah~ I want Belfast to come out of her room and hang out with us.” Hood drunkenly said. “Auntie Bel is here?” Little E pops up as all of us start to sweat profoundly. “I thought she was on a mission?” “She was.” I lie. “But she came back recently and is resting at the moment.” “Ja!” Z23 jumps in, helping me. “Belfast is just resting. That is why she didn’t join the festivities.” “Yup/Yeah/Ja/Oui.” Everyone agrees. Bismarck clamps Hood’s mouth shut, keeping her from drunkenly telling the truth. “Will I be able to see her later?” Little E asks us. She gives us puppy dog eyes. I see Hornet and Dunkerque help Yorktown dam her nose as West really focuses on toning her guitar. “Pleeeease?” “Hmmmmmmm…” Enterprise tries to deny her, but the puppy eyes get her. “Sure.” her voice cracks as she gives in. All of us look at her in shock as she shoots an apologetic look towards me. “Yay!!” Little E cheers, arms in the air. “I get to see this world’s Auntie Bel!” I sigh in defeat. It was bound to happen. “Commander!!” I look to my right as I see a Bremerton fuming with anger, with her sister Baltimore trying to hold her back. “There you are.” She grabs me by the collar. “Hey, Bremerton.” I know where this is going. “Enjoy the drinks?” I could see the red in her cheeks and smell of Sardegna’s wine in her breath. “What is your name!!!” Bremerton shakes me down. West wrestled me out of her grasp as Baltimore held her back. “God damnit! Just tell me your name!” Bremerton points at me. “It has been three years since I came onto this base and still haven’t told me your goddamn name!! It's a damn simple request! Why don’t you just tell me?!” “Well…” I rub my neck as I never tell anyone my name. “It's just a personal reason.” “Oh shut it with your excuses!!” Bremerton splits at me. “Let me Balty! I'm going to give him a piece of my mind!” “No can do Bremerton.” Baltimore denies her sister. “You are drunk and when you are drunk, you get feisty and punchy.” “Thanks, Baltimore. Sorry about this.” I apologize to her. She shrugs. “It's nothing, but really, this could all be resolved if you just say your name.” “Hehehe…” I rub my neck again. “Hey Commander,” Little E chimes in. “What’s your story?” “What’s my story?” I repeat. “Yeah!” Little E looks at me with excitement. “What did you do before becoming commander here?” “Yeah,” Bismarck looks over to me. “Iowa never told us your background, just that she highly recommended you.” “I have worked with you since the beginning and you never told me about your childhood,” Z23 adds. “Even after you oathed me and Enty!” “Yeah.” Enterprise agrees. I look around and see I am surrounded by a formidable armada of shipgirls. No point in escaping or I’ll be in Vestal for months. “Hehe~ Sh~ik~kan!” From behind the bar, a wild Junyou appears as she hugs me from behind. “You guys are un~luck~y! I know his name and his family!” Whelp… I am fucked. “HUH!?” They all say. If anyone was outside, they could think that was Hipper being Hipper. “You know his name!?” Bremerton tries to wrestle her sister off her as Junyou smiles. “Yup!” The Sakura Light carrier looks at all of them. “That’s because I knew his grandfather.” “CommandeKommandart.” Enty and Zed glare at me, cracking their knuckles. “You better explain to us your history, or else we will be making history tonight.” “Better do it, Commander,” Hornet suggests. “I can’t help with that.” “Oui.” Dunkerque agrees. “Alright alright. I’ll talk about myself.” I give in to the threats. “But I will not talk about my name. I’ll save that for another time. Okay?” Everyone looks at each other and nods. “Good.” I sit back down on the bar and sigh. “First, I am from the Eagle Union. I may look like I belong to the Eastern Radiance, that is because my family is from there. To be specific, Laos, which is near Thailand. Second, I was raised in Virginia.” “You're a Virginian?” West looks at me funny, going back to stringing her guitar. “You strike me more of a west coast person.” “I live near DC, so that’s why. And sides, I get along pretty easily with Richmond, Baltimore, Yorktown, Langley, Maryland, Virginia, and you West because I live near your namesakes.” I explain. “Anyway, I was an average person growing up. Got good grades, worked hard, studied hard, and had a good life. Went and studied Computer science and mathematics at Newport University.” “You went to university at Newport?” Yorktown looks at me. “I didn’t know Newport had a university.” “Oh, it does.” I continue. “After getting my diploma, I worked at the shipyard there to create mass-produced ship models for the military.” “You worked with our mother, Newport?” Hornet asked. “Yup. Nice woman, scary when angry.” The Yorktowns nod in agreement. “Worked there for about a year before Iowa called me and told me that I will be the global commander for Azur Lane. Didn’t get a second opinion on that as she and Missouri tutored me on all things naval warfare.” “Wait a minute.” Bismarck stops me. “You are saying that you don’t have any military experience prior to becoming our kommandant?” “Ja.” I nod. “How in the world did Iowa recommend you?” “That’s a longer story for another time…” I tell her with a nervous chuckle. “But to keep a long story short, I helped her with something and she trusted me to lead Azur Lane. So far the results speak for themselves. We are winning against the Sirens, so she made the right choice.” “She sure does.” Dunkerque leans back as my phone rings. I take out my phone and see Azuma is calling me. “Excuse me.” I excuse myself from them. --- The commander leaves the group to take a call. “Well,” Hornet stretches her arms as she stands up. “That enough information we will mostly get out of him for tonight. I’m heading to bed.” “Time to hit the mat!” Junyou yawns. “Agreed.” Baltimore nods as Bremerton finally cools down. “See you guys later. Night.” “Night.” Those four leave as Hood wobbles upward. “Where’s the- oh no.” She holds her mouth shut as she runs outside. “Oh, dear.” Bismarck follows her as she knows what is going to happen. “I told you were a lightweight.” “And now it’s just us,” Z23 says as it was now only herself, Enterprise, Yorktown, Dunkerque, West, and Little E. “Yup.” West nods as she continues to tone her instrument. “Hey West,” Yorktown calls out to her. “You didn’t seem to be hanging out with your sisters much tonight. Is something going on between you guys?” West, at the mention of her sisters, flinches, causing her to tone the string too much, which results in all of the guitar strings to snap. The wires cutting West in the cheek and hand. “Ow!” West jumped as she started to bleed. “You okay West/ Are you alright?!” Yorktown and Enterprise ask as they jump to her. “It’s nothing.” West waves it off, but she was in pain. “Let me get a first aid kit.” Yorktown runs off to find the medical pack. Dunkerque follows suit to help, leaving Little E to look around. She decides to wander off, to get fresh air. --- I get into a booth and answer the call. “Yes Azuma?” “This is Saint Louis, Commander.” I hear Saint’s voice on the other end. “Oh Saint, how’s the mission going?” “We finished it.” I grin at the mention of victory. “That’s good. Anything to report.” “Yes.” She pauses before continuing. “I request that we accelerate the plans for PR 3.” I give a concerned look as I could hear her tone shift into a serious one. “What is the reason for this request?” “We faced a new siren today.” She further adds. “She beat us pretty badly. Roon is knocked out cold. Rossiya has puncture marks in my head. Soyuz has a bad shoulder. And I had lost a significant amount of blood from fighting them.” “Are you guys okay?” “We are fine.” I let out a sigh of relief. “Give me details about this new siren.” --- “Here we go.” Dunkerque applies rubbing alcohol on the cuts. “Ahhh!” West winces as they disinfect the wounds. “And there we go!” Yorktown applies the bandages on West’s hand and cheek. “That should do.” “Thank you.” West rubs her wounds as Enterprise sighs. “This is a rare sight.” Enty comments. “You don’t usually break your strings and be easily surprised. Anything wrong?” The battleship flinches and jumps from her chair. “Nothing wrong!” West tells them, her voice spooked. “Just a few drink too many tonight! Hehehehee…” She adverts her eyes away from them. The four of them look at her suspiciously. “Alright,” Enterprise nods, those suspicious of West. She looks around and sees Little E wasn’t with them. “I’m going to go find Little E. Night.” “Night.” Enterprise leaves the canteen. “Are you sure nothing is bothering you, West?” Z23 ask. “It’s just a few drinks tonight. Nothing more.” West waves it off, her cheeks red. At that moment, the Commander walks back to the group. His walk full of purpose as he looks at the three of the remaining girls. “Where’s Bismarck and Hood?” he asked. “They went outside.” Dunkerque answers. “I believe that Hood is unwell.” “Crap.” He sighs. “Well, since you're here, Dunkerque. Inform Richelieu that PR3 is moving ahead of schedule.” “Kommandant!” Z23 gasps as he turns to her. “Tell Bismarck or her sister that I need the blueprints for Mainz and Odin as soon as possible,” he commands. “Of course!” Z23 salutes before running off. “Yorktown,” He turns to the carrier. “Could you deliver a message to the Royal Navy about this. I need them to send the prints for Cheshire and Drake asap.” “Why the sudden urgency?” West asks as he puts his command coat on. “The Siren Killers and NP faced a new unknown Siren. It nearly killed Saint, Rossiya, Roon, Azuma, and Soyuz.” A cold chill filled the room. “They were able to force a retreat from this new threat, but a Siren that was able to go toe to toe with Roon is a bad sign. We need to prepare for the worse.” “Understood.” Dunkerque and Yorktown nod as they carry out their task. The Commander sighs as he looks at West. “Sorry about this, but could you help me with some paperwork, West Virginia? This rush of PR3 is unexpected and some-” “Don’t worry.” West salutes. “I’ll help.” “Thank you.” He smiles. “AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!”
2020.08.29 21:56 confessamurder1.6 The Supernatural Horror Challenge
[The competitors walk into the writing room.]
[CLAUDETTE]: Congrats to Two on his first win! [TWO]: I nearly passed out from excitement when Confessa called my name as the Winner. What a journey to get here. [GREAN]:[He twiddles his thumbs and looks down, lost in thought.] [BEE]: Are you okay, Grean?
[He looks up and nods politely.]
[GREAN]: Yeah, it’s just…I thought this week would be it for me, to win, I mean. Congrats, Two. Not that I don’t think you deserve your win, but honestly, I think I’m getting frustrated. [TWO]: Thank you. [He gives Grean the side eye.] Just hang in there. You’re still here, just keep at it.
[Grean nods solemnly.]
[SIMONE]: I’m genuinely bummed to have lost The Suen. [TWO]: He was tough competition. I hope to be in the pits against him again.
[Confessa’s voice comes over the intercom.]
[CONFESSA]: I have an announcement! After some thinking, I’ve decided to throw a little...plot twist in your direction. One of your previously eliminated competitors is returning to the competition. [TWO]: If it’s The Suen, I swear— [CONFESSA]: Everyone, please welcome back… The Suen! [SUEN]: Hey everyone! [TWO]: What the fuck! I mean, welcome back, Suen. [A look of worry has spread over his face. He darts a look at Grean, then over at Claudette.] This isn’t what I meant about what I said earlier. [GREAN]: W E L L. [SIMONE]: Holy shit, Suen! I’m so glad you’re back! [CONFESSA]: Two, because The Suen returning to the competition invalidates your elimination vote this week, you will be given immunity. Alright, everyone! Good luck! Especially you, Suen! Last week was a wake up call. Consider yourself warned. [SUEN]: I literally feel like my arse has a new hole.
*** THE PROMPT Supernatural Horroris a type of horror subgenre that includes and centers around supernatural or paranormal occurrences and beings, such as ghosts, demons, witchcraft, miracles, and curses. Supernatural horror tends to deal with the unknown questions of life, death, and the afterlife, and therefore tend to incorporate religious or folklore elements and iconography into the plot, though this is not always the case. As they emphasize the unknown, the mostimportant aspect of Supernatural Horror is raising suspense and mystery while also being able to contain more graphic and visual gruesome violence. This style of horror storytelling is meant to create a nightmarish otherworld of harmful beings cohabiting with mortals, stoking fears of the unknown and unexplained. Supernatural Horror stories became more commercially prevalent in the 1920s and 1930s with the Universal Classic Monster films, which were set in a shared universe of powerful creatures and set in mythical Transylvania or some other Eastern European location. As the 1940s drew closer, these settings became more contemporary, however, the subgenre’s popularity declined and was eventually eclipsed by psychological horror. Supernatural horror met its general demise by the end of World War II, but started reviving by the turn of the 1960s with films and stories such as psychologically-centered The Innocents (1961) and Rosemary’s Baby (1967). These stories included supernatural themes to highlight sexual repression and reproductive rights, spinning narratives around censorship laws and bringing more attention to social and religious issues. By the 1970s, and thanks to the popularization of Rosemary’s Baby, Supernatural Horror saw a complete revival, using literature as a source of inspiration to create suspenseful, engaging, and frightening films--stories and ideas which had never been seen or done before. These earlier stories included:
(The Legend of) Hell House
The Amityville Horror
The modern popularity of Supernatural Horror is due in part to the 2000s rise of torture porn and rising cultural fears in today’s society. Although underlying archetypal sources of fear can move across geographical regions, Supernatural Horror is arguably the most subjective of all horror sub-genres, as every culture’s fear response is vastly different from around the world, country-to-country, and subculture-to-subculture. Common themes and ideas found within Supernatural Horror are:
The occult and extrasensory perception (divination, rituals, spirits, astrology, numerology, etc.)
Psychic abilities or phenomena
Non-mainstream religions labelled taboo by an Abrahamic majority, such as WitchCraft, Voodoo, Shinto, and Shamanism
Demonic and spiritual possession
Psychological themes of repressed sexuality and paranoia
Rituals, beliefs, and conspiracy theories surrounding religious and political influence, such as those found within the Catholic Church, the Satanic Temple, or the Illuminati
“Based on real or documented events” that involve hauntings or other preternatural disturbances
Other examples of Supernatural Horror:
Pet Sematary by Stephen King
The Woman in Black by Susan Hill
Ghost Story by Peter Straub
The Turn of the Screw by Henry James
Burnt Offerings by Robert Marasco
House of Leaves by Mark Z. Danielewski
What Lies Beneath (2000)
The Others (2001)
The Ring (2002)
The Grudge (2004)
Your Turn 🔮 Write a short story in the Supernatural Horror subgenre, incorporating elements of suspense and mystery with “suggest, don’t tell.” Your requirement for this challenge is to spin a narrative around the unknown and unexplained, including some, most, or all common themes of this subgenre listed above. Word Count Maximum: 3600 **\* THE CRITIQUES BEE Is it just me, or does yours and Simone’s story feel like they could be part of the same shared narrative? If so, brilliant. I really enjoyed the bulk of your story. It’s engaging and your characters seem like real people, especially your main character. The supernatural elements are also all there, and I really liked how psychological you got with this story. In some places, I noticed a large disconnect. While the intention seems to be to make your narrator unreliable in some ways, a character who is constantly guessing whether something is really happening or not, I think this approach could be refined, or less “in your face” about it and focus more on the terror of the vengeful spirit and reflect more the character’s struggle with his failure that resulted in the death of someone he couldn’t save as your story’s climax draws nearer. While there are very strong and carefully placed elements of your story, some others seem disjointed, maybe due to editing a much longer story down to a smaller version. When this occurs, the best thing to do is to smooth out those cuts with your writing and try not to let the seams of those cuts show too much. ****\* CLAUDETTE BOUCHARD Trigger Warning: Story contains violence towards babies At first, your story reads much like a moral lesson about abortion, and discusses from your main character’s point of view the valid reasons of having one, such as maturity, readiness, complicated long-term goals, and just not wanting to be a mother. Admittedly, I have not heard of a spirit called a Krasue, and after researching what it is, the pieces of your story all make better sense as to why cacti were dispersed around the house to ward it away. Since you kept to folklore for this story, its supernatural elements are noticeable. What I really wish you had done with this story is expanding more on what the Krasue is to those (like me) who aren’t as well-versed in South Asian folklore. We need to have a clear idea of what the being is so that the horror translates well. Consider Asian folklore stories that have been adapted to screen for Western audiences such as The Grudge. The film has a way of communicating/explaining what a Ju-On curse is to those who have never been exposed to it and can understand very clearly that it is pure rage manifested that expands endlessly and takes whoever it touches into it. In Supernatural Horror, we need a build up of tension as its defining mark on horror is that it tricks the mind into thinking whether something is real or just an exaggerated bump in the night. This story, I find the suspenseful tension to be lacking; and comes across more so like your Rougaru Creature Feature story than something I’d expect from a Supernatural Horror like those that currently exist in Thailand or Cambodia. The baby death and the process of him dying in the way he did, while it doesn’t affect your placement this week, went overboard. If you consider The Suen’s last alien piece and see how he went a tad too hard on its very vivid descriptions, you can begin to see why I am growing weary of babies being victim to horror. I think in the future, if you are going to be writing stories about this subject matter, you have to realize who you want your audience to be. Since Supernatural Horror has a big way of appealing to the masses (see: Paranormal Activity, The Conjuring), I would consider handling this just a tad less vicious and gut-punching in the future. ****\* GREAN Trigger Warning: Story contains topics of rape during intoxication. I think it was smart to undersell your story before you submitted it, because I came into this story without a lot of expectation to be your very best piece of writing— but in fact, this may have been your best one to date, aside from your Mystery Challenge submission. Everything about your story encapsulates mystery and delivers a gut-punch at the very end. You were able to deliver a plot twist successfully due to little moments here and there that drop hints of where your main character could be, such as the smog from the ceiling and the people outside who don’t seem to notice the goings on inside the house. However, some confusion lies in where you describe the characters as being stuck inside one room, then it becomes a whole house, back to a room, and a house again. The inconsistency really blurs the significance of your setting a bit, but all in all, your story holds up very well. ****\* SIMONE LE ROUX Your story is full of suspense and tragedy, and really captures the spirit of the supernatural subgenre. The premise of the story—a sole survivor of a mass death who meets the conductor of the tragedy at a local bar—is a great one, and something you would actually see printed somewhere or turned into a movie, á la “Red Eye” or “The Devil’s Advocate.” The writing is sharp, and although you may have stumbled in some description choices here and there, the story sells. It’s unnerving, suspenseful, and eggs the reader on to keep reading. From the very first moment to the last, you are able to hook your reader and keep them hanging onto every word. With all that said, I would like to talk more about some of your choices, which, honestly, I’m not totally sure cheeses the plot or not. With all of the suspense you built, the way you release the tension doesn’t necessarily feel satisfying when you realize that the main character has made a Faustian deal and the deal was “If you win, you get my soul, If I win, you just don’t do things anymore.” I get the idea was to basically neutralize the demon’s influences on the world, but you painted your main character as lucky, smart, loyal to her company, and insightful but an alcoholic and someone who is self-serving. In general, the inference of the demon being attracted to her darkness seems correct, but her end of the deal she makes comes across as a little flat. I would have loved to see her get more wild, or more self-serving if she won, even if it was to reverse the disaster to get her job back. What I think this story lacks in part is a more well-rounded ending. The fact that she correctly guesses his name (someone’s favorite fairy tale is probably Rumpelstiltskin here), I would expect the demon to become more aggressive towards her than a “I’ll get you one day, my pretty! And your little dog too!” Perhaps you mistitled your story, as I expected the main character to lose too. I would suggest altering it to something that doesn’t hit you in the face with a false expectation right out the gate. However, aside from all of this, your suspense is crackling. It had me on edge until I hit some of these landmarks I described above. ****\* THE SUEN So...where do I begin? I loved this story. It’s modern, it’s realistic, and it perfectly captures a supernatural vibe. Admittedly, like in past stories, I’m pleasantly surprised to see how you made it all come together. Everything exudes discomfort from the get-go. I had had an idea that Careful Saint was going to be a Satanic cult due to the obvious inverted pentagram imagery, but I ended up overlooking that altogether once you started bringing in other ideas and thought of the imagery as a red herring. Looking back, I would say there are more careful ways to include imagery like this so it doesn’t seem too obvious such as a more seemingly accidental way to view the symbol. However, something I find the most problematic is your main character’s personality and voice. He begins to come across as much older than fifteen, so when you described his One Direction crush, it made me pause to think how old your character really was. Later on, after you describe his age, he regresses in maturity and seems more like an early teen and not someone midway to adulthood. Because he's the voice and narrator, this puts your story out of balance since it starts out as kinda punkish and gritty, but then becomes a Goosebumps book midway, after which, it jumps back to a better balance between both tones. I think you undersold his character traits a bit too. It’s a tad obvious that his dialogue and personality traits were “winged” and not taken into huge consideration. And although I know that this was a last minute story, there are ways to review and clean up your story so that the tone stays consistent throughout. Surprisingly, this has been the first instance for you throughout Cycle 1, so whatever the process that occurred for this story, I would re-strategize. ****\* TWO_SENTENCE_CRITIC Trigger Warning: Story contains topics of rape and violence associated with white supremacy Reading your disclaimer, I was prepared to read something more graphic than I would have liked, but i'm glad that this story got to the point of things and didn’t linger around the rape scene. The racism elements are also not overboard. Also, I’m glad to see a spooky and gruesome, yet respectful, view of Native American rage towards the white man. Your poignancy was refreshing to read and doesn’t beat around the bush. Your story, while well-structured and well-written (save for several spelling errors), gave me mixed feelings as once the pattern was established, I knew where the story was already going and any or all suspense that was previously built to that point dissolved. While the structure is strong, the predictability of the ending was no real surprise. I think if there were more unpredictable elements to this story, it would shake up the reader’s expectations, so that they couldn’t gues the ending. I am unsure about your ending. From the penultimate scene into the last one, Wynona is in a medically-induced coma, and her parents are dead, but the way you wrote the last scene makes it seem like they are actually alive. If say, the three of them are actually dead and living in an afterlife together, or if their deaths never really happened, I would find a way to make it more apparent to the reader. Overall, your piece this week stands out as one of my favorites. **\* THE PLACEMENTS
[CONFESSA]: Based on this week’s critiques, I have made some decisions. As a general reminder, I am not here to define your writing style nor instruct you on how to write. You are merely being judged on how it pertains to this competition which is to interpret your style to fit the challenge prompts that have been asked for, and whether or not you fulfilled the assignment. Alright, let’s begin. ... Bee, in past prompts you have delivered some great stories, but this week, the fire seemed to dwindle. … I’m sorry, Bee, but you are in Danger! … … Simone le Roux, you really turned it out this week with your devil may care story. … Two_Sentence_Critic, your story was poignant, dark, and mystical. You sold me a nightmare, and I died…but in a good way. … Congratulations, you are both in the Top! … ... Claudette Bouchard, you have a knack for taking us to a deep and dark place, but this week, I was lost. And so was the baby. … The Suen, while your Satan’s School for Gay Boys tickled my fancy, your Goosebumps story inside a mature one left me wanting...for something else. … I’m sorry, but both of you are in Danger! … … That means, Grean, this week you are in the Top! You took me to hell and back and I was comfortable living in your purgatory.
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Congratulations, Grean, you are the Winner of the Supernatural Horror prompt!
[Grean’s eyes light up with excitement.]
[GREAN]: Oh my God, I won? I’d like to dedicate my win to The Jersey Shore’s Snooki and Jaida Essence Hall, because we only worship talent here, maw. [CONFESSA]: Right. Okay. Grean, please make your way to The Dark Altar and make your decision on who to eliminate. [GREAN]: Righty-Ho.
[Grean makes his way over to the Dark Altar. After peeking over his shoulder a couple times and ten minutes of hard thinking later, he scribbles something on the paper and folds it in the envelope, sealing the envelope with wild abandon.] [Confessa takes out the paper and reads. He has written a list of reasons why he chose who he chose on the paper.]
[CONFESSA]: “Just so everyone knows what my thought process is: it’s a combined judging off of the critiques, past placements, and...my personal opinion. So, I choose The Suen.” … … [SUEN]: I had a feeling. Thanks, Confessa, for giving me another shot. ‘Bye everyone! It was nice being here and writing. Good luck to everyone else, y’all are great. [CONFESSA]: I’m sorry to see you go once again, Suen. I can’t wait to see what you do in the future! You...have been cut.
We are in a small fishing village on the coast of southern Thailand in the heart of the ancient orient where 16 Americans are about to begin the adventure of a lifetime. They will depart from this village in a group of men and a group of women. Their destination, Tarutao Island, a beautiful but dangerous jungle which was once a haven for pirates in the middle of the Andaman sea. Exotic and dangerous wildlife can be found here including the king cobra and the world's longest snake, the reticulated python. It is also the monsoon season and the island is certain to be pummeled by frequent storms. This will be their home for the next 39 days. They will be abandoned, left to fend for themselves utilizing the resources of the land and their own survival skills. It is the ultimate challenge 16 strangers forced to work together to create a new society while battling the elements and each other. They must learn to adapt or they’ll be voted out of the tribe. In the end only one will remain to claim the million dollar prize. 39 days, 16 people, 1 survivor! This is Marooned: Thailand! INTRO The Cast:
Beeve Djeek, 47, Bus Driver
Beev was never the richest fellow, but he has despised every job he's ever had, leading him to quit or be fired from practically everything. He currently works as an elementary school bus driver, but the only problem is that he hates loud kids, leading to him getting in standoffs with the pre-teens he drives around almost daily. Beev doesn't care about the social aspect of the game, and would rather hurl himself off a cliff than be 'friendly' with these people, but that won't stop him from strategizing against them, and beating them in the challenges.
Chiya “CJ” Lee, 25, Law student
CJ grew up in Korea, but she and her family moved to the US when she was 9 years old. It was hard for her to adjust right away, but she soon adapted and learned English in less than two years. CJ is very competitive and strives to be successful in the future. That is why she’s enrolled in law school with the intention of being a lawyer, so she can make bank. She’s ready to show off her abilities on Marooned.
Martin “Santa” Murray, 71, Mall Santa
All his life, “Santa” has always strived to bring joy and laughter into the lives of as many people as possible. He didn’t have many family members/friends growing up, so entertaining strangers was very natural to him. For almost 50 years he worked as a television personality, after he stepped away from the spotlight, he started getting mistaken for the big man in red quite regularly due to his long white beard and his infectious personality. So he decided to start working as a mall Santa and enjoys the job very much.
Audres de Talavera, 38, Lawyer
Audres was born in Madrid, Spain. Audres is married and has children, but he doesn't want to reveal their names. Audres works as a lawyer; he became "famous" on Youtube thanks for closing some people's mouths on different subjects. In his childhood, Audres was a well-behaved student with a good intelligence, therefore, his classmates were envious and began to annoy him and beat him; after that, Audres changed and is now a grumpy person, but that doesn't take away his good manners and intelligence.
Dixie Obrien, 28, Fashion Designer
Dixie has grown up with a lot of opinions, and she doesn't hold back on any of them. Growing up in the South, her parents always expected her to eventually take over their small farm. But when Dixie announced to the whole table one night that she wanted to be a fashion designer, her parents were mortified. Dixie was not changing her mind, whether her parents wanted her to or not, and eventually they supported her decision. After she got done college, Dixie has made several successful clothing pieces, under the clothing line "Dixie Chicks". She hopes to win Survivor to promote her company and make her family proud.
Yolanda Garcia, 23, Secretary
Growing up Yolanda wasn’t your typical mean girl, she has to keep up a persona of an angel while spreading rumors all about her classmates. Yolanda's appearance fools everyone she meets. A tiny woman who has a cute face, but her demeanor is actually everyone's worst nightmare. She's not afraid to be aggressive, insult people to their faces, and spread nasty rumors. During the day she puts on the act of being nice as a secretary, but at night she becomes wild, and will flirt with anyone who advances her career, wealth, status, etc.
Svetlana Thompson, 21, Babysitter
Kasey “Captain” Bransen, 48, Navy Captain
Growing up poor, Captain never had the life he deserved, he was a good kid who studied hard, and he wanted his future kids to have a better life than he did. His mother left the family, leaving him, just 4, and his 11-year-old brother, with a father who was in the Army. They lived with their grandparents most of the time. When his granny past away when he was 17, he decided to enroll in the Navy. He is happily married with 4 kids. He wants to win the money and put it in his kid’s college fund, as his oldest is about to head to college.
Heather Hawkins, 26, Wedding Planner
Heather is your ultimate party girl. In college, she's considered to be the life of the party - that's why she applied to be an event planner in one of the biggest companies in their area. But things got out of hand during one event and she got fired from the job. Now, upon seeing all of her college friends get married and have kids, she put her skills into use and founded her own company - as a wedding planner. She hopes to find her true love - if there is even one - when she joins Marooned, and winning may even be a plus one for her.
Marcus “The Leviathan” Garcia, 40, Ex-Prisoner
He is still coping in the outside world since he was prisoned for almost 10 years!! He was called "The Leviathan" since he was the most dangerous/wanted criminal in the world. But once he got to jail his life changed when he fell in love with the lady guard, after he got out in jail the lady guard became his wife and they have one child, but every person he meet is intimidated by him so nobody ever talks to him. He wants to join Marooned because he wants to help other people.
Merrick Anton, 34, Food Reviewer
Ever since he was young, Merrick was obsessed with food. Whether it was making it or eating it, he loved all things to do with food. When an accident left him badly burned, he gave up his dream of being a chef and decided to work as a professional food reviewer. He is now one of the most well renowned food reviewers in his hometown of New York.
Kylie Richardson, 28, Exotic Dancer
Kylie was born and raised in Miami, Florida, where she took dance classes from an early age. The girl focused more on the hustle of life rather than furthering her education; Kylie dropped out of high school at the age of sixteen, and was emancipated from her parents. They were the source of toxicity in her life, so Kylie took a risk by moving in with her grandmother. Time passed, and Kylie made way into exotic dancing. She started her work at the young age of eighteen, only landing gigs in small bars at first. Her skills grew, and Kylie began to get better jobs at more high budget night clubs. At this point, Kylie is living her best life and is planning on going on Marooned for a free vacation, and more finances to move out from her grandmother’s home.
Miya Gomez, 24, Olympic Athlete
Herman “Dove” Malone, 24, Yoga Teacher
Dove is a peace guy. After backpacking through Southeast Asia, he embraced the ideals of peace and contact with nature. He detached himself from capitalist desires and spends his life as a wanderer. Dressed only in white clothes, he makes the floor his bed, the rivers his shower and the fruit trees are his supermarket. Survival is easy for him.His main desire is natural life and if he wins the prize of one million dollars, he intends to donate to those who really need it, as he believes that money is not necessary for him.
Duncan Pharrelli, 20, Unemployed
Duncan feels like he's never truly been happy. He was relentlessly bullied as a kid and his parents didn't do anything about it. To cope, he turned to drugs and alcohol, and he nearly overdosed at age 17. Afterwards, he relapsed, and the main reason he joined is to make people feel the pain he went through. Withdrawl from these substances will take a toll on his attitude, notably his temper.
Emily Driver, 22, Trainee Nurse
Naturing, Calm, Sweet. Emily is a very good-natured person who will do anything to make people happy. She hopes her kind treatment with other people will help make her stay longer, and win jury votes.
THE SEASON Episode 1:Once the castaways reach Tarutao Island they get off of their boats and step onto a beach. There they learn that they won’t actually be starting the game in tribes of men and women but instead the two oldest castaways Captain and Santa will get to select the two tribes. Captain picks Audres, Dixie, Emily, Dove, Kylie, The Leviathan, and Yolanda to be on his tribe. Captain picks Beev, CJ, Duncan, Heather, Merrick, Miya, and Svetlana to be on his tribe. After this the two tribes are given a map to their tribe camp and they all get in their tribe boat and paddle to their tribe camps. At the Chuay Gahn tribe Kylie hits the beach ready to play and quickly forms an alliance with Dove and Yolanda. Meanwhile The Leviathan despite looking intimidating turns out to be a very helpful and kind person. Because of this he is able to form a connection with Dixie and Emily, two of the sweetest girls on the tribe and the three of them agree to watch each other's backs. Over on the Sook Jai tribe love is in the air. Heather and Merrick have a strong connection and quickly start flirting with each other. Duncan and Miya worry that this showmance could be a liability for the tribe. At the first immunity challenge of the season Chuay Ghan wins immunity. Back at the Sook Jai tribe Miya and Duncan decide to start targeting Merrick in an effort to break up the showmance between him and Heather. Heather and Merrick quickly find out about this. In an act of self preservation they decide to target Santa because they think that they will easily be able to get everyone on board with voting out the oldest member of the tribe. This plan ends up working for them and at tribal council Santa is voted out in a 5-3 vote. Episode 2:After tribal council all of the Sook Jai people who voted for Santa (Heather, Beev, Svetlana, Merrick, and CJ) decide to form an alliance. At the second immunity challenge Sook Jai manages to win immunity. When Chuay Ghan gets back to camp after the immunity challenge Emily becomes very weak and starts throwing up. Medical comes to check on her and they discover that she potentially has a deadly parasite. Because of this they come to the conclusion that she needs to be hospitalized and can’t continue in the game. Emily has officially been medevaced from the game preventing Chuay Ghan from having to go to tribal council. Episode 3:At the next immunity challenge Chuay Ghan wins their second immunity challenge meaning Sook Jai must go back to tribal council. Back at camp it is clear that the new 5 person alliance on Sook Jai is completely solid and either Miya or Duncan is going to be voted out. Svetlana wants to vote out Duncan because he is currently going through withdrawal and that is causing him to be extremely irritable but CJ is playing the long game. She knows that Miya is an olympic athlete and once they get to the merge she will likely dominate in challenges and may even be able to win her way to the end. CJ wants to avoid this at all costs so she convinces her alliance to vote for Miya and at tribal council Miya is voted out in a 5-1-1 vote. Episode 4:>! At the fourth immunity challenge Chuay Ghan wins immunity again. Back at the Sook Jai camp the decision is extremely obvious. Nobody likes Duncan and Duncan isn’t in the alliance. In addition Duncan has been fighting with people and Beev in particular is fed up with him so at tribal council Duncan is unanimously voted out of the tribe. !< Episode 5:With only the 5 members of the Sook Jai majority alliance left on the tribe there are no more easy votes for Sook Jai and everyone is feeling extremely paranoid. At the reward challenge Jeff gives everyone the opportunity to change their fate in the game by opting to mutiny and switch tribes. Kylie knows that she has strong bonds on Chuay Gahn and is expecting there to be a merge soon so she decides to mutiny in order to give herself a chance to form bonds with the Sook Jai people so that when they merge she’ll have a bond with everyone in the game and be in a power position. At the immunity challenge Chuay Gahn wins immunity. When Sook Jai gets back to camp it quickly becomes clear that Kylie made a mistake. The 5 original Sook Jai people are extremely close and there is absolutely nothing she can do to break them. At tribal council Kylie’s decision to mutiny comes back to bite her in the butt when she is voted out unanimously. Episode 6:At the reward challenge the Sook Jai tribe wins a Thai feast. They hope that the food will give them the energy to win immunity so that they can even the score and cause there to be 5 Sook Jai and 5 Chuay Gahn at the merge but at the immunity challenge Chuay Gahn wins immunity once again. Back at the Sook Jai camp the three girls decide to form an all girls alliance and vote out Heather’s showmance partner Merrick. Merrick finds out that Heather is planning to vote for him and feels extremely betrayed. He thought that what him and Heather had was real but as it turns out it was just Heather playing the game. At tribal council Merrick is voted out in a 4-1 vote. Episode 7:On day 19 Jeff announces that something very different is about to happen and the two tribes are going to come together to live on one beach. Everyone instantly assumes that this means that they are merged and they celebrate. But at the immunity challenge they learn that they are not actually merged and instead they are simply two tribes living on one beach. Chuay Gahn wins yet another immunity challenge forcing Sook Jai to attend another tribal council. The girls on Sook Jai plan to stick together and vote out Beev but with no merge in sight Heather and CJ begin to consider turning on Svetlana and voting her out because Beev is much stronger in challenges than Svetlana. At tribal council Heather and CJ end up deciding to stick with the all girls alliance and Beev is voted out of the game. Episode 8:At the immunity challenge Chuay Gahn wins their 6th immunity challenge in a row devastating Sook Jai. Back at camp CJ and Heather agree to stick together and take out Svetlana. Svetlana knows that the two other girls are targeting her but she doesn’t want to give up so she tries to convince Heather to keep her by explaining to Heather that CJ is a much bigger strategic threat than she is and that CJ is less loyal and more likely to flip on Heather when the merge comes. This ends up being enough to sway Heather and at tribal council CJ ends up being blindsided in a 2-1 vote. Episode 9:After 25 days the two tribes finally merge and this time it’s actually for real. At the first individual immunity challenge the Leviathan wins individual immunity. Back at camp the 6 original Chuay Gahn tribe members agree to stick together and pick off the two Sook Jai members starting with Heather because they think that she is the bigger threat of the two but Audres is sick of sitting back and not doing anything. This is going to be the first tribal council that he attends and he wants to make a move so he tells Heather and Svetlana to vote for Captain. Next Audres tries to convince The Leviathan and Dixie to work with him and help him blindside Captain but the two of them refuse to vote for captain so he moves on and tries to get Yolanda and Dove to help him blindside Captain but the two of them also refuse to do so. Without anyone willing to make a move Audres is forced to stick with Chuay Gahn and at tribal council Heather is voted out in a 6-2 vote. Episode 10:At the second individual immunity challenge Dove wins immunity. Back at camp it seems like Svetlana is doomed and has no chance of surviving but Svetlana doesn’t give up. She tells Captain about how badly Audres wanted to blindside him at the last tribal council. This makes Captain angry but he decides that his best option is to ignore Svetlana for now and at tribal council Svetlana is unanimously voted out. Episode 11:Despite Captain not taking any action in the last episode we learn from a confessional at the start of this episode that Captain is gunning for Audres hard after hearing that Audres tried to blindside him at the last tribal. Captain also says that he doesn’t think that liars like Audres deserve to play this game. At the immunity challenge Captain wins individual immunity. Back at camp Captain starts doing everything he can to convince people to vote Audres. Most people are just looking for an easy vote and Audres having tried to get rid of Captain at the merge seems like reason enough to vote him out so at tribal council Audres is unanimously voted out of the tribe. Episode 12:At the immunity challenge Captain wins his second immunity challenge in a row securing himself a spot in the final 4. Back at camp there are clearly two alliances. There’s Dixie and The Leviathan who want to vote out Yolanda and there’s Dove and Yolanda who want to vote out Dixie. This leaves Captain in the middle. Both sides do everything they can to convince him to work with them. At tribal council Captain decides to side with Dixie and the Leviathan and Yolanda is voted out of the game. Finale Part 1:At the immunity challenge Captain wins his third individual immunity challenge in a row securing his spot at the final 3. Back at camp the Leviathan and Dixie try to convince Captain to stick with them and vote out Dove but Captain isn’t stupid and is able to see that neither of the two of them intend to bring him to the final two so at tribal council he chooses to work with Dove and vote for The Leviathan causing a 2-2 tie between The Leviathan and Dove. Right before the revote The Leviathan whispers in Captains ear and promises him that he’ll take him to the final two if he wins the final immunity challenge. For Captain this is all the reassurance he needs and on the revote Captain switches his vote to Dove causing Dove to be voted out of the game. Final Part 2:At the final immunity challenge The Leviathan knows that both Dixie and Captain will take him to the final two if they win and that they both believe that he will take them to the final 2 if he wins. Not wanting to have to betray either of them and potentially lose their jury vote he decides to throw the final immunity challenge. Dixie ends up winning the final immunity and she votes Captain out of the game. Final Tribal Council:At the final tribal council the jury seems completely split on who they should vote for. Both of the finalists make a good case for why they should win and going into the reading of the vote it’s clear that either of the two could win. It comes down to a 4-3 vote with Dixie only getting 3 and The Leviathan getting 4. The Leviathan is the official winner of Marooned Thailand! My Thoughts:I didn’t really like this season. I think that it was really predictable and aside from the mutiny episode and the CJ blindside episode nearly all the episodes were boring. I think that The Leviathan is a good winner and played an impressive game but him and all of the Chuay Gahns got lucky that they never had to go to tribal council. Heather was probably my favorite on the season. She did an excellent job dealing with the hand that she was delt and her betraying Merrick was iconic. Potential All Stars:The Leviathan, Heather, Captain, Dixie, Svetlana, Audres Potential Second Chancers:Kylie, CJ, Merrick Previous Seasons: Borneo The Australian Outback Africa Marquesas Stay tuned for our next season Marooned: The Amazon I’d love to hear what you guys thought about the season in the comments!
2020.08.19 18:43 heeheejonesKOF XV Endings Wishlist
Hi guys hope everyone's doing good today! In my last post, I put together a wishlist for a roster for KOF XV and included some storyline explanations for each team's reasons for entering the tournament. I was really pleased to hear back from some of you guys and it has encouraged me to get right on to this post. Personally, I would like for some of the endings to have some sort of connection to one another in order to ensure that each ending remains canonical to some degree. Just like in the last post I'd like to emphasise that this is in no way a prediction but just what I personally would like to see in KOF XV Bad Ending: Ron is defeated and vows to bring the world down with him as he attempts to summon his army from the dead. However for an unknown reason he is consumed by a blue energy and begins to crumble to dust, cursing the victorious team for his defeat. The victorious team then leaves the battleground wondering amongst themselves what that energy was. As they leave, that energy begins to slowly materialise into a demonic figure... Hero Team: Having seemingly incapacitated the Nega-Verse, the Sacred Treasures and Shun'ei finally take some time to collect themselves. However, just as they let their guard down, the evil entity captures Iori, Chizuru and Kyo in an attempt to absorb them and increase it's power a thousand fold. Seeing his friends in danger, Shun'ei unleashes a devastating strike which annihilates the Nega Verse and sends it's fragments flying off into the night sky. Realising that Shun'ei is finally able to channel his powers effectively, Kyo declares that their work together is done. Chizuru congratulates Shun'ei on this feat while Iori just looks on aloof and unbothered. Fast forward a few weeks and everyone has gone back to their regular lives. Kyo is seen with his friends and family back home in Japan, Chizuru has returned to her life as the CEO of the Kagura Corporation but is puzzled when an employee passes her the documents she requested "a few hours ago" and Iori stands solemnly on a dark rooftop waiting for someone. In China, Shun'ei and Meitenkun are backstage at one of Mian's performances when suddenly Shun'ei clutches his arms in pain. After regaining his composure he realises that the threat of the evil entities has yet to be fully neutralised but confidently tells Meitenkun and Mian that this time he's ready for them. The three then head out to begin their next journey while an ominous figure secretly watches over them. Psycho Soldier Team: Following the defeat of the Nega-Verse, Athena Kensou, Bao and Duo Lon find a mortally wounded Ron among the debris caused from the fight. Ron tells Duo Lon that as his son, the only thing in between him and the position of head of the Hizoku Clan is lying in front of him now. Duo Lon says that he no longer believes in such outdated customs and walks off, telling his father to use whatever time he has left to reflect on all the pain he's caused. The Psycho Soldiers then look at Ron as he tells Kensou and Bao that although they have controlled the Dragon Spirit, their refusal to use it's destructive powers to it's full potential is disgraceful. Kensou and Bao, affected by these words reply that if he wants to see the full extent of their powers so badly he'll get it. They power up to the point that Athena's Psycho Powers are unable to stop them as they fire a massive energy blast at Ron. As everything clears up, Athena notices that Ron is still alive. Kensou says that they have healed him of his mortal injuries but left him weak enough to no longer pose a threat. Bao says that true power comes from helping others no matter how far astray they've gone. They leave too as a humiliated, crippled Ron curses at them. Athena tells Kensou and Bao how proud she is of them. A few weeks later, Athena is having one of her concerts. The entire Psycho Soldier squad is celebrating backstage and are happy to see that Duo Lon came to watch as well. However, he senses something in the air and heads outside to a dark alleyway. Lin appears from the darkness telling Duo Lon that he has gone against the teachings of Hizoku while Duo Lon shrugs it off. Lin then drops Ron's mask at Duo Lon's feet as the two stare each other down. Rival Team: As the Nega-Verse is defeated, Antonov rushes over to check on Kyo and Chizuru. Mian helps an injured Shun'ei up and warmly congratulates him for mastering his new powers. The revived Yagami clan member leaves without saying a word while Lin overhears Ron cursing out the Psycho Soldiers. He mocks Ron saying that the last time they were like in such a situation the tables were turned and Ron couldn't get the job done. Nobody's going to save Ron now (a reference to the Benimaru team's ending in KOF 2000). Lin says that as the superior assassin and the pride of the Hizoku, he will now fulfil his mission. He swiftly slits Ron's throat as he collapses to the floor dead at last. Antonov tells Kyo that he wants his belt back from last year and the two share a laugh. Fast forward a few weeks and Mian and Shun'ei have grown closer. She gives him tickets to his show telling him that he promised in the previous tournament. He smiles and agrees to come to her show the next day. Antonov sits in his office going over business with Yakov and is amused by looking at how the Kagura Corporations shares have skyrocketed while the Howard Connection's shares continue to plummet steadily. Lin and Duo Lon confront each other in a dark alley behind an arena with Lin telling Duo Lon that his refusal to kill Ron is a breach of Hizoku custom. Duo Lon says that as the leader of the Hizoku, he will forge a new path for the clan and as his subordinate, Lin must follow. Satisfied with the answer, Lin heads off promising to report to his new leader at the Hizoku headquarters. Duo Lon then heads back into the arena to carry on watching his concert. On a rooftop Iori, demands to know why his ancestor has been so persistently following him. When the man does not answer, an angry Iori prepares to blast him with his fire. However, he instantly stops with just a look from his ancestor and is shocked to see that his bluish flames have turned orange. The ancestor tells him that it is about time he learns to live as he is truly meant to, "the Yasakani will shine upon the Earth once more." Villains Team: Rugal, Mizuki, Igniz and Saiki look on as the Nega-Verse is destroyed. They sadistically joke that Ron would never have been able to be on par with them. Rugal then says that perhaps it's time to decide who among the four of them is truly worthy of conquering the universe. However, they each decline for the time being saying they each have certain loose ends to tie up. Mizuki says that she must make haste to provide an offering for her god. Igniz snidely replies that the only god here is himself and he must make immediate preparations for his ascension. Saiki replies that even god's greatest acts can be undone with time. They mock Rugal's seeming lack of direction but assure him that in a week they shall all meet again for one last fateful battle between the four of them. Rugal agrees and the four part ways. Rugal is left alone and laments the fact that he probably won't be seeing any of those three ever again saying that they would have been the most prized statues in his collection. He mutters that they deserve whatever they'll have coming to them because as powerful as they are, none of them could see the "big picture." Just then, Misty appears. Rugal then asks "do you have it?" She nods and hands him various files relating to NESTS research and technology as well as the Hizoku's secret files. Some time later in a well hidden submarine, Misty is seen on a computer with a large display screen showcasing the various KOF Fighters. A computer voice announces that "phase 1 has been completed." Misty then presses a button which causes a large pod to open up behind her. Within the pod, is Rugal sitting on a mechanised throne and once again in his Omega form with large tubes coming out of his back. He tells Misty to initiate "phase 2" as he lets out a malicious grin as his red eye begins to menacingly glow in the direction of an image of Shun'ei, Meitenkun and Mian walking together. Team Japan: Recovering from the blast caused by the Nega-Verse's destruction, Saisyu, Benimaru and Daimon are unable to react in time and are pinned down by a surprise attack from Mizuki. She tells them that they will make worthy sacrifices to Ambrosia and brushes Shingo off as a pest saying she will let him watch her kill his friends and Kyo slowly. Angered by this, Shingo rushes towards her and lands a perfectly executed 101 Shiki with raw strength compensating for his inability to produce flames. This is enough to set Team Japan free with Saisyu creating a huge wall of fire and Daimon grabbing Mizuki with his power, setting up for Benimaru to finish her with off with an Electrigger. The three of them now tell Shingo that he is their equal now and will always be a full fledged member of Team Japan from now on. A few weeks later, Shingo is at Kyo's place helping out with chores when he is approached by Kyo. Kyo tells Shingo that he heard that he's taken his spot in Team Japan so that makes him his rival now. Shingo gets defensive but Kyo tells him that it's to time spar with his new rival. An overjoyed Shingo nods and rushes over into the Kusanagi dojo. Daimon and Benimaru are seen speaking in the Kusanagi's kitchen over a meal with Daimon telling Benimaru that with Shingo stepping up, it's time for him to once again return to his family and become a full time Judoka once more. Benimaru says that he'll stick around considering he's got nothing better to do but thanks Daimon for all those years of partnership. He pours them both a drink and they toast to their friendship. In a more private room, Saisyu is on the phone with an unknown woman. Telling her things like "looks like nobody found out yet", "you were unbelievable" and "she'll realise it sooner or later." Unbeknownst to him, Yuki had been listening to this conversation and after piecing together what she hears, leaves in disgust without hearing Saisyu end the conversation by saying "Welcome back, Maki." Ash Team: Following the Nega-Verse's destruction, Ash and Elisabeth are separated from the others. As the dust from that battle begins to settle, they are met by Saiki. Ash knows that Saiki isn't as strong as he was before and goads him into attacking. Ash still has some of the power left from the Yata Mirror and Yasakani Jewel and uses the remnants of this power within him to deliver a deadly blow to Saiki. Saiki questions why Ash continues to associate with pathetic humans and deny their bloodline. Ash replies that it has nothing to do with humanity and is entirely down to him wanting to do whatever he wants. Elisabeth then steps forward and says it is now time for her to fulfil humanity's mission. Together, they kill Saiki once and for all. Kukri then arrives and asks if they have succeeded. When they confirm this, Kukri says it is good because now he can carry out his next job. He then delivers a devastating sand attack to a completely unguarded Ash, leaving him severely injured and defenceless. Adelheid then steps in and says Kukri works for him now. Elisabeth is enraged and demands to know why Adelhied would do this especially after they have all succeeded in getting their vengeance on Saiki. Adelheid replies that while it was true that his sister Rose was a victim of Those From the Past, Ash too is equally responsible. Ash acknowledges this and tells Adelheid to do what he must. Elisabeth then steps in between them and tries to defend Ash. Adelheid then smiles and says there's been a miscommunication. He explains that his "retribution" against Ash would come in the form of a good, clean match between the two and that Kukri severely misunderstood his instructions. Adelheid says that now with Ash injured he can't have his match and tells Ash to prepare himself for he will return once Ash is well enough. Ash bids him farewell with a friendly wave and Adelheid nods back in agreement. Elisabeth and Kukri are both left equally confused as they leave with Ash and Adelheid respectively who now part as friendly rivals. A few weeks later at the Blanctorche Mansion, Ash is still healing from his injuries when Shen Woo appears at the door complaining that he is bored and is looking for something interesting to do. Aboard the Sky Noah, Kukri and Adelheid receive a package from Oswald relating to Rugal's latest plans. Oswald and Kukri ask what Adelheid's next move will be and he tells them to contact Heidern at once. Rose appears and asks what's wrong as Adelheid tells his sister that everything is just fine. Zero Team: Following the Nega-Verse's destruction, Igniz appears before Zero and company. He offers them one more chance at serving him again. When they refuse, he calls Sylvie an abomination and fires a devastating cosmic blast at the team. Angered by Igniz's insults to Sylvie and his treatment of Krizalid in the past, Zero blindly charges towards Igniz, taking all of his cosmic blasts before grabbing him and killing him with an earth shaking vortex. He then collapses to the floor, severely injured and on the brink of death. The team rushes over to him and he tells them that he has come to a realisation. NESTS did not make clones, nor did they make defects. They may not have meant to do so but they created heroes and most of all they created Sylvie and Krizalid whom he calls his dear friends. He tells Krizalid to never think of himself as a clone and that true originality comes from what a person does to set them apart from the rest. He tells Sylvie that she is not useless and just needs the right people around her. He also thanks Angel for her service to NESTS and to him and hopes that she will continue to support Krizalid and Sylvie. He finally tells Krizalid to go and make something of himself and live by the example that he had been trying to set. Zero then tells his team how proud he is of them and dies shortly after. A few weeks later, Krizalid, Sylvie and Angel have moved into a large estate previously belonging to Zero. Angel asks Krizalid what's next and Krizalid replies that they are going to do right by Zero. He mocks K's vagabond lifestyle and vows that this estate will be a safe haven for people like them. A place not for them to hide but to learn what it takes to thrive in the world and be recognised by all as being one of a kind. Sylvie then asks if there are any more people like them left to which Krizalid nods and shows her and Angel a file titled ""Project Ж" K' Team: K' and company were present when Zero sacrificed himself to destroy Igniz. While they had the opportunity to take Krizalid, Sylphie and Angel into custody they refused, knowing what it's like having been in their shoes before. With the threat over, K', Kula and Maxima decide to return to their under the radar and on the move lifestyle. Nelson on the other hand decides to carry on with his boxing career, riding on the success of this tournament. Some time later, Nelson has become a superstar in the world of boxing and a huge celebrity. Using his newfound wealth, he offers to build K', Maxima and Kula a comfortable home deep within Zarina's land where they are guaranteed to live in privacy without the need to constantly move and keep away from any threats. They agree and Nelson is happy to repay K' and company for helping him all this while too. On the day of their housewarming party, Bandeiras appears before the team and summons them to an aircraft carrier. There they meet Vanessa, Seth and Ramon who inform them that Heidern has a new assignment for them. NESTS most powerful creation had been dormant up to this point and now that they have received intel of it's resurfacing, their job will be to investigate and to neutralise this creation. K' sulks at the fact that although they can now avoid threats, the work never ends for them. Reading his file, Nelson is shocked to learn that K' had been cloned a total of 9999 times and wonders what such a clone is capable of considering how powerful K' already is. Tung Disciple's: Following the Nega-Verse's defeat, Meitenkun is finally able to reunite with Shun'ei and the two old friends hug. Chonrei is satisfied knowing that his master has been avenged and Jeff is glad for a second chance to come back and settle all his unfinished business. Cheng then gets a phone call with good news. Tung's condition has stabilised and that they can go meet him as soon as possible. A few weeks later, the team along with Shun'ei, Terry and Andy are at Cheng's house where Tung is now living and are celebrating his discharge from the hospital. Tung looks on at all his former students together and silently regrets not having done enough to keep Geese from sinking into darkness. Shun'ei gives Meitenkun his extra ticket for Mian's show while Chonrei asks Cheng if he could accompany him to Korea. Cheng agrees and tells Chonrei that it has been a long time since he saw his brother Chonshu. Chonrei says he feels something isn't right and has to talk to him as soon as possible. Jeff is seen speaking with Terry and Andy. He tells them that he is proud of how far they have come and is glad that he no longer has to worry about them. He says now that since they both have their own lives, he'll leave them to it and not bother them but tells them to remember that they'll always be family. They then ask Jeff what his plans are now. Jeff says that with Tung recovering and Cheng often away on business, he has agreed to stay here to help look after Shun'ei and Meitenkun. However ,before doing that he has one last person to settle some unfinished business with first. A few hours later Jeff is dropped off at the airport and buys a ticket for the first flight to Germany. Geese Team: Realising that the Nega-Verse is still too unstable for him to control and with the knowledge that it will one day return, Geese heads over to Xanadu's hideout where he now expects the mad convict to translate the Jin Scrolls. Giving Xanadu the scroll, he begins reading song lyrics and Geese comes to realise that Xanadu is just mentally unstable. However, upon taking back the scroll he realises that there are now lyrics on it and that the original scrolls have been stolen. Geese then realises that Hein is now missing without a trace and Geese deduces that he has stolen the scrolls. Billy then receives a call from a desperate Mr. Big asking for a temporary truce as Southtown has now descended into complete chaos. Upon watching a live video feed, Geese sees Hein razing the Geese Tower to the ground. A flustered Geese then orders Billy and Xanadu to head to Southtown immediately and says he will join them later after bringing backup. On a private plane, Geese mutters to himself how much he hates what he is about to do. A while later at the gates of Stroheim Castle, Geese is met by Jeff Bogard who coincidentally arrived around the same time as he did. A frustrated Geese then asks himself how much worse his day can get. Fatal Fury Team: Following the Nega-Verse's defeat, Rock notices that Geese has slipped away and curses Geese for not facing him. Terry and Andy reunite with Jeff who tells them that now that he is back in the world, they are free to fully let go of their vendetta against Geese. Joe looks on happily at his friend's but questions what he is to do now. A few weeks later, Joe is in Thailand training alongside Hwa Jai for his big Muay Thai comeback. Terry, Andy and Jeff then part ways at an airport in China. Andy tells Terry that he's got to head back to Mai and Hokutomaru but he will always be there when he needs him. Terry thanks his brother and says he's heading home to check up on Mary. In Southtown, Rock looks upon the city as it descends into chaos. He questions Terry's decision to drop his grudge against Geese and wonders if he could ever do the same. Suddenly he is stopped by a man with a striking resemblance to his late mother. The man introduces himself as Kain, brother of Rock's mother. He offers Rock the chance to gain the strength to beat Geese once and for all on the condition that he work for him for the next year. Rock agrees and goes with him. Terry arrives just in the nick of time to see this and tries to stop Rock but he is pushed back from out of nowhere by Kain's masked enforcer Grant. Rock looks at Terry one last time and apologises, promising to return once this is all over. Terry looks on upset, but in his heart tells Rock that he's proud that he has chosen to forge his own path. Terry then gets up and says he better get to work just in case that path takes Rock down the wrong road. Art of Fighting Team: As the Nega-Verse is defeated, it fires one last projectile in the direction of Robert. Takuma, being the only able to react in time, deflects the blast with a super Haoh Sho Ko Ken. Robert thanks him as a dazed Takuma replies that he cannot allow the father of a future Kyokugen restaurant franchise owner die as he collapses from a heart attack and is rushed to hospital. A few weeks later, Takuma is getting ready to be discharged from hospital with Ryo,Robert,Yuri,King and Kushnood there to take him home. As they pack his things from his hospital room, Takuma tells Ryo that this health scare is the end for him and he's hanging up his gi for good. Ryo promises that as the new grandmaster of the Kyokugen style, he will make Takuma proud. Takuma replies that he already has and tells him he has one last thing to give him. Takuma tells Ryo that he is now worthy of the mantle of "Mr.Karate" and hands him the mask. Ryo says he will be honoured to go by that name but in order to spread the word of Kyokugen around the world he can't be hiding behind a mask. Yuri asks her father why he even bothered to bring it to the hospital anyway and Khushnood says that he has caught Takuma trying to wear it in order to sneak out for snacks. King tells Takuma that she helped get him a welcome home present which he'll see tomorrow the night. The next night, Kyokugen-Yankiku is reopened for business and King introduces Takuma to the new managers of the restaurant, Richard Myer and Bob Wilson. Takuma is thrilled as the ever popular managers will definitely increase business for his restaurant. Robert then approaches him and asks Takuma if what he said before he collapsed means he has now given his blessing for Robert to date Yuri. Defensive, Takuma denies having any knowledge of this and forces Robert to cover the costs for tonight. With Richard and Bob running things, various fighters come to the restaurant and inevitably a brawl breaks out. Richard looks on horrified saying "not again" but Takuma assures him that the situation is under control. Ryo and Khushnood dressed in full fighting gear arrive and begin to control the rowdy crowd. Takuma laughs saying that no matter what, Kyokugen will live on forever as he looks on at the Mr.Karate mask which now hangs proudly on the restaurant's bar. Women Fighter's Team: As the Nega-Verse is defeated, Yuri, Mai and King are exhausted but are relieved that this threat was successfully dealt with. Mai decides to visit the hospital where their friends are in order to tell them the news of their victory. They finally feel Luong is trustworthy enough and as a show of their newfound trust, they invite her to come along with them. However, she refuses saying she has something to do and hurriedly leaves. In the hospital Yuri, Mai and King visit Xiangfei, Kasumi, Hinako and Mary who congratulate them on their victory. Richard and Bob also show up with plenty of food and drinks to go around. Yuri asks Richard what the deal is with the sudden show of generosity and Richard dejectedly replies that the Pao Pao Cafe has been destroyed in the ensuing chaos in Southtown. Richard tells the ladies to enjoy the last of what he has to offer and leaves, sadly with Bob in tow. King stops him and offers him a new job. Reinvigorated by the offer, Richard accepts and gets to work instantly. A few weeks later all the former women's fighters have been released from hospital and are celebrating at Kyokugen-Yankiku now managed by Richard and Bob. Mai comments on such a lively crowd with Richard's management attracting many KOF competitors past and present. She mentions that she texted Luong to come over and hopes she'll make it. Luong calls to say she's outside and Mai brings her in. She introduces everyone to the fourth member of this year's Women's Team and much to Mai's surprise, the former Women's Fighters recognise her as the one who attacked them. As they charge toward her, Luong reveals she has brought backup in the form of Jack Turner, Eiji Kisaragi and Malin. Just as always a huge brawl breaks out, Richard sighs, saying nothing has changed in the end but Bob comforts him and says at least they're doing what they love. Richard agrees as he gets to work on another round of food and drinks. Kim Team: After the Nega-Verse is defeated, Kim heads home to his family and students. He finally tells Chang and Choi that they are now free to do whatever it is they want and bids them farewell. Gang-Il invites the two former convicts on an all expenses paid worldwide trip to establish Chang and Choi as the newest fixtures of the international social scene. A few weeks later, Kim has settled back in to his peaceful and easy life back home but finds that he has grown to miss Chang and Choi. May Lee consoles him and tells her master that there'll be plenty more people to rehabilitate to which Kim replies that he hopes so. Suddenly the doorbell rings and much to Kim's surprise, Chang, Choi and Gang-Il are there. Chang and Choi tell Kim how much they disliked having to travel around and pretend to be sophisticated and beg Kim to take them back in. Kim tearfully agrees as he welcomes the two back home. A few hours later, Kim and Gang-Il look on as Chang and Choi play in the garden with May Lee and Kim's sons, Dong Hwan and Jae Hoon. Gang-Il tells Kim that it was apparent that Chang and Choi genuinely missed their lives here which is a testament to how effective Kim's training has been. Kim thanks his master for putting the two through one final test to prove the results of his rehabilitation program. Gang-Il replies that he'll never understand Kim's methods but he's glad that in this case, they were effective. He then asks Kim about another student of his. Kim takes Gang-Il to the dojo on his property where Jin Chonshu is being monitored by Jhun Hoon. Kim tells his master that something is causing Chonshu to lose focus and constantly stumble in his training. Gang-Il tells Kim that the answer will come in time and only through patience will everything reveal itself. Kim accuses Gang-Il of not knowing either and trying to cover it up. Just then, a car horns and Kim notices Cheng and Chonrei pulling up to the driveway. Gang-Il then flashes a cheeky grin at Kim and says "You see? What did I tell you?" Leona Team: Taking advantage of the chaos caused by the fight with the Nega-Verse, Yamazaki makes a run for it. Mature and Vice attempt to stop him but he calls them out on their hypocrisy. He tells them that they lived as they please and so should he. Yamazaki says he hopes they never have to meet again but if they offer a sweet pay day, he'll always be open for business. Mature and Vice let him go saying that they found him creepy anyway and probably won't have much use for him down the line. Leona then approaches them and asks why they let him go but the two women reply that Leona probably has bigger things to worry about. Leona senses that Gaidel is close by and hurries to find him. Mature and Vice promise her that they will cross paths again soon. They then ask each other what they're going to do till the next time but are interrupted by a voice that says that for them there will be no next time. Three ominous figures appear and swiftly attack the two men, bringing their unconscious bodies with them. Leona rushes over to Gaidel who attempts to take his own life and stops him in the nick of time. Gaidel tells his daughter that as long as he lives, he will only bring evil and destruction. Leona tells him that she thought the same of herself for many years but there is a better way. Gaidel looks doubtful at this prospect. Just then, the Ikari Squad come over and rush to Leona's side. Seeing the love and care that these soldiers show his daughter, Gaidel is moved and reconsiders his earlier stance. Heidern then steps forward and introduces himself. A few weeks later, it's business as usual for the Ikari Team with Leona back full time on the squad. Gaidel is living on their aircraft carrier as he has nowhere to go and is visited daily by Leona. One day after a mission briefing Heidern goes to Gaidel's room and tells him that since he has nothing to do, perhaps he should come along with him. Gaidel asks Heidern why he has always been so kind to them and he replies that they're less different than he thinks. They then head off together in a plane. Ikari Team: Following the destruction of the Nega-Verse, the Ikari Warriors rush to examine the scene. Whip asks K' where Krizalid is and K' replies that he escaped along with his team. Clark consoles her saying that they'll meet again sooner rather than later. Ralf then sees Leona running away and rallies the team to go after her. They finally catch up to Leona and notice that she has successfully stopped Gaidel from killing himself. Clark reminisces how not too long ago, Ralf had to stop Leona from doing the same thing. Ralf just smiles and thinks to himself how far Leona has really come. A few weeks later and it's another busy day at the Ikari headquarters. Heidern has given everyone their missions and has left on an assignment of his own. In the prep room, Ralf asks Leona if she's settling back in alright. To which she replies "yes Colonel." Ralf says he's not asking as her superior, he's asking as someone close to her. Leona then smiles and thanks him for standing by her all this while. Pleasantly surprised by this rare display of emotion, Ralf tells her to not get too sappy cause they have another mission. Whip and Clark then come in and inform them that they'll be pursuing another NESTS lead. The team's playful banter continues in their plane as they poke fun at Leona for not catching Yamazaki yet. Ralf then smiles, glad that everyone's back together again. In another plane Heidern has just gotten off the phone with Adelheid. Gaidel who was with him and heard everything, tells a clearly shaken Heidern that they really aren't that different after all. Heavenly Kings: Upon the defeat of the Nega-Verse. Yashiro, Shermie and Chris turn towards Goenitz and ask him to come clean. It's more than apparent that he isn't just an ordinary priest trying to help them with their careers. Goenitz replies that perhaps it would be better to just show them. He then forcefully implants all their memories as Heavenly Kings and tells them to succumb to their fates. They slowly start morphing into their Orochi forms but at the last minute, their memories of being together as a group overtake these and they begin to resist. Goenitz tells them to stop resisting and realise who they are. Yashiro tells him that they already have. They are CYS and nothing more or nothing less. They successfully beat Orochi's influence but find themselves left with a small fraction of it's power each. They then turn on Goenitz who is forced to retreat knowing that he cannot beat those three alone. Chris asks what's next and Shermie tells the two that it's time to head home and get to work on their new album. Antonov, overhearing this conversation offers the group a lucrative recording contract with his company to which they happily accept. A few weeks later CYS is playing a sold out concert at the rebuilt Antonov arena from XIV. Yakov watches the show proudly by Antonov's side but unbeknownst to Antonov, he is wearing a recording device and his eyes turn a red colour. In a secret lair somewhere, Goenitz is watching the concert unfold. He turns behind him and tells three people standing there that he is very impressed. He switches on the lights in his room and it is revealed that the people are Magaki, Mukai and Botan who is controlling Yakov. The four of them leave the room and it can be seen that Mature and Vice are being held prisoner in stasis tanks with 5 more empty tanks around them. Gaidel: Sitting in a plane and contemplating everything he has been through, Gaidel still questions if he should truly be deserving of a second chance. Fate has given him powers designed only for evil and for many years the world was rid of that evil. That was until he came along. Overhearing a conversation Heidern is having on the phone, Gaidel remarks how funny it is that the worst people come from the best circumstances and the best people often come out of the bleakest. Seeing Heidern clearly distressed by the call, he places a comforting hand on his shoulder. Over in Hong Kong, Yamazaki is back to his usual tricks smuggling illegal weapons. He turns around expecting the police but is shocked to see Heidern and Gaidel who pins him down with a sharp blast of water. As Yamazaki is taken away, Gaidel remarks to himself that he doesn't know what exactly his circumstances were but he's going to start on a new more righteous path regardless of what stands in his way. Nega-Verse (Post Credits Scene): The Nega-Verse's fragments gather in a rural area in Afghanistan. As they begin to materialise once more, the original Verse appears and they communicate in their own language that they must go somewhere else. In a hidden shrine in Egpyt, the two entities begin a ritual and summon another member of their kind... Hope you guys like it and apologies for the long read. I'm looking forward to hearing what you have to say about these endings. Would love to hear if you guys feel the same or have any ideas of your own to add on or to counter any of my points. Take care!
2020.08.15 18:55 IsraelNazirThe DHAMMAPADA - The Words of Buddha, the teaching of the Awakened - FREE BUDDHIST BOOK PART 4
CHAPTER 20 – VERSES ON THE PATH Verse 273 Of all the trails, the one with 8 stages is the best. Of all the truths, the Four taught are the best. Of all the states, the state without passions is the best. Of the blind, the one who sees is always the best. Verse 274 This is the best way for anyone looking for a clear and pure view. To cross it is to defeat Mara. Verse 275 Enter this path to end your pain. Follow my teachings that lead to the path that removes thorns. Verse 276 But it is up to you to make the effort, the Buddhas are only instructors. See these meditators, who entering the path are released from the bonds of Māra. Verse 277 “Nothing self-conditioned is permanent. When we discern this wisely, we are disgusted with dissatisfaction. See, this is the path of purity. Verse 278 "Unsatisfactory are all things conditioned by oneself". When we discern this wisely, we are disgusted with dissatisfaction. Hear, this is the path of purity. Verse 279 "Non-being is everything". When we discern this wisely, we are disgusted with dissatisfaction. Hear, this is the path of purity. Verse 280 The nonchalant one who does not fight when he has to fight even although he is young and strong, who is insensitive and weak in aspiration. This lazy man will not realize the path of Wisdom. Verse 281 Well controlled in speech and well controlled by the mind, doing nothing foolish because of its heart. May he find how to purify these three things and conquer himself on the path of Wisdom. Verse 282 From the mind is born understanding, without mind understanding vanishes. It is by understanding this dynamic of loss and gain that the disciple conducts himself in order that understanding grows. Verse 283 Cut the forest of passions but not the real trees. From the forest of passions comes fear. Cut your way in this thicket, be cleansed of your passions, O’ Bhikkhous. Verse 284 Because as long as the copse of a man's passions towards women is not cut, as long as a bit remains his spirit is bound. Like the calf suckling its mother is bound. Verse 285 Cut your affections, like your are cutting lilacs by hand in the fall. Cultivate this path of peace which leads to Nirvana and which was exposed to you by the Well Gone. Verse 286 I want to stay here during the rainy season, afar during the fall, and there over here for summertime. So the madman dreams. The fool does not realize his danger. Verse 287 The man who is possessed by desire, whose mind is fixed on children and wealth. Death seizes him like a great flood sweeps away the sleeping village. Verse 288 Over there, there is no son as protector, neither father nor brothers, no cousin to protect you. For those who are overcome by death, there is no longer any protection. Verse 289 Understanding this reality, the wise man controls himself in morality and quickly sets out on the path that leads to Nirvana. https://preview.redd.it/0j0hip1x47h51.png?width=335&format=png&auto=webp&s=11f18bb76590b1152cc16b09724a0c29d62f71fb CHAPTER 21 - VARIOUS VERSES Verse 290 If by giving up a little pleasure, you get greater happiness. The wise man gives up pleasure, he then attains greater happiness. Verse 291 It is not by inflicting pain on others that he who desires happiness will be relieved of hatred. In truth, to hatred, this man is linked. Verse 292 What he had to do, he left unfulfilled. What should not be done, it does imperceptibly. The purulence of those who are arrogant and inattentive increases. Verse 293 Those who are always attentive to their bodies and who do not do what should not be done. Who strives to do what needs to be done, for those purulences end. Verse 294 Having killed thirst and selfishness, having defeated the two warrior kings of permanence and nihilism, who has untied the senses and their objects. Whoever keeps his treasure, goes, unperturbed, towards the Supreme Self, the awakened Brahmin. Verse 295 Having killed the thirst and the mother of the two Brahman Kings who has gone through sterile doubt and impediments, goes unperturbed towards the Supreme Self, the awakened Brahmin. Verse 296 Awakened, the disciples of Gautama who rise day and night and are attentive to the teachings of the Buddha. Verse 297 Awakened, the disciples of Gautama who rise day and night and are attentive to the virtue of the Dhammapada. Verse 298 Awakened, the disciples of Gautama who rise day and night and are attentive to the Sangha community. Verse 299 Awakened, the disciples of Gautama who rise day and night and are attentive to keep their hearts. Verse 300 Awakenend, the disciples of Gautama who rise day and night and are attentive to the mind serenity. Verse 301 Awakened, the disciples of Gautama who rise day and night and are attentive to Harmony. Verse 302 Difficult is renunciation. Difficult to rejoice. Difficult is the life at home. Painful is the association with those who are not your equals. Evils overwhelm the traveler in the life of Samsara. Leave this world of dissatisfaction that you are constantly chasing. Verse 303 He who is filled with confidence and virtue, possessor of fame and wealth, in whatever country he is, he is always honored. Verse 304 Even from afar, the good are visible like the Himalayas, while the bad are invisible, they are like arrows piercing at night. Verse 305 The one who sits alone, the one who walks alone, the one who remains lonely, who is ardent in his solitude, subjugates the self and will seek its delights in the depths of the forests. CHAPTER 22 - VERSES ON UNHAPPY STATES Verse 306 It is by saying: "It was not I who did it" that the liar goes into unhappy states. He and his lies go to the other world and are equal in vice. Verse 307 There are among those who wear the yellow robe who dress up to the neck and are of bad nature, uncontrolled. Because of their bad deeds, they go to unhappy states. Verse 308 Better swallowing a scorching red iron ball as to benefit from alms, while being immoral and uncontrolled. Verse 309 Four misfortunes overwhelm a carefree man who commits adultery, demerit and disturbed sleep, blame and pain. Verse 310 Demerit causes an unhappy future birth. Brief is the joy of the worried man and the woman. The king imposed a heavy punishment: "that no man frequents the woman of the other." Verse 311 Just as the clumsily picked kusa grass cuts the hand of the picker, so a clumsily led ascetic life leads to unhappy states. Verse 312 Any loose act, any corrupt observance, any life of a dubious moral man, none of this is a great fruit. Verse 313 If something has to be done, let him do it, do it energetically, because the abandoned workout is made of dust. Verse 314 It is better not to do a bad deed. Afterwards, we are tormented by it. It is better to do a good deed, having done it, we do not repent afterwards. Verse 315 Like a border town guarded outside and inside. Keep yourself surely. Do not let this opportunity slip. Those who let this opportunity slip, will suffer when they go into unhappy states. Verse 316 Beings, who feel ashamed for what is not ashamed, who do not feel ashamed for what is ashamed, embrace false views and go towards unhappy states. Verse 317 Beings, who see fear where there is nothing to fear, who do not see fear in what is to be feared, embrace false views and go towards unhappy states. Verse 318 Beings who imagine the false in what is not, who do not see the error in what is wrong, embrace false views and go towards unhappy states. Verse 319 Beings who recognize what is false as false, who recognize what is right as right, embrace right views and go towards happy states. Ganesh CHAPTER 23 – VERSES ON THE ELEPHANT Verse 320 As an elephant on the battlefield resists arrows drawn from the bow, so I endure the insults. In truth most people are bad natures. Verse 321 Before an assembly of people, only well-trained elephants are driven. The king rides the trained animal. The best among men are the trained ones who endure insult. Verse 322 Excellent are the well-trained mules, so are the mules of Sindh, fully trained are the noblest elephants; but, in truth, the one who tames himself is even more excellent. Verse 323 It is not by training elephants that you will succeed in capturing yourself. Only a well-trained being will go to the end of suffering. Verse 324 The Dhamapālako baby elephant is restless and uncontrollable when you capture it. See, he no longer eats a bite and baritizes by calling his native forest. Verse 325 The stupid man who is lazy, gluttonous and inattentive, who wallows like a well-fed pig, is subject to repeated rebirths. Verse 326 Before that heart went wandering where it wanted, really, as it pleased. Today, with attention, I maintain it firmly as an elephant trainer holds the elephant in heat. Verse 327 Look forward to attention. Keep your heart well. Get out of the wrong way as the elephant stuck in the mud emerges. Verse 328 If you find a prudent companion to live with, who behaves well and is wise. You can live with him joyfully and attentively, thus overcoming all dangers. Verse 329 If you do not find a suitable companion to live with you, who behaves well and who is wise, then as the king leaves a conquered kingdom, you will have to live alone like an elephant in the elephant forest. Verse 330 Better is to live alone, there is no possible companionship with a madman. Let us live alone, doing no harm and be free from worries, like an elephant in the elephant forest. Verse 331 Blessed, the friends when the need arises. Blessed, the contentment of just this or that Blessed, the merit when life comes to an end. Blessed is the cessation of all suffering. Verse 332 Good in this world to assist his mother. Good in this world to assist his father. Good in this world to assist the ascetics. Good in this world to assist the Pure. Verse 333 Blessed, virtue until old age. Blessed, unwavering confidence. Blessed, obtaining wisdom. Blessed, abstention from all evil. CHAPTER 24 - VERSES ON CRAVING Verse 334 The craving of a negligent grows like ivy in the forest. This man jumps from life to life as a monkey goes to the fruits of the forest. Verse 335 Whoever in this world is beaten by this unworthy and gripping craving, his sorrows bloom like the well-watered Bīrana grass. Verse 336 Whoever in this world conquers this unworthy and unruly thirst. Sorrows fall as drops of water slide from the lotus leaf. Verse 337 This, I tell you! Good luck to you, who are gathered here! Dig deep, uproot craving like one in search of the sweet root of the Bīrana grass. Do not let Māra carry you away such as the reed is carried away by the stream. Verse 338 Just like a tree with healthy strong roots will grow again even though cut down. So also, if the latent craving is not rooted out, sorrow will arise again and again. Verse 339 In whom the thirty-six streams of carving towards pleasureable objects are strong. Pulsating thoughts, full of desire, will carry this man to wrong views. Verse 340 The stream of craving flows everywhere. Lianas are born and persist. Look at this liana that cut its roots and arose with wisdom. Verse 341 These beings, who seek pleasure in craving and who seek happiness in pleasures, are in truth going to birth and decline. Verse 342 People beset with craving are terrified like a hare caught in a snare. They are bound and restrained for a long time and go into a never-ending sorrow. Verse 343 People beset with craving are terrified like a hare caught in a snare. Therefore, the Bhikkhu disciple who desires the passionless state shifts away from craving. Verse 344 Having left the forest of desire, he runs back freely towards the forest of desire. Look at this man rushing back to his bonds. Verse 345 It is not a powerful bond, says the sage, that one made of iron, wood or hemp. The craving for jewels, honors, sons and wives, is a far more powerful bond. Verse 346 This bond is strong, says the sage. He captures you and throws you to the ground. It is difficult to untie. The wise cut their ties by abandoning sensual pleasures. They have given up on desire. Verse 347 Those who are drunk with lust fall into the stream (of craving) like an insect falls into the spider’s web. This trap also the wise man cuts. He lives without desire, renouncing all sorrows. Verse 348 Give up the past, give up the future, give up the present and go with a liberated mind to the other side of existence. Do not go through this state of birth and decay anymore. Verse 349 For the person who is agitated by bad thoughts, tied by his passions, who sees only the pleasant, the craving grows steadily, really, it grabs him. Verse 350 He who rejoices in subjugating his thoughts. He who mind his purulences and is always attentive. This one will put an end to the craving and cut the bonds of Mara. Verse 351 He who has reached the goal, who is fearless, without craving and without passions. He who has cut the thorns of life, will take good care of his body. Verse 352 He who is devoid of craving and is free from attachment. He who is skilled in etymology and vocabulary, who knows the grouping of syllables and their assembly. He is the one who is called the bearer of the last body. He is a man of wisdom, a great man. Verse 353 They say: "I have conquered everything, I know everything, I am detached from everything, I have renounced everything, I am fully freed from the destruction of craving. Having figured it out for myself, who could I call my teacher? ". Verse 354 The gift of Dhamma surpasses all gifts. The flavor of Dhamma surpasses all flavors. The delight of Dhamma surpasses all delicacies. Anyone who stops craving overcomes all pains. Verse 355 The wealth ruins the fool, but it does not ruin those in search of "Beyond". With the craving for wealth, the stupid man ruins himself and ruins others. Verse 356 The weeds are the filth of the fields; attachment is the defilement of man. Therefore, those who live without passion know how to give and will bear great fruit. Verse 357 The weeds are the filth of the fields; hatred is the defilement of man. Therefore, those who live free from hatred know how to give and will bear great fruit. Verse 358 The weeds are the filth of the fields; illusion is the defilement of man. Therefore, those who live free from illusion know how to give and will bear great fruit. Verse 359 The weeds are the filth of the fields; desire is the defilement of man. Therefore, those who live without desire know how to give and will bear great fruit. Om Mani Padme Hum in tibetan calligraphy CHAPTER 25 - VERSET ON THE BHIKKHU DISCIPLE Verse 360 How good to control your eye, how good to control your ear, how good to control your nose, how good to control your tongue. Verse 361 How good it is to control your act, how good it is to control your speech, how good it is to control your mind, how good it is to control all things. The disciple Bhikkhu controlled on all sides lives free from suffering Verse 362 He who controls his hand and controls his foot. He who controls the language and the highest of the head. He one who rejoices in meditation and contains himself, simple, alone and satisfied; I call such a man a Bhikkhu disciple. Verse 363 The Bhikkhu disciple who has control over his tongue, who speaks wisely and without pride, who explains the meaning and the form of the text. Sweet is his word. Verse 364 The Bhikkhu disciple who abides in the Dhamma, who rejoices in the Dhamma, who meditates on the Dhamma and who remembers the Dhamma, will not leave the Excellent Dhamma. Verse 365 He shall not despise what he has received, he shall not envy the gain of others. The bhikkhu disciple who envies the gain of others does not focus on what he has. Verse 366 Although he has received little, if a Bhikkhu disciple does not despise what little he has received. The Devas will praise him because they praise those who are not fools and who have pure life. Verse 367 He one who has no conception of himself and has no conception of what is his. He who is not attached to mind and body and does not grieve for what he does not have, that one in truth, is called a Bhikkhu disciple. Verse 368 The Bhikkhu disciple who remains in benevolent love, who is content with the teaching of the Buddha, will reached this state of peace and happiness, the tranquilization of the 5 aggregates of existence. Verse 369 Empty this boat, O’ Bhikkhu! Emptied of you, it will go quickly. Cut off your lust and animosity so you will move towards the end of suffering, the Nibbāna. Verse 370 Five suppressed, five abandoned and in addition five cultivated, the disciple Bhikkhu who has been beyond the five obstacles is called the "stream-breaker". Verse 371 Meditate Bhikkhu! Do not be inattentive. Do not let your mind been carried away by the pleasures of the senses. Do not be sloppy and do not swallow a hot iron ball. And if you burn yourself, do not lament because even lamentation is suffering. Verse 372 There is no thinking without wisdom. There is no wisdom without thinking. The one in whom there is wisdom and thinking lives in cessation of suffering, the Nibbāna. Verse 373 The disciple Bhikkou who has retired to a solitary abode, who has calmed his heart and who clearly perceives the Dhamma, this one experiences a transcendal joy. Verse 374 He who is continually and fully attentive to the origin and disappearance of the 5 aggregates, is experiencing a joy and a rapture which will never cease. Verse 375 Here is the beginning for a Bhikkhu disciple: be full of wisdom, controlled of the senses and self-contained, be restricted and aware of the fundamental code of ethics. The "Patimokka" associates with energetic and beneficial friends. Verse 376 May he be cordial in his manners and refined in his conduct. By this, full of joy, he will put an end to suffering. Verse 377 As the jasmine liana drops its withered flowers, likewise Bhikkhus disciples, must you totally reject lust and aggression. Verse 378 The Bhikkhu disciple who is calm in his heart, calm in speech, quiet in spirit, who is well contained and who has vomited all worldly things. This disciple is truly called a "peaceful" one. Verse 379 By the Self, censor yourself. Through the Self, examine your self. Keep yourself and be mindful. Bhikkhus, you will live then happily! Verse 380 The Self, in truth, is the protector of the self. The Self, in truth, is the refuge of the self. Control, therefore, your own Self as a merchant controls a noble steed. Verse 381 Full of joy and full of confidence in the teaching of the Buddha, the Bhikkhu disciple will attain the state of Peace, the appeasement of conditioned things: the bliss. https://preview.redd.it/bjsuxw5857h51.png?width=311&format=png&auto=webp&s=ef32c0b7112df5f24c5eeee4b3d899a8ac9c7c94 FINAL CHAPTER - VERSES ON THE BRAHMAN Verse 383 Fight and divide the stream (of carving). Move away, Brāhman from the desire of the senses. Knowing the destruction of the constituents of life, be holy, be a Brahman, the knower of non-being. Verse 384 When with stillness of heart and penetrating sight a Brahman goes to the other side, then all the bonds of that knower fall. Verse 385 The one for whom neither this inner shore nor this outer shore exists. The one who does not reside on this shore or on that shore. The one who is without distress and without bond. This is the man I call a saint, a Brahman. Verse 386 He who is meditative and without blemishes. He who remains stable and fixed. He who has done his duty and who is free from purulences. He who has achieved the highest goal. This is the man I call a saint, a Brahman. Verse 387 The Sun shines by day, the Moon shines at night, the armed warrior glazes copper, the Brahman in meditation eclipse, but the glory of the Buddha shines day and night. Verse 388 Because he has cast aside evil, he is called a Brahman; because his conduct is balanced, he is called one without essence; because he has given up his impurities, he is called a "gone forth". Verse 389 One should not hit a Brahman., neither should a Brahman unleash his anger against whoever hurts him. Shame on the one who strikes a Brahman and even a greater shame on the Brahman who would give vent to his anger. Verse 390 For a Brahman, non-revenge is not a victory. When the mind is weaned from expensive things and the intention to hurt the other ceases. It is only then that the suffering subsides. Verse 391 He who does no harm by heart, speech or mind, he who is controlled in these three modes. This is the man I call a saint, a Brahman. Verse 392 The one by whom one knows the Dhamma taught by the Awakened. One must assiduously revere him as a Brahman worships the sacrificial fire. Verse 393 It is not by braiding the hair, nor thanks to his family or his birth that one becomes a Brahman. But in one who is pure, there is the virtue of Dhamma. He is a saint, a Brahman. Verse 394 Why this braided hair, O’ men without intelligence? Why this antelope skin garment? Inside you are full of passions, outside you carry them. Verse 395 The person who wears robes found in the garbage heaps, who is thin, with visible veins, who meditates alone in the forest. This is the man, I call a saint, a Brahman. Verse 396 I do not call him a Brahman just because he was born from a Brahmin mother. If he has kept the moral defilements, I call him "Mister". He who is free from moral defilements, free from attachments. It is this man, I call a saint, a Brahman. Verse 397 He who has cut all ties, who does not tremble, who has been beyond moral defilements, who is without attachments. It is this man, I call a saint, a Brahman. Verse 398 The Awakened One who cut the strap of hatred, the strap of attachments and the knot of heresies. He who cut himself off from all his addictions and cut the net of ignorance. It is this man, I call a saint, a Brahman. Verse 399 He who without anger supports the blame, the whip and the punishments. He whose mighty weapon is patience. It is this man, I call a saint, a Brahman. Verse 400 He who is not hateful but is virtuous. He who is not soaked in desire but controlled and who wears his last shell. It is this man, I call a saint, a Brahman. Verse 401 Like water on the lotus leaf, like a mustard seed at the end of its stem, he who is not attached to the pleasures of the senses. It is this man, I call a saint, a Brahman. Verse 402 He who realizes by himself the destruction of suffering. He who laid down the burden of hatred and emancipated himself from ignorance. It is this man, I call a saint, a Brahmin. Verse 403 He whose wisdom is deep, who is skilled in the Way and the non-Way. He who has reached the highest goal. It is this man, I call a saint, a Brahman. Verse 404 He who does not associates with the owners of the house or with the homeless, who wanders without desires and wants. It is this man, I call a saint, a Brahman. Verse 405 He who left the club and who no longer hits the weak or the strong. He who never kills or causes death. It is this man, I call a saint, a Brahman. Verse 406 He who is friendly among the hostiles, who is peaceful among the violents. He who is not attached. It is this man, I call a saint, a Brahmin. Verse 407 He in whom lust, hatred, pride and denigration, have fallen like a mustard seed from the tip of its stem. It is this man, I call a saint, a Brahman. Verse 408 He who speaks kind, instructive and true words. He who does not offend anyone. It is this man, I call a saint, a Brahman. Verse 409 He who in the world does not take anything that is not given, whether short or long, small or large, sordid or pleasant. It is this man, I call a saint, a Brahman. Verse 410 He who is without desire for this world and the next, who is desireless and is emancipated from his passions. It is this man, I call a saint, a Brahman. Verse 411 He who is without desire and who by wisdom has freed himself from doubts. The one who plunged into non-being. It is this man that I call a saint, a Brahmin. Verse 412 He who has transcended good and bad as well as sorrows and hindrances, who is without sorrow, without stain, who is pure. It is this man, I call a saint, a Brahman. Verse 413 He who is stainless like the Moon, who is pure, serene and tranquil. He who has destroyed the craving of existence. It is this man, I call a saint, a Brahman. Verse 414 He who has passed this difficult path and the wandering of Samsara, who crosses illusions and goes beyond, who is reflective, free from desires and doubts, who does not attach himself to anything in order to free himself. It is this man, I call a saint, a Brahman. Verse 415 He who in this world, abandoning sensual desires, has given up and becomes homeless, who has destroyed the desires of the senses and the desire to become. It is this man, I call a saint, a Brahman. Verse 416 He who in this world, having given up craving, renounces and becomes homeless, who has destroyed the craving to become. It is this man that I call a saint, a Brahman. Verse 417 He who eliminate humanly ties and transcends heavenly ties, who is completely freed from all bonds. It is this man, I call a saint, a Brahman. Verse 418 He who has given up likes and dislikes, who is appeased and without aggregation, who has conquered the world and remains energetic. It is this man, I call a saint, a Brahman. Verse 419 He who knows the death and the rebirth of existences, who is detached, well gone and awake. It is this man, I call a saint, a Brahman. Verse 420 He whose destiny is known neither to the Devas, nor to the Gadharvas, nor to men, who destroyed all the purulences and became an awakened. It is this man, I call a saint, a Brahman. Verse 421 He who has no attachment to the aggregates of the past, future or present, who is without attachment and lust. It is this man, I call a saint, a Brahman. Verse 422 You call him: "The fearless, the noble, the hero, the great sage, the conqueror, the desireless or the Awakened." But it is this man, I call a saint, a Brahman. Final verse He who knows his ancient dwellings, who sees heaven and hell, who has reached the end of births. He who with superior wisdom has perfected himself, who has completed the life of the Dhamma and who consume all his passions, this is the man I call a saint, a Brāhman. Buddhist endless knot AFTER THE BOOK THE REFLECTION You have just read the English translation of Siddhartha Gautama's Dhammapada. This book constitutes the oral collection of the most beautiful words of Truth that the Buddha had during his life. According to the instructions of the master, the transmission of this knowledge was done only orally within the framework of the Sangha communities. The peaceful and vigilant Buddha lived at a time when rare were those who could read and write, which is why he firmly believed in the oral education of this knowledge. This teaching which allows men to know how to lead their lives, it means the conduct to have during his own life and the conduct to have within the framework of a life in a Buddhist community. The instructions of the master were respected for more than three centuries, at that time the Buddhist religion prospered internationally, from its Gangetic basin, it radiates from Nepal-Tibet to China and the other countries of the Bay of Bengal, it is say Burma and Thailand. In China, Buddhist teaching lives on thanks to the contribution of Taoism in harmony with Confucianism. Thanks to the support of Chinese scholars, the Buddhist way is reinforced in the South Asian peninsula and replaces the existing religions with weak moral values. In India, however, the situation is quite different. Buddhist communities are constantly shrinking. The current of Buddhism was recognized from the beginning as being a Hindu thought. This teaching has been assimilated, understood and criticized by Hindu scholars who recognize in Siddhartha Gautama the wisdom of an avatar of God, Vishnu. They consider his teaching to be part of Hinduism and belong to its cosmology. From then on, emptied of its identity belief, Buddhism no longer has any roots. It then merges into the Indian religion and it is at this time that it is said that some Sangha communities of South India, fearing that this knowledge would disappear forever, made the decision to publish in writing the message of the Well Gone Buddha: "This message of Truth which speaks of Peace and Wisdom" For this is the universal subject of this Book which allows men to understand the advantages of following the path of Virtue, because it is the path which will lead them to attain Peace and Wisdom. It is the noble and protective path that leads to happiness thanks to the end of suffering. It is the conduct of his well-being, without fear or hatred, untied from affections, the righteous 8-step path which through Self-control leads to the ultimate liberation. Because this is the essence of Siddhartha Gautama's message: Freedom. Learn to break free. Learn not to be a slave anymore. Knowing how to detach oneself from links and traps. Cultivate your serenity through meditation. Sufferings and desires are like drops of water that slide along the lotus leaves, they will find nowhere to attach themselves to you. It is to speak of the idea that there is a universal value of Freedom which, because it frees from all evil, always leads to a new situation which will be in the long term, peaceful and beneficial. That is to say that there is: "A better truth which tends towards the perfect bus animated by Liberty" Siddhartha Gautama believed this and he used this universal value in all aspects of his rhetoric. Faced with the questions of his interlocutors who sought to doubt the Truth, he always responded with a wise and peaceful response which leads to freeing himself from doubts and constraints. When they came to question him about believing in God. He replied that it was necessary to free oneself from it in a wise and peaceful way, free from doubts and constraints. The reality of this debate is confirmed by verse 97 of this work. “He who without faith understands the Uncreated, who cut ties and put an end to cycles of rebirth. This one is truly the supreme man. " The Buddhist tradition tells to illuminate this verse the story of Thera Sariputta. (source: www.tipitaka.net) 30 Bhikku disciples from a village arrived at the Jetavana monastery to pay homage to the Buddha. The Buddha knew that these disciples were ready to reach the stage of the liberated. He summoned Sariputta in the presence of the disciples and asked him "My son Sariputta, do you accept that by meditating on his senses, one can reach Nibbana?" Sariputta replied, "Venerable Master, about reaching Nibbana by meditating on your senses, it is not that I accept it because I believe in you. It is only that there are people who have not understood Nibbana and who accept it because others accept it. Sariputta's answer was misinterpreted by the disciples and a pro quo followed. They believed that Sariputta had not given up on lies and that he had no faith in the Buddha. Then the Buddha explained the true peaceful and wise meaning of Sariputta's response: “Bhikkous disciples, Sariputta's answer is simple. He accepts that one can attain Nibbana by meditating on these senses. But he doesn't accept it because of his own understanding or because I said it, or whoever said it. Sariputta believes in my message because he knows he will receive good consequences for his good deeds. " This verse has often been used to prove that Buddhism is not a religion. The idea is to say that Buddhism is an atheistic school of thought which refuses the existence of God which therefore makes it guilty of the theological crime of apostasy. Yet when readers read the Dhammapada they will find only one verse 97 and scores of references to the Devas, which are the names that would have been given in the English language to the angels. They will also find mention of God. Because as Buddha Siddhartha Gautama thought, they are the first who brought the message of Wisdom and Peace.This is why when one say that Siddhartha Gautama, refused the existence of God, then he is not understand that he had accepted it and had freed himself from it. When we let go of our free will and act only according to the path of Virtue. We reach a stage similar to that of the definition that monotheists make of an angel. This is the liberating vision of this verse. Become a liberated man, a supreme man who, like an angel, accepts to conduct himself perfectly, on the path of Virtue. Not that he accepts it because of his own understanding or because the message comes from a sage or from God. He accepts it because he knows that thanks to this, he will receive the good consequences of his good deeds. Another argument often used by people to make believe that Buddhism is not a religion and that it is guilty of the crime of idolatry. The origin of this debate, is proven and can be found in the first sermons of the Buddha: Sutta Nigayikaya. (source www.suttacentral.net) 3.1.2 Eternal partialism There are ascetics and Brahmans who are partially eternal. They say that the Self and the cosmos are partially eternal and partially mortal in four ways. What are the foundations of their way? There was a time after a long time that the cosmos began to contract. When the cosmos contracted, supreme beings moved towards the radiant realm. There they are purely spiritual, they feed on light, they shine and move in the sky in a constant and glorious way. They stayed like that for a very long time. Then came the time when the cosmos expanded. When the cosmos expanded, an empty house called Brahma’s appeared. After a very long time, a certain supreme being obtained through these good deeds and his merit to leave the stage of gods and be reborn in the empty house of Brahma. This supreme being remained alone for a long time in this house, he hoped that other beings would come to join him. Not seeing anyone join him. He began to think: "It is I, Brahma, the great Brahma, the invincible champion, the Universal Prophet, the Bearer of Power, the Lord God, the Creator, the Author, the Best, the Controller, the Father of those who are born and of those who are unborn. These beings were created by me! Why is that ? Because I first thought: “Oh, if only another being came to this level of existence. This is the desire of my heart. " When the supreme beings who followed arrived at the house of Brahma, they thought when they saw him that it was he Brahma, the great Brahma, the invincible champion, the Universal Prophet, the Powerbringer, the Lord God, the Creator , the Author, the Best, the Controller, the Father of those who are born and of those who are to be born. Why is that, because they came after him. This sermon misinterpreted lead some to believe that in speaking of this, Siddhartha Gautama was talking about the theological crime of wanting to replace God with men and idols. We, the people of the Book, truly believe that the discourse of the well-awakened Buddha in no way reflects this belief and, on the contrary, we believe that at that time he was unraveling one of the greatest secrets of Hinduism: the origin of the name Brahma. It was François-Marie Arouet, known as Voltaire, who was the first in French theological culture to notice the strange alphabetical coincidence that links the names of Brahma and Abraham. We also know that Jewish tradition repeats the story of Abraham from ancestral times and that when Abraham came down from the mountain with his son Jacob, he said that God had spoken to him and that he had told him not to sacrifice his son. During this time which preceded the birth of Siddhartha Gautama by many centuries, the news of this miraculous act spread around the peoples of the Earth. Oral transmission was the only one that allowed men to have information and stories to tell. The story conveyed by Abraham was prodigious, everyone worshiped him, it was told in the evening around the fire. If people liked this story so much, it is because it justified above all in the ears of their listeners that there was a God who did not want human sacrifice. When the men asked the Jews what this virtuous God was called, they replied that according to their laws it is forbidden to pronounce the name of God in vain. From there remained for the listeners, the only mention of the God of Abraham who by linguistic shift became over the centuries the God Brahma of the Hindus. The proof that lets us think that this etymology is the correct one, comes from the fact that in Hindu cosmology (source wikipedia) it is written that Brahma is married to the goddess Sara. This name is the same as that found in the genesis of the Jewish Tanakh, it means that Abraham's wife was indeed called Sarah. Finally, symbol lovers will notice the striking resemblance between the Hindu symbol of Brahma and the Star of David… This is why, to say that Siddhartha Gautama, wanted to replace God by men and idols, seems to us deeply unfair with respect to the wisdom of his message and also seems to us deeply unfair with respect to the foundations of his argumentation. The goal of becoming a supreme man is unique to Buddhist teaching, and we like the Confucians believe that the most important thing in all of this is to start getting started. We, people of the Book, believe in the God of Abraham and the teachings of the Book, knowing that it is possible for man to transcend his condition and become a supreme man fills us with joy and hope in Humanity. . In the teaching of Buddha Siddhartha Gautama, we have found Truth and deep serenity. On the Path of Virtue, man will be well taught: “O’, house builder, do no longer build a house or shelter for my body. All the beams are broken and the roof taken off. Towards dissolution my heart goes, the extinction of thirst, I have reached it. " Verse 154. The Dhammapada
2020.08.13 20:54 AJacent000Now This Is A Story All About How My Life got Flipped-Turned Upside Down
Hi. I'm still quite raw from all of this. It finally ended (completely) in March. We were together for over 5 years. Dated for 2, engaged for 3 and change. We had a child last year. I thought we'd be a family. I was so wrong and I regret so much. We met in college. I thought he was kind,he gave me piano lessons free of charge. I thought he was a chill guy, he seemed laid back, yet, there was a heaviness that I felt around him when we walked past each other on campus. I noticed it before we really even began speaking to each other. I was fascinated. I thought it was some sort of magnetism (IS/NTP brain here, stick with me). I realize now that it was my spirit trying to tell me to stay away from this person. It was fun at first. There were little things that he'd get annoyed with, but I just chalked it up to "everyone has a different way or doing things, w/e" and "we all have our things". He tried showing me a different way of doing things that made "more sense". I thought that was okay, because others can bring a perspective different from our own, and there's more than one way of doing something. It started not being okay in little ways. He'd be critical of how I did the simplest tasks, correcting me on things that didn't even matter. I would tell him that it wasn't serious and no big deal, at first he'd just dismiss it, or joke about it, but after a point, he'd come at me saying that the things I do don't make sense and that I didn't take anything seriously. The nice things we would do together would eclipse these moments when I should've really thought about what was really going on. He took me to shows and fancy places from time to time. When he met my family he bought them gifts, he even threw me a party for my 19th bday. He'd make me feel guilty for not doing as big things for him, when I'd still pay or split the pay for a lot of our dates, and I helped him pay (I paid for most of it) for a trip he took to Japan and I told him I wasn't too big of a planner, he'd make me feel bad, saying that I wasn't doing enough. He proposed to me when he graduated, I was so happy. The fun times still eclipsed the moments when I should've taken pause and I had accepted. He grew up in the foster care system and he managed to finish HS and do what he had to to go to college. He was even homeless at one point. I admired him for his resilience and intelligence. His apparent kindness and sense of humor. I respected him so much. I didn't want to look at his past as something that should've been pitied, I looked at it as an obstacle that he overcame. I realize now that that should've been a red flag. We moved out together, it was fun at first. But at some point it wasn't. Between the both of us, I had the most stable work history. We both bounced, but when he did it was excessive. For example in 2018 he had over 20 different jobs. I should've taken that as a red flag as well. I thought you were supposed to stay with someone when they were having a hard time if you loved them. So I stayed. There was a point in time that he was unemployed and I was the one paying the bills and rent. I only tried to encourage him, send him job posts that I thought he'd qualify for, and didn't complain about the situation. I tried so hard to be positive, but at the time something in me felt tired. Something I was fighting. Somehow with all the jobs he quit, it wasn't his fault. He agreed to do the cooking and cleaning because I was the only one who could hold a job. I agreed. Yet, later on, as soon as he got a job and he didn't like something, he'd say that he's done all of the cooking and cleaning and that I was selfish. You see, that was his favorite line he'd use to manipulate me. He'd call me selfish, say that I was giving up, that I didn't know what I was doing, he'd say that nothing I did made sense, that just because I had a "little struggle" I couldn't handle it. There was one point he told me to pack my shit and leave and he was talking about how it's my fault that he started drinking more. That everything was my fault and I was selfish and never thought of him. We had late rent and bills. Instead of backing out and leaving, I thought it'd be best if I stayed because I was the more stable one and I didn't want him to end up homeless again. We talked and I had said that I hurt him, and I should be better to him and we "worked it out" and I stayed. That same night my mom was going to pick me up. I had told her what had happened and she insisted that she was coming up, until I told her that we had worked it out and that she didn't need to come. My ex had even made up some contract between the two of us because of my behavior, I hadn't signed. But I should've seen that as a red flag as well too.... That night will haunt me, and my mom too. That was the night that I should've went home. I felt bad at the situation and hadn't even remembered it or looked closely enough at it. Staying to help because I loved him and I didn't want him to end up homeless again. That was my rationale for a long time. There were times he'd randomly come out and say that I should find someone else, and I told him that I loved him and I'm here for him. My family (mom's side) didn't quite get along with him. My mom just didn't like him. She had turned out right. For years I only thought that they couldn't see the best in him, and that they had the wrong idea. He was always able to convince me that my view wasn't as logical as his or that certain questions that were perfectly valid to ask were stupid. And that I should know the answer by now. We had more happy times. A trip to Thailand. Dates, more jobs, movies, another broadway show. And at some point it would happen again. I did something that "didn't make sense" and now I was the person intentionally triggering him and setting him off. Another thing he'd start telling me was that he tries to teach me things so that I can know better. and that he's "hard on me" because he knows that I can do better. He's even said that he's had to raise me, just like my parents. It felt that way, idiotically, I agreed. He also ventured further one time and said that he gets why my parents have their issues with me. I was so hurt. I let him know and he replied that he wouldn't say things to me like that if I hadn't gotten him upset. I had gotten pregnant and he wanted to keep it. I was afraid because of our financial situation. I decided on an abortion, which he told me that he'd remember. He was there for me, but told me that he'd hold it against me. The second time I got pregnant, around the end of 2018, I felt guilty because of the 1st, I had come into my faith and knew that abortion was seen as a sin, so I kept it. He had pressured me, saying that if I aborted it we'd "have nothing to discuss". He encouraged me to do a homebirth, by saying that if anything happened in the hospital he'd hold me accountable. I gave birth with no meds last year. When I pushed the baby out, he said that I'd "earned my ceremony". Yet The night after, he came at me for getting the state involved because my homebirth went wrong. The nurse midwife felt for my baby's position and said that it felt like his ear was presenting first, which would've been bad news for the baby. Ex wanted to go to another hospital because there it wasn't legally required for the baby to get a vitamin K shot, he was afraid of whatever chemicals they'd put in the shot, despite the fact that vitamin k is given as a preventative for a blood condition that newborns are susceptible to. The hospital he wanted to go to was around 45 mins away. I chose to go to the hospital that was 5 minutes away instead because that would be the most efficient. He came at me for that, the night right after I had given birth. I was still hormonal and emotional and physically recovering. He made me feel as though going to the hospital closest to me was a bad decision. Our child was born in shock. He had to be resuscitated. I imagine that if I had chosen to go to the hospital 45 mins away, he would not be alive. The ending began with a weekend by my grandmothers a couple months after the baby was born. There was an error in our communication and one night we were waiting in different places for the other. Back at her house, he called me nothing. He said that I've done nothing with my life, despite the fact that I had been working to keep a roof over our heads and help put food on the table. He talked about having to do everything and taking care of everything despite the fact that I had made significant contributions. Most payments for rent came out of my account. I was the most stable one, job wise, and I was the only one who was still there for him. Not even his childhood friends were around him anymore. He couldn't keep most friends he made, after some point they got into a disagreement or they were disrespectful to him or he had to chase them. So many things that I should've examined were left alone until it was much much too late. There is so much that happened. The day he kicked me out he said that he didn't need me anymore and that I could leave our son. I refused and he said the he'd see me in court. He had locked up the food and said that now with the COVID going on, I'd have to go outside and buy my own food and toilet paper. I didn't feel right sleeping with him because we weren't really in a relationship anymore.There were times that I had broached the topic. Each time I denied him sex, he was furious. He'd say that I didn't do anything, and that he's helping kids who have been traumatized and that he's living in his faith and that I did nothing. All I did was work my job, but less hours because I had to watch the baby. He didn't want him vaccinated, so I couldn't put him in daycare. I said that it wasn't right because we weren't actually married, yet he maintained that we were "spiritually married" and that I would be punished because of that. He used the faith to keep me in line, I realize. And that after all the pain I've caused him, the least that I could do was sleep with him (he said this in another argument). I had and I was reluctant to. He didn't like that so he kicked me out. He threatened me, saying that he'd no longer pay rent and bills if I continued to stay there. I was afraid, he was very aggressive and he had threatened me in the past saying if I took our son, he'd "stop me". Much of his threats would come randomly. There wouldn't even be an argument happening, yet, he'd say these things. He mentioned court in rhetorical situations, he'd mention it while watching a court show, yet court was never in my mouth. I didn't put energy into those things because I knew I wanted to be a family and live peacefully. I finally left. I had messaged my family. My mom called the police for me because I was too afraid to. As I was waiting for the cops, after he discarded me, he told me that "you have no IDEA WHAT YOU'VE JUST STARTED--" He was cut off by a knock at the door. The cops had come and I quickly began to take my son and some of my belongings out. The same night, he had sent CPS to my mom's house. I informed her of the situation and she, like the cop I spoke to implored me to get an order of protection. I now have a no contact order. After 3 weeks he tried contacting me, saying that he still loved me. Even sent me back my engagement ring with a note that were his "wedding vows". He tried jumping off of a certain bridge. His mom had gotten in touch with me, I tried stalling him until the cops picked him up. They did. He spent a week or so in a mental hospital. I was surprised he thanked me. He is trying to sue me for custody. I was sure it was full custody at first. But he tried jumping off a bridge, so I can imagine that isn't the case. He said things to me, saying that it was up to me to stop all of the court stuff and that we need to come together as a family, despite the fact that he filed the court paperwork the same day that he kicked me out, and that he called CPS on me. He stole private journal entries from my belongings and submitted it to them saying that I was mentally unfit to be a parent, despite the fact that some of the entries he took were from before him and I were ever together. He tries to come off as religious, and charitable, but when he doesn't get his way..... that's it. There is so much more that has happened that I have not written, but I hope that my story can help others identify similar behavior before its too late. Unfortunately I had a child with this one. Please don't make the same errors that I did. Looking back now, and while writing this, I realized many red flags that I should've seen. I know that my choices are my own, even with pressure, I still made the decisions I made. I regret them so much. I am trying to look forward to the future, but it's a struggle. Now he's trying to sue me for money in court for rent due, despite the fact that for some of the months specified I was no longer at the residence. What I've learned is to keep much of your heart and soul to yourself. Give it only to the Most High. Love yourself first so that you can understand how to really love others without hurting yourself. And if someone is trying to isolate you, they're typically up to no good. If someone makes you feel like you're crazy and others that you trust tell you that you weren't wrong, listen to them and remove yourself. If someone is telling you that you don't remember something right and you KNOW you're remembering it right, Go no contact and never look back. Thanks for listening. Be blessed.
2020.08.13 19:56 H28koalaColton and Reality Steve Podcast Recap - all 2.5 hours of it!
Colton and Reality Steve: Starts at Minute 5 in case you want to know when the spoilers stop and you can safely listen if you are spoiler free. ****REALLY juicy tidbit in the Cassie portion at the end of recap! New RS breaking news although some of you may have known this?! Recap of entire 2.5 hour podcast. Parenthesis are my thoughts while listening. I tried to keep it really minimal Introduction Colton reached out to Reality Steve a few weeks ago – said we have had our differences no hard feelings and just chatted with RS. As they were chatting RS said he had some questions for Colton on his season about things that were done on the show and wondered if they could talk it out on a Podcast. Said Colton has been outspoken in his book and interviews so RS thought he could be a good person to talk to because his impression was that Colton feels slighted by the show and is comfortable speaking out. He said that he likes having people come on that can talk about their experience and fill people in on things that happened off camera. Colton said he agrees with this. Colton said RS called him out on everything and that RS was really accurate at everything. Colton said he is competitive and he treated RS as his opponent at first. (Ex: Twitter battle and fun during the season). But he said he wanted to tell RS that he respected it. Colton: said he doesn’t feel slighted by the show, he had a blast. Did show after show back to back. They discuss each season that Colton did, Becca season, BIP, then Colton season. Go in order. They then will talk about the Cassie GOAT interview and the discourse that happened post GOAT between Cassie and Colton. Colton said he will not discuss why Colton and Cassie broke up. They are keeping that private as agreed upon. Becca’s Season RS Says: Biggest thing to bring up is Tia. Tia is a possibility to be the Bachelorette. Tia and Colton were talking. In January of 2019 when Arie’s season was airing, Tia came to LA and Tia and Colton spent a weekend together. Colton responds: When Colton was interviewing for Bach/ette they showed him all of the women from Arie’s season in contention for Bachelorette and he was reading spoilers and trying to figure out who would be bachelorette. He followed Becca, Lauren and Tia, and Tia followed him back. Tia responded on his posts and they started talking. He was a month or two into the casting process. He eventually told her he was in the process and she gave him advice. He was going out to LA for casting meetings. When Colton went to LA for a casting interview he flew Tia out to join him, it was his bday weekend. He wanted to get to know her. He didn’t know a lot about the show either and wanted her to explain some things. He wasn’t sure if this was cheating the show if she did become the Bachelorette but didn’t think there were rules. RS Says: Tia and Caroline and Becca all get together in Florida for a weekend before the Bachelorette was announced. During that weekend Tia and Colton Facetimed and as they were still talking and Caroline and Becca met Colton. So Becca met Colton pre-show and RS wasn’t sure how Becca didn’t know that Colton was the guy that Becca had met on Facetime before. Colton: Says he never asked Becca on the show if she had recognized him because he didn’t want to make her uncomfortable (or probably put it on camera). He said they were drinking when he met them via Facetime. Tia and Colton were up front with each other and transparent about everything they did. Tia told him to do the show because she said it was such a good experience. Tia was supportive of him. Becca is named Bachelorette. RS: When Becca named Bachelorette, were you interested in pursuing Tia and not staying for Becca? Colton: Tia told Colton if Colton not cast (casted is not a word people!) for her season and she was Bachelorette, she was still going to do Bachelorette. Colton told her he would do the same and still do the show if she wasn't 'Ette. They were very honest with each other about it. Didn’t want to take opportunity from each other. RS: Says that even though open and honest there must have been more feelings on Tia’s side since she shows up on Becca’s season. Colton: Felt Tia thought it was tough to have Colton go on the show because of feelings. RS: His opinion of Colton initially was that people were telling him about the Ally Raismen relationship. Colton: Said he did not mean to put Ally on the spot, he meant for his video to be private to her. His teammate put it on TV. That was the last thing he wanted. RS: It paints the picture that Colton just wants to be on TV. Said that Colton was then with Savannah Crissely (I don't know how this is so not sure spelled the name right). So it seemed that Colton was thirsty. Colton: He was in a funk after breaking up with Ally and he started talking to Savannah, went to Vegas for ACM’s and he was up to meeting up with Savannah and hanging out with her but didn’t want to walk the red carpet or make a big deal of it. Went in the back door so that he wasn’t shown with her. Brought his brother and was just hanging out with them for the weekend. He says he knows this made him look fame-hungry. Said this wasn’t his intention. RS: Tia shows up on the Spa Group Date. When Tia shows up, had Colton told them men he had spent the weekend with Tia? Colton: I had told Garrett and Jason about it. They were his boys in the house. Jason was on the spa date too. Colton suspected Tia was coming on a date when he was talking to her pre-show so he kind of expected it. He didn’t intend to tell production or any of the guys about Tia. But when you are in the pre-show hotel room with no phone for so long before meeting Becca (waiting to get in the limo) Colton got worried Becca would recognize him as he got out of the limo so he told one of the producers. He thought he would look dumb if she recognized him. RS: When they talked on the date what did you feel? Colton: He thought they were on the same page. When Becca’s season ended, Tia was one of the first people he called because they had a solid friendship. He said the conversation went well. Tia told Becca that Colton was really transparent and honest from the beginning. That there was no shadiness. Colton didn’t want Tia to feel he was using her for anything. RS: Tia wasn’t done showing up on Becca’s season. That was the problem. Another sticking point that fans were upset about - During the home town date in Colorado Colton said it was the first time he had brought a girl home to meet his parents. People found pictures of Ally at Colton’s home. Colton: Said that he knew saying it, it was not true. He said that Ally was going through her legal case and was in court, and he didn’t want to be a distraction. With the help of the lawyers and ABC there was an agreement made that Ally was not going to be discussed on the show AT ALL. Even if he said Ally’s name by mistake ABC had agreed that they would edit it out. Colton said he also tried to cut out any reference to her whatsoever, hence saying that Becca was the first girl he had brought home. ABC could have easily used this storyline for the show and he respects them for honoring this agreement. Colton said he got called out so much about it he almost said something but didn’t. Colton only has nice things to say about Ally. RS: He gets to final four. Before rose ceremony Tia shows up again and tells Becca she still likes Colton. Did Colton know Tia was there? Colton: Did not know that Tia was there. Becca broke up with him and told him that Tia had said that. That is when he knew Tia had showed up. The group had shown up to chat with Becca (girl chat) and that is when Tia said it. He watched it after it aired so it made more sense. He did ask Tia after the show. He wonders if production told Tia that Becca wasn’t going to pick him anyway so she was more comfortable saying what she said. Colton said that production can’t make you say anything. It is still your decision. They can manipulate and lure you into it. You are still responsible for what you say. RS: They do have frankenbiting ability so you can say something you never said. Were you mad at Tia? Colton: Bummed at being eliminated. You spend enough time around Becca you are going to love her. He was starting to fall for her. In that atmosphere as well you love the person. In that moment he was hurt and relieved to be let go. He contacted Tia even though advised not to because production wanted them to save it for BIP. Colton has talked to Becca post-show. RS: Were you going to be eliminated regardless and they just added this storyline in? Colton: He doesn’t know. He never asked Becca. After having chats with Becca and hanging out with her and Garrett, he feels she had it down to Garrett and Blake after Week 4 or 5. BIP RS: Everyone knew that this was continuing into Paradise (Colton and Tia). The weird thing is that Becca’s season was done filming but not done airing. Bachelorette is only two or three episodes in before people head down to BIP. The timing is strange because of the airing schedule. Colton: Watched first two episodes on the air and then was down in BIP. Films Paradise blind not knowing how he is being edited on Bachelorette. The order is weird. Only a few episodes air before do BIP and you don’t know how you will be portrayed on the Season. RS: Becca shows up on BIP and Colton is a hot mess. (Love that he said that to Colton) Colton: Felt like it was forced. They brought Tia back twice on Becca’s season, and now on BiP and Becca is being brought back. Can’t he get a break? What is the point of this? He felt production was really trying to get him. Thinks they enjoyed messing with him because he prided himself on being this athlete and mentally tough and production was a little happy that this macho guy was breaking down and completely shedding these emotional layers. He felt overwhelmed more than anything. He wasn’t sleeping. There was no air conditioning, he tried to bring an A/C and they wouldn’t let him! The doors are always open because it is so hot and there are crabs crawling in your bags (OMG!!!). Paradise was not paradise or ideal conditions. He said he was Hangry at all times (OMG! I would hate everything about this – why can’t they eat!). So he got pissed and overwhelmed. RS: He thinks there is no way Colton would be bachelor unless he went to paradise. He thinks Colton told, if you want a shot at Bachelor you need to deal with the Tia stuff. Colton: Yes that is true. RS: Gotta show up – did he ever tell Tia that this was what production told him. Did he take into account how Tia may feel when this happened. Colton: When Bachelor presented to him, he thought they were telling him what he wanted to hear to get him to go to Paradise because he told them NO twice. He was upset and crying on National TV, he was a mess, his family had never even seen him cry. He said he has grown a lot emotionally. He knew Tia would have his back and he was upfront and honest with her. He told her that he didn’t think it was time together they needed, he said there was something missing between them. He tried to tell her that they weren’t going to get together in this way. RS: But you asked her to be your GF and then you changed your mind the next day. Colton: Had a guilty conscience about this. It hit him that he had committed to being BF/GF, call it peer pressure or manipulation. He says unless you are on this show, you don’t know how much pressure you get and there is only so much fighting you can do. He tried to leave Paradise four times. Finally he acquiesced to what they wanted and said he would be with her. He just did it. He said at the next rose ceremony he looked at her and she smiled at him and he felt that he was going to crush her. It wasn’t because of the Bachelor, it was just that the relationship was lacking and he didn’t want to just be there to be there and keep giving roses to each other. RS: It is easy to look at BIP and Colton couldn’t have left paradise in a relationship with Tia and be the Bachelor. So it seems like Colton did things on purpose to be the Bachelor. Says the thing missing in the relationship is that Colton needs to be single to be the Bachelor (HA! Honestly, RS and Colton are both speaking really well. This is a good interview) Colton: 100%. Looking back people can look back and say that. Even his Dad asked Colton if you didn’t think the Bachelor was a possibility would you have tried harder with Tia? Colton’s Dad loves Tia and wanted him with Tia. Colton said that is a fair question. He says he doesn’t know if he would have. Until you go through the Bach show it is unlike anything else. He says he did say things he was told to on camera. He owns it. He says the producers are crazy good at their job. Wishes he could have handled things more his way looking back. He owns that making Tia his GF and then taking it back was all on him. Colton says Bachelor was in the background but was not in the forefront and he wasn’t trying to do certain things on the show to get the Bachelor gig. He really did think he wanted to give it a shot. Doesn’t think he led her on, he was upfront about struggling. Colton was told not to tell anyone he was the Bachelor and he told Tia despite this (before reveal on GMA). He said BIP became the Colton Tia show. He was upset about that because there were real love stories happening that weren’t being shown or given attention. RS: Said Tia had nothing to gain unless she was really interested in Colton and she got a lot of hate because of it. Colton: Said he ends BIP and then he is back home watching the end of Becca’s season. Started Bachelor promotion etc, he said it is pretty hard. Filming and promotion of both Bachelorette and starting things on Bachelor. He said talking through the season is really hard and watching it back is really hard. Bachelor Season RS: Before season started, RS forgot about their twitter beef. Late 2018 Colton would tweet things and RS would troll them with his own tweets because he thought they were weird. RS isn’t sure why he did that LOL. Colton: People think they know me. But he said the show has painted him as this super serious, emotional, stiff stuck up dude, but he said he is in fact laid back, go with the flow, sarcastic, likes to find humor and he struggles with posting things that people think aren’t like him but in fact its closer to his real personality. So he wanted to have fun on twitter, was pumping out weird one liners and motivational stuff and production told him to stop entertaining RS. Colton was trying to poke at RS. Colton said it started out with him saying that his season was not going to get spoiled. They operated on a skeleton crew at the end of the show so he thought it wouldn’t be spoiled. He wanted to beat RS. Of course this baited RS. RS: Had already reported that Colton and Cassie were engaged which was wrong. So Colton was happy that RS was already wrong. Colton deleted his twitter account. RS asks him why? Colton: Said he hasn’t been really public with his mental health. Right after filming he went to Vegas with Blake and Jason for a concert and was on the side stage and he peeked his head out on the stage and people went nuts. Kane (country singer I guess? Not sure I spelled his name right) was confused why crowd was going crazy before he had even come out. Kane's people told Colton not to look out. Colton then realized how popular this show is and the magnitude of the show. He started getting social anxiety. So he deleted Twitter because people dissecting his posts so much. He wanted to help his anxiety. The entire season he had a lot of anxiety and depression and took a lot of medication while the show was airing because he was struggling and not prepared. He knows he could have done things better. His source of anxiety – everyone has an opinion of him, that the show leaned into his virginity so much he wanted to escape himself. In social settings he was missing the art of introducing himself and people all seemed to know everything about him and just talking to him about himself or the show and assuming they know everything. He felt no one really knew him, but they do know him. RS: We all saw Hannah Browns date with you. Did you feel she may not be able to do the Bachelorette since she was so bad on AFTR and on their date? Colton: Felt that once she settled in she would be fine. He said that for himself he was too media trained not to give up answers when asked - you keep things close to the chest. (Athlete profession). He was excited for Hannah because she doesn’t know anything other than just being herself. He was excited for her. He knew she would be good TV. Colton and RS discuss the Hannah/Caelynn drama and Colton said it was a huge turn off for him. That they were supposed to be in this fantasy world and if they can’t avoid bringing up this past drama into this experience he really questioned them. He said he questioned them from learning that. He said his first impressions of them was that they were pageant girls that hate each other. Discuss Caelynn bringing up the sexual assault to Colton on their date. He said giving her that platform was really empowering for her. He wanted to listen and let her know it was a safe space to talk about. He wanted to make sure the show respected that. He felt as a whole they did respect it. He also wanted to make sure that Ally wasn’t going to be brought up and felt this was kind of indirectly alluding to her. But he felt the show handled it with respect. It was hard for Colton to deal with because he wanted to discuss his experiences supporting Ally but he couldn’t. He thinks he could have handled things better and it brought up a lot. RS: Felt they were promoting Caelynns story line and that it was pretty despicable for them to do that. Colton: Agrees. Felt Caelynns story was bigger than the show and needed to respect boundaries. RS: Felt this was Caelynns storyline to become Bachelorette. During hometowns in Alabama with Hannah G, Colton talked to Hannah Brown in Alabama after she had been eliminated. RS had visual proof from a preview the show released showing Hannah Brown in Alabama but this conversation didn’t make it to air. Colton: Doesn’t know why this wasn’t shown. Hannah Brown wanted to talk to him for closure after spending the day with him. The night portion during the rose ceremony break up with Hannah Colton was physically sick. He might not have been great to talking to her that night. So he thought they may need more of a chat later when he felt better. So he wanted to talk to her. There was nothing pivotal that happened so that is why he thinks it was cut. Cassie and the rest of the Bachelor Colton: Started trying to think of what producers were doing with his season. Wanted to drive his own show. Only person that knew where his heart was the entire time was Cary the stylist. He loves his stylist. He said normally on the show you are miced up the entire time and they know exactly what you are thinking the entire time. Colton kept telling production that Hannah G was who he wanted but he downplayed how much he was into Cassie. He kept it from them. He didn’t know what production’s intentions were. He was being told he would get more time with his dates. After Thailand date with Cassie he knew it was Cassie for him. Hometowns secured it. What was aired was him making out with Cassie in Thailand. They were actually rain delayed the whole day and all they did was eat snacks and hangout off camera and they laid down and were talking. They had no mics on when they were swimming together and Cassie asked him if he knew who he was picking and asking how could he not know by now. He knew Cassie isn’t allowed to ask him that question but she asked him anyway and he loved that she did. That really attracted him to her because she just did her own thing. RS: What did you tell her when she asked you? Colton: Said that isn’t a fair question to ask me. She apologized for asking. He did say that he had an idea of who he wanted to pick. He said Leads are warned to never tell them anything because their minds can change. It has happened before. So he didn’t say anything. Cassie was sick at that dinner date the entire time. She was throwing up the entire time. Colton told her he was going to kiss her anyway. He said that is how he knew how much he liked her. RS: How were you lying to producers after that date when you knew? How did you downplay it so they didn’t know? Colton: He just didn’t show his cards or get excited. Kept it all under wraps and went back to media training for football where you don’t show anything. RS: Here is the biggie – RS was told something six/seven months ago and he can finally ask Colton about it. He was told something about Colton’s season and wants to know if it is true. Cassie was his fourth hometown, RS was told that before Cassie’s hometown a producer took Cassie’s Dad out to lunch and told him that he needed to protect his daughter because Colton wasn’t going to pick her. That Colton was picking Hannah G. (WHOA). RS asks – is this true or not? Colton: When it comes to the producers, this is why I have mixed feelings with them and a love/hate relationship with them. What people need to realize is that what happens on the show can impact the relationship and the person down the road and off camera. There were certain things that happened that crossed the line between being a TV show and giving people the best shot at finding love. Whether production was lying or not about who the person was picking, taking a father out is not ok. That is not cool or giving anyone a fair shot. That is hard. Colton has issues. That is why Colton takes the position of not wanting to be associated with the franchise for the rest of his life. He is grateful for the show and the fans but things have scarred him and this is an example that will stick with him and make him question for the rest of his life. This is his real life and yes this is a TV show but he has to deal with the consequences and what happens behind the scenes. He thinks people forget this. RS: Think he answered his question and is in agreement with him. RS thinks it makes sense why the Dad Matt Randolph became America’s favorite Dad and what he said. And the question was is why doesn’t every Dad act like this? RS said it makes sense because Matt is the only Dad that has been told that that the lead isn’t picking his daughter. Matt gets flown to Portugal to get another appearance. Colton was not happy – why? Colton – Enough is enough. You can’t just take Matt to Portugal as one incident. Tia comes on Bachelorette, then Becca on BIP, and now Matt in Portugal. Enough is enough. It’s a bigger picture from Colton’s perspective. Just too much messing with him. When he heard that dropped at dinner by Cassie there was not a single producer on set. No one was willing to show their face to him. They knew he was going to be pissed. Colton thought he was over his head and knows he is the Lead but this was when he felt that things were just too much. One of his regrets is asking all four fathers for their blessing. He felt that the show took that from him, made it nonchalant. He did not want to ask Matt, he knew Matt would say no. He tried to avoid asking him but he eventually did ask. He takes responsibility for doing it despite not wanting to. He was convinced it was the right thing to do by production. He wishes he had not done this. RS: Did you know Cassie did the Young Ones show prior to filming? Colton: Didn’t know anything about it. She didn’t bring it up once during the show. Didn’t bother him when he found out. He did Bach and BIP. Didn’t think it was a flag. He loved being on TV too. Never crossed his mind to question her. RS: Gotta talk about the fence jump! Did you actually think you were going somewhere when you jumped the fence or did you just need time to yourself? (LOL) Colton: When he was getting interviewed he knew production was leading him someplace before the date. This is the only date he brought his wallet on the date with him. (This is the Cassie date). He goes up to the cabinet to get his wallet out of his bag. Cassie had just left him and he felt the cards were stacked against him and said peace. He had every intent to make it back to the city and buying himself a passport and buying a ticket home. He was completely done. He said he can be stubborn and he thought he could handle this on his own. He wishes he could go back and try to escape production like he wanted to. He wonders if he could have succeeded escaping these people. (HA!) RS: Thinks this is the athlete/competitor in him that he wanted to go against them Colton: Something just kicked in. RS: Did you believe Cassie that she wanted to leave? Did you think it was her or her Dad talking to her? Did you truly believe Cassie was done, or that she was manipulated? Colton: (First time he is flustered in answers). All I did was say I wanted to find my wife, the entire season. Cassie in her moment didn’t want to take that from me – that he wanted to get engaged. Cassie didn’t want to take that opportunity from him. She did not want to get engaged because she wasn’t there. He never told her that he would be ok just dating so she didn’t know. Felt her father being there was unfair. There were things behind the scene he didn’t know about. RS: How long were you gone after the fence? Colton: A couple of hours. If I knew what direction the city was in I would have made it out of there. There were two bright lights and I didn’t know which one was the city. He was truly hiding in ditches and sheds and cars. He said this was dumb but he did it. He just wanted to be by himself. RS: After that happens, they talk to you, they ask you what you want to do? Colton: Told Cassie at dinner when she broke up with him that it was HER and that the show was over for him. That he wanted her. Not sure if this was shown or not. Cassie was questioning if he was saying this for true or not. Cassie still left but a lot because she wasn’t sure she was he was telling the truth. He eliminated Tayshia and Hannah G and then went to Cassie. Asked them to keep Matt in Portugal so he could talk to him. RS: You have heard your entire relationship that Colton is more into Cassie than she is for him. Has heard he forced Cassie’s hand his entire relationship. Cassie can’t say no or she is hated by America. She almost had to choose you back. Did you ever feel this? Colton: No, I would never have stayed with Cassie if she didn’t know how she felt for me. She struggled with not having her father’s blessing and the concept of the show and getting engaged. He never questioned her feelings and her intent or love for him. RS: The show made Colton film a castle scene with a ring box for promos Colton: laughs. RS: During the WTA and during Happy Hour with Rachel interviewing Blake something was brought up, while the season is airing, WTA tapes around Feb. Caelynn is on the WTA just bawling her eyes out about Colton and the break up and threw Colton under the bus for how Colton treated her. However when Blake told his stories during BIP, we knew that Caelynn and Blake were dating during that WTA time. It made Caelynn seem completely fake. Colton: Yeah. He was not happy with Caeilynn and the WTA for this. Colton was hanging out with Blake and Caelynn!!! They literally had eaten dinner together and hung out a few nights prior! (Heidi side note – God I can’t stand Caelynn). That did catch him off guard a lot. Not in her defense he has been to a MTA and have to top into emotions you don’t want to re-visit. Thought maybe a producer told her to do that. He tried to show her some grace for that but thought it was pretty bad. RS: She was still up for Bachelorette at this point too. It was her audition. Ok on to the Book stuff. Discussed mental health earlier. When show was airing, went to San Diego, Colton walked out of the event and gave a lecture and was pissed off at the way he was being treated and left an hour early. Colton: Now sees why Bach/ettes don’t do appearances during their seasons because of how intense people get. He had a charity event scheduled already and didn’t want to bail. He was struggling with his social anxiety, had Becca, Tanner and Jade, Blake, all there. Was going to a picture booth and a girl came up to him and thought it was just a simple hello greeting, he has security with him, and she says “I am here to take your virginity” and she grabbed his package. (WHAT THE HELL!!!) He felt really powerless and like a piece of meat. Huge turning point for him with his mental health that he has no clue what he was in for. He left after that. It was not his choice to lean into the virginity story line. It isn’t easy for him to talk about that. It wasn’t just one thing that lead him to making the choice to be a virgin. It is complex. But the way the show put it out there has had consequences. (This makes me really sad for Colton and angry with production). RS: In your book you mention and people saying to you that Colton is gay. People saying post breakup that it is because Colton is gay. Colton: Addressed it heavily in the book. Doesn’t help with the mental health but he has addressed it many times. He is not gay but supports LGBQT and love is love. Feels that is about it. RS: It is a simple question and answer but unfortunately people don’t leave it. Must be tough to deal with. Colton: He’s used to it at this point. RS: This isn’t just a religious approach correct? Colton: It started out that way. He grew up in Catholic faith and going twice a week and going to classes daily. No divorce in his family ever until his family got divorced. Took it really hard and said no relationships for him, just wanted to focus on football. As a college athlete he slept through his own house parties. He was never the best athlete but he always did the little things and brought his work ethic to the table. He said that he was just looking for his heart to be in the right place. GOAT Show experience: RS: CH was digging for info but Cassie didn’t say anything. You were not happy with the interview and threw some shade at her. Then Cassie did a Live event and said she didn’t say anything. Why did you say what you did? Colton: His post was more directed at Bachelor. They never asked him to be on the show. He is not with a good place with the show and production she he understands why they wouldn’t ask him. For his own mental health he is distancing himself from them. Too many things he has found out about that they have done that he is not comfortable ever working with them again. So he agreed that Cassie did not say anything and was really professional. He texted her that he appreciated what she said/didn’t say. What bugged him is that the show took advantage of her and he felt defensive of her. He felt that the show completely sold her on coming on the show to talk about herself and what she has been doing and talk about the current season and Colton warned her that they wouldn’t do that. He said they are going to direct questions on the breakup and they are only going to air that part of your interview. Which is exactly what happened. He was frustrated for her. He said she addressed this on her Live. They told her that they wanted her on the show to let the audience get to know her better and all they asked were questions like “You don’t want to make Colton mad” etc. Colton added a chapter to his book on COVID and the breakup. Worked with Cassie to do the chapter and she is ok with it. They share the parts of their breakup they are willing to share in the book. RS: Will need to read book in January to find out. RS asked Colton about Lucy, he said he isn’t going to address it but had to say the breakup happened because he can’t be seen out with other people. RS: Asked about Tayshia in La Quinta Colton: Thinks she will be great. Laughs about her saying he was a bad kisser. Thinks she is mature and direct about what she wants. Advice for Tayshia: Too much to say, a long list. Stand up for yourself you have a life to live. You have to live with this the rest of your life you go back to being normal. Stand up for yourself and put your foot down when you need to. Conclude with discussing Colton’s charity work and activities. Helps connect people and help individuals living with cystic fibrosis. Tries to give out 50 vests, one for each state. RS: May be biased but does not think that anyone that listened to Colton just answer each and every question can think he is a jerk. He has a different perception, Colton is a lot more open than he thought. Thinks he misjudged Colton.
Hello! Welcome or welcome back to Capy's Survivor! This season we are headed to the ever-so vast Vanuatu! We are once again playing the game of outwitting, outplaying, and outlasting your fellow castaways, whether that be by flirtatious behavior, backstabbing your opponents, or making plenty of allies. This is Capy's Survivor: Vanuatu! MEET THE CASTWAYS: Lopevi Tribe:
Thomas "Tom" Lee McLaren, 28, CEO
A young visionary in the business field, Tom is CEO of a technological innovation company in London, England. A loyal friend of its customers and employees, its main vision is to work together to achieve its goals. With a fortune of £ 5 million, Tom is famous for being a big influence for young people who want to achieve their goals - considered one of the UK's 15 most influential young people under 30 in the past year. He has a 5-year-old son and still suffers from the death of his wife and parents in a shipwreck in Italy, a few years ago. Now he struggles to raise his son and thinks that Survivor will give him great skills to survive in the most extreme environments. (made by u/zohnster)
Bronte "Bron" Jeanni, 30, Former Gang Member
Bron's life was very difficult. As a baby, he was abandoned in the trash and was found by an old lady waste picker who lived on the streets of Bronte beach in Sydney, Australia. The lady took good care of him until she passed away and the boy has to survive a difficult homeless life. At the age of 15, he joined a gang and was soon welcomed by that group that supported him. Bron emotionally felt support and affection from the gang guys, but it was a life of robbery, violence, drug use, and a lot of alcohol to overcome street dramas. The tattoo on his face was part of the gang. At 24, he was arrested and spent two years in prison. As soon as he left, he decided not to join the gang anymore. He continues on the streets near Bronte beach, but now he thinks about being better every day, running away from crime and drugs. Every day he looks at the skies and talks to the lady who welcomed him, now just a star in the sky. He never knew his real name, he adopted Bronte as a name because of the beach where he lives. The surname is the nickname of the lady who welcomed him, his only true love, the only reference of a mother in his life. (made by u/zohnster)
Gerardo "Lord of Random" Ellis, Unknown, Unemployed
His past is unknown, because of how mysterious and silent he is. Although his real name is Gerardo Ellis, people know him as "Lord of Random", due to the various skills and words that he makes, that is, random. (made by u/NahuelFire39)
Clarence Velasquez, 47, Psysicist
Although many ask how someone like Clarence went from being someone with very low personal needs to being a physical acquaintance, it is what people are confused about. Clarence never went to the school when he was 10 because his parents were too poor and needed money, so they made him work at things like gardening and so on. But when he left home with 17 years old, Clarence decided to study on his own by attending community physics classes. Because of the humor and the help of Clarence's explanations and presentations to other schools, he became one of the best-known physicists in this generation, but not everything would be good for Clarence, because the media revealed his secret: not knowing how to read. This caused Clarence to get a mountain of jokes and memes about it, but he kept working anyway, trying to ignore the insults and negative opinions of others, taking them as sarcasm. (made by u/NahuelFire39)
Clay Sosa, 25, Radio Personality
Clay has been the fun one of the group and always liked making people laugh. He would volunteer to host events, he was vice president of the student council and even became valedictorian at his graduation. He's even more well known and liked throughout his community as he's part of the local radio station as a personality and always liked to interact with others. He's looking forward to playing and winning Survivor for the same reason. (made by u/SilverOwl24)
Cristian Gutierrez, 24, SurfePersonal Trainer
Cristian is a personal trainer living in Los Angeles. While he makes great money training his clients all he really wants to do is spend his days surfing--but that doesn't pay the bills. He thinks that his physique along with having studied the show will take him to the end and afford him the lifestyle that he is seeking. He comes from a big family with a lot of sisters. He has a lot of experience with women both platonically and romantically and believes that this will be a key strategy in clinching the victory. (made by u/docdoc5)
Evan Greene, 24, Photo Editor
Evan is best known for being the class clown throughout his school life because he likes making people laugh and he likes getting attention. This behavior though is what got him into trouble a lot, but he didn't care so long as it makes him popular. He believes that social skills are most essential in life and is willing to prove that here on Survivor. Even if he makes a jackass out of himself. If it'll get him farther, then he'll keep doing it. (made by u/SilverOwl24)
Marshall Keaton, 28, Marine Biologist
Marshall was born to a loving family of five, being the oldest of three kids. His father, Dominic, always expected Marshall to follow in the family's footsteps and become a lawyer, just like his old pops. At a young age, Marshall never seemed to agree with his father's plan - being a lawyer is so boring, bro! He went through the entire process, getting accepted to law school, only to then drop out. Marshall and his father got into a massive argument about it, and Marshall ended up leaving his home afterward. They are still not on speaking terms. Marshall then studied to become a marine biologist, as he always found sea creatures to be fascinating. Now with a girlfriend of 2 years, Marshall hopes to win the money for both of them. He's got this, yo! (made by u/TDSwaggyBoy)
Ronald "Flashman" Libby, 23, NFL Player
A star in high school, Ronald adopted the name "Flashman" for his famed speed when scoring touchdowns and now he refuses to go by anything else. After being a football star for a while, he grew a planet-sized ego that consistently rubs others the wrong way. Despite his strong lack of intelligence, he believes his physical prowess will carry him to victory. (made by u/IAmWolfNinja)
Greta "Lori" Lorenzen, 19, Social Media Influencer
Owner of a Tik Tok account with more than 2 million followers, Lori is what they call a digital influencer. She is a very excited young woman in her videos and challenges, all well-liked by her fans. She was a participant in a dating reality show, where she left with her current fiance, an MMA fighter. After that, she moved to a mansion, where she lives while her fiance makes the trips to the competitions. In relation to her personality, she can sometimes get stressed very easily with silly things, causing some relationships to be shaken. (made by u/zohnster)
Gemma "Gem" Emerson, 38, Actress
Gemma, called mostly "Gem", is a not-so-popular but still well-known actress. She loves her work and singing, and is still single, because she is somewhat unfocused and awkward, which worries her for the competition. Still, she is approachable, confident and traditional. She cannot say no because of trust issues to strangers, another detail that can complicate her at times. She says she has what it takes to win, despite being afraid of wild animals and being hurt emotionally during the season. (made by u/NahuelFire39)
Caitlin Prescott, 27, Pro Golfer
Caitlin has always been competitive and into sports growing up. She would take part in any sports team in school and always loved it when she and her team would beat another team in a competition or game. She's especially competitive in the world of Golf and always strives to be #1. Survivor will be the ultimate game for her to win and she'll do what she can to win it. (made by u/SilverOwl24)
Myrtle "Mrs. Evans" Evans, 61, Retired Teacher
Mrs. Evans is a retired school teacher from Arkansas. She taught science for over 30 years and has long since been a fan of the Survivor series. Given that she has the free time she has been putting in applications dying to become a part of the show that she spends so much of her time indulging in. She thinks that she can be the first winner of her age by playing a game of the mind over a game of the brain. (made by u/docdoc5)
Marisol "Mari" Ocasio, 23, Aspiring Signer
Mari has aspirations of breaking into the music business. She has made a few songs that have gotten some traction on YouTube but really wants to make a splash. She thinks that becoming a breakout star on a reality tv show would be a great way to get her name out there and Survivor is one of the most popular shows on TV now. She thinks that she can play the game to outlast the others and win the ultimate prize as well as recognition. (made by u/docdoc5)
Nevaeh Nwosu, 50, CEO
Ever since a young age, Nevaeh always knew how to get what she wanted. And not with the help of others, no-no. She always managed to get what she wanted and get it herself. Nevaeh HATES counting on other people to do what she can do, after all. Becoming a CEO at a rather young age, Nevaeh is very proud of herself and her career. Although, admittedly, she was quite busy her entire life and never really found time for her family. That's why, at age 50, Nevaeh is still single and she doesn't plan on getting married anytime soon. It's sad, but it's true. Nevaeh doesn't care about the prize. She cares about the competition and about going down as one of the greats. So you all better mark it down in your diaries boys, because NEVAEH NWOSU is going to be the winner of Survivor: Vanuatu. (made by u/TDSwaggyBoy)
Natalia "Talia" Grey, 24, Audio Mixer
Talia has never been confident in herself since she was a child, as she had two workaholic parents who showered her with unattainable expectations in Middle and High School, both wanting her to become a scientist, while she always had a dream to pursue music. Her parents never approved and scoffed at her every time she tried to show them something, so she spent long nights in her room honing her craft, and never showing anyone over the fear of what they would think. One of her only friends and eventual boyfriend stumbled upon some of her mixes of songs and sent it to a few music colleges without her knowing, and she was shocked to receive a scholarship to a huge music school in LA in the mail, which she immediately took to go follow her passion. Now fresh out of college, she may know what her career path will be, but she lacks the social connections to get employed in the industry, so she hopes she can play Survivor to get her name out there and hopefully gain some confidence around others. (made by u/swoldow)
Whitney was born into royalty in her small kingdom of Purpalia. She cares for her subjects deeply and her parents taught her to be kind to everyone. She's not here to win. She's here to have fun. She won't hide that she's a princess and is even wearing a dress sewn specifically for it. (made by u/IAmWolfNinja)
??? "Blizz", Unknown, Unemployed
No one knows who or what Blizz is. Many say that she was a young girl who got left outside in a blizzard by her extremely abusive parents and that she is her spirit who lives to haunt them until the day they die. Others say she's a lab experiment gone wrong. Regardless of what she is, she has an extremely calming prescence that draws people in even if they're somewhat scared of her. (made by u/IAmWolfNinja)
The Season:Capy's Survivor: Vanuatu Episode 1:The camera zooms in onto a boat carrying castaway, approaching the beautiful island of Vanuatu. It moves over and there is the host, standing there waiting for the castaways to arrive on the beach, the basket of buffs in hand. The boat land on the beach and the 18 castaways step off. The host asks the castaways if any of them have ever seen The Amazon? They all nod, he tells them that is good because this season, they are bringing back the tribe divide by gender. He then hands everyone their buffs. He hands the guys, Bron, Clarence, Clay, Cristian, Evan, Lord of Random, Marshall, Flashman, and Tom, the red buffs, stating that they are on the red Lopevi tribe. He then hands the women, Blizz, Caitlin, Gem, Lori, Mari, Mrs. Evans, Talia, Nevaeh, and Whitney, the yellow buffs, stating that they are on the yellow Yasur tribe. He then informs them that they can head back to their camps. At the Lopevi camp, things are already brewing. Clarence decides he needs some votes at tribal council and approaches some people with an offer of an alliance. He approaches Bron, as he seems like a strategic and psychical threat. Bron agrees that he needs votes with him this early on, and aligns with Clarence. Clarence also approaches Tom, who he sees as a mental player, and he could help them out with mental challenges. Tom, thinking the same thing as Bron and Clarence, agrees to join the alliance. But Tom might not be as smart as they think, because both Bron and Clarence are smart enough to decide not to put their full loyalty into the alliance, as the people, they allied with might change over the course of the season. While that is happening, Clay is also trying to find a power alliance. He manages to convince Evan to join his alliance and says the reason why is because he could use Evan as a mental shield. He also approaches Flashman and Cristian for psychical challenges, and as meatshields, they also accept, saying that they need allies this early on if they want to stay in the game, at least according to older seasons. Clay and Flashman also approached the Lord of Random to try to get him in the alliance, as he seems like a strategic mastermind. But he declines, saying that he doesn’t need allies, especially this early in the game. Clarence is the first one to find Marshall, who is over by the beach deep in thought observing a fish in the sea. He asks him to join his alliance, as he seems like a meatshield and a strategic threat. He declines, saying that he would really have to trust you, and even then, it is too early in the game to make a game-changing decision like that. Clarence understands, and promptly walks off. Episode 2:The Yasur tribe gets all 8 of their members on the platform first, winning them the first reward challenge of the season, along with a comfort crate containing hammocks, blankets, and pillows. At the immunity challenge, Lopevi completes their puzzle, thanks to Tom and Lord of Random, and climbs their scaffolding first, meaning that Yasur will be going to their second tribal council in a row. Marshall and Bron have a major fight over Marshall never helping out around camp. How he just sits by the sea and studies the wildlife, he says this is Survivor, not a business trip. Clarence and Tom are now thinking it is probably a good thing that he isn’t in their alliance, as he would put an unnecessary target on their backs. Lord of Random is out in the woods collecting firewood, when Clarence comes up to him and asks him if he still doesn’t want to join their alliance, the Lord of Random just sits there, no response. Clay, Evan, Cristian, and Flashman are strategizing about who to send home next when they go to tribal council, they all agree that it should probably be Marshall, because he isn’t aligned with anyone, and he doesn’t do anything, or Clarence, because he is the leader of the other alliance in the camp. At the Yasur camp, they are talking about who they should actually send home at that night’s tribal council. After defying her last episode, Talia is infuriated at Gem, and she thinks if they go to any more tribals, she is a goner. So she approaches the other alliance, telling them that for safety if they would vote out Gem. Because she is untrustworthy and a social threat. They tell her sure. But Nevaeh thinks they should vote her out, as she won’t be an easy target later on, and she just ensured herself safety for the person she wants to go home. They ignore her. Talia tells Gem and Caitlin that some people on the other alliance agreed to vote out Mari. Talia herself isn’t voting for Gem because she doesn’t want to be untrustworthy in Caitlin’s eyes, as she doesn’t know if they will both make it to a swap or the merge, and Caitlin will paint her as an untrustworthy person. At tribal council, by a vote of 5-3, Gem, the tribe has spoken. Episode 3:The Yasur tribe wins their second reward challenge in a row, winning themselves fishing and snorkeling gear. The host also announces a twist right after the reward challenge. That both tribes will be going to a tribal council that night, and both tribes will be voting someone out. He also announces as the winners of the reward challenge, the 7 people of the Yasur tribe are the only people who can compete for individual immunity tomorrow. Lori wins the individual immunity challenge, and both tribes are headed to tribal. At the Lopevi camp, Flashman and Clay bond slightly, and say that if they had to vote someone from the alliance out, it wouldn’t be one of them. At the Yasur camp, Talia approaches Mrs. Evans and starts talking with her. She tells her that she and Caitlin are voting for Blizz and that she should convince Nevaeh and Mari to vote with them, as Blizz is playing an “assassin” game, where she is going to be quiet at the start, and then win challenges at the end to get ahead. Mrs. Evans goes to her Nevaeh and Mari with this, but Nevaeh doesn’t want to have a target on her back and convinces them that Caitlin, as a psychical threat, needs to go more than Blizz does. They agree with her. At the Lopevi camp, they are talking about who to send home. Tom tells his alliance that Lord of Random is probably the biggest threat right now, as he is a threat all-around, and could easily win if he makes the merge, they approach Marshall with this offer. He agrees. The majority alliance talks about voting out Tom, as he is a mental threat, and he is basically running the other alliance, they approach both Lord of Random and Marshall, they both agree with this, and tell the alliance they will be voting for them. But, after both alliances have left, Lord of Random and Marshall talk about it and decide they don’t want to become too loyal to an alliance right now and decide to vote for a random person to throw away their votes. Both the tribes arrive at tribal council, the host tells the Lopevi tribe to sit and calls the Yasur tribe up to the voting area. After strategizing and the host asking questions, it is time to vote. At Yasur’s tribal council, by a vote of 5-2, Caitlin, the tribe has spoken. The host then calls the Lopevi tribe up to the voting area. Once again, after the host asking some questions, it is time to vote. By a vote of 4-3-2, Tom, the tribe has spoken. The tribes say goodbye to Caitlin and Tom as their torches get snuffed and say goodbye. Episode 4:The Yasur tribe wins their third reward challenge, winning a day of advice from a local survival guide. The Lopevi tribe once again wins immunity, sending the Yasur tribe right back to the tribe. Back at the Yasur camp, Talia and Mrs. Evans have a major fight because Mrs. Evans, the teacher who is really coming out here, thinks Talia is not helping out as much as she should be. Despite this, they still make plans to vote Blizz out and approach everyone with this except Blizz. Lori and Nevaeh still think that Blizz isn’t much of a threat and that she could be an easy vote outcome merge, so they approach her and tell her about their campaigning. She finally speaks up and tells them to vote out Mrs. Evans, as nobody is going to vote her out, and if there are any mental immunity challenges, they aren’t going to be able to beat her. She also says that she is causing unnecessary drama around camp. They agree with her and go to Mari with this, she shockingly agrees with Blizz as well. At tribal council, by a vote of 4-2, Mrs. Evans, the tribe has spoken. Episode 5:The host calls the tribes to the challenge area, and tells them about a twist. They are bringing back the tribe swap for this season, but there is an extra twist. There will be 2 chosen “chiefs” from each tribe who will decide the tribes. Yasur chooses Blizz, while Lopevi chooses Clay. The host says Lopevi can go first. Clay’s first choice is Cristian, as he is a physical competitor, who is also a close ally of Clay’s. Blizz chooses Flashman, as he is a meatshield, and could help the tribe out in immunity challenges. Clay’s next choice is Talia, as he has seen her in action at tribal council, and thinks she will be a great addition to the team for challenges and strategically. Blizz chooses Lord of Random, as she has seen him at tribal, and thinks that he is a good strategist and a good addition to the team challenge-wise. Clay chooses Nevaeh, as she is a great addition to the tribe for her strategic and mental prowess. Who is also very loyal to her alliances, if she trusts them. Blizz chooses Lori, as she is a close ally of Blizz’s who is also great at challenges and strategy. Clay then chooses Bron, as he is on Clay’s current tribe, and knows how to manipulate people, which could be handy at the merge. Blizz chooses Clarence, as he can be good in challenges, and she knows he is the head of an alliance at the other camp. Clay’s final choice is Evan, as he is a social threat, and that is what his tribe needs. Blizz chooses Mari for the same reason. Marshall chooses to join Blizz’s tribe (Yasur) because he has closer allies in that tribe, and he thinks it looks stronger than Lopevi. At the Lopevi camp, Clay, Bron, Cristian, and Evan create an alliance, really only for safety and votes. Nevaeh and Talia also make an alliance, hoping for the best and hoping for swing votes. At Yasur, the same thing happens. Clarence, Flashman, Lord of Random, and Marshall create an alliance for votes. While Blizz, Lori, and Mari create an alliance and hope for a swing vote. The Lopevi tribe wins the reward challenge, winning themselves a trip to the waterfalls, with a basket of Pringles and beer. Though, in the immunity challenge, the Yasur tribe beats them out, sending the new Lopevi tribe to their first tribal council. The guy's alliance decides to vote out Talia, as she is a psychical and strategic threat, but once Bron leaves, they discuss their actual plan. Their actual plan is to get the girls on board and vote out Bron, as he is a psychical threat, and they know the merge is coming relatively soon. They approach Nevaeh and Talia and tell them this plan, but they think that Bron will be a good ally to keep in the game. So they approach him telling him this. They decide to force a rock draw by voting for Evan and hope for the best. At tribal council, there is a 3-3 tie between Evan and Bron. The revote is a 2-2 tie between Evan and Bron. The host calls Clay, Cristian, Nevaeh, and Talia up to draw rocks. He then tells them to flip over their hand and reveal the rock. At tribal council, by the draw of the purple rock, Talia, the tribe has spoken. Episode 6:The Yasur tribe wins the reward challenge, winning themselves steak and eggs. The Yasur tribe also wins the immunity challenge, sending the Lopevi tribe to tribal council. After the last tribal council, tensions are high at the Lopevi camp. They all agree that they will vote out Nevaeh, but don’t think the alliance will last through the merge. Nevaeh knows about this little crack in the alliance, and approaches Cristian and Bron, telling them that Clay is more of a psychical threat and social threat. At tribal council, by a unanimous vote of 4-2, Nevaeh, the tribe has spoken. Episode 7:The Lopevi tribe wins the reward challenge and a trip to a cafe, where they enjoy coffee, juices, treats, and letters from home. The Yasur tribe wins their third immunity challenge in a row. At the Lopevi tribe, they are trying to decide who to vote out. Bron thinks that Evan is the biggest threat right now because he is hiding behind his allies waiting to strike. Clay and Evan decide it will be best to vote out Cristian, as he is doing the same thing as Evan, but he is also a psychical threat, so he might actually win if they don’t get him out soon. They approach Bron with this offer, which he gladly “accepts”. Bron afterward goes to Cristian and tells him the other alliance's plan, alongside his own plan. Cristian agrees, but only because he knows if there is a revote, he will be safe. At tribal council, there is a 2-2 tie. After stating their cases, there is a revote. The vote is a 1-1 tie. The host calls Clay and Brown up to the stand and tells them to draw a rock. Evan and Cristian don’t care who goes home, as they are both threats. At tribal council, by the draw of the purple rock, Bron, the tribe has spoken. Episode 8:The host calls the tribes to the challenge area, and announces what they have all been waiting for. The merge. He congratulates Blizz, Clarence, Clay, Cristian, Evan, Lord of Random, Lori, Mari, Marshall, and Flashman on making it to the merge. Blizz, Lori, and Mari reform their final three pacts. Clay, Cristian, and Evan keep their alliance from the last couple of tribes. Clarence and Flashman, now a man down in their alliance, ask Marshall and Lord of Random to join their alliance, they finally decide it's late enough in the game to start making loyalties. All 7 guys make an alliance, their goal is to get the girls out as soon as possible. Blizz also creates an alliance with her tribe of 7 from the post-tribe swap, just for emergency votes. Clarence wins the immunity challenge. Cristian and Lord of Random have a minor fight about who should go home. Cristian thinks that Flashman should go home because he is a psychical threat. But Lord of Random thinks that Evan should go home, as he is relying on his allies, and at the last moment is going to start winning challenges, also stating that he is a social threat, and can make other alliances and loyalties easily. The girls, alongside his close ally Marshall, and Flashman (obviously) side with Lord of Random, whilst Clay and Evan side with Cristian. Clay goes over and starts flirting with Lori, Mari, and Blizz, trying to convince them that Flashman should go home. But they have seen how far someone can go by doing that, citing Audra in Thailand. At tribal council, by a vote 7-3, Evan, the tribe has spoken. Episode 9:Cristian wins the reward challenge, and brings Marshall along with him, in attempts to gain his trust. Flashman wins the immunity challenge, ruining Lord of Random’s plan of evicting him. Clay and his alliance decide that Mari is the biggest threat to their game because she is a social threat. The girls approach Marshall and Lord of Random to try to get their votes. But they want to stick with the guys, so they don’t put targets on their backs. At tribal council, by a vote of 5-3, Mari, the tribe has spoken. Episode 10:Cristian, Marshall, Clay, and Blizz win the reward challenge, winning a trip to a Vanuatuan village. Marshall wins the immunity challenge. Knowing they have the numbers, Clarence rallies to get Cristian eliminated, because he is a threat to the game, he manages to get Flashman and Marshall on board with him. Little did he know, Blizz and Lori had already rallied to have Cristian gone, getting Lord of Random on their side. Clay and Cristian approached Lord of Random, Flashman, and Marshall to vote out Clarence, as he has proven he can’t be trusted, and because he has shown he is a psychical and strategic threat. They tell him they agree but think voting out Cristian is the better route, as it would also hurt Clay’s game, who has been running the show up until now. At tribal council, by a vote of 6-2, Cristian, the tribe has spoken. Episode 11:Clay wins the reward challenge, winning an overnight stay with a loved one at the camp. Marshall wins the immunity challenge. Clay, knowing there is really nothing he can do, just relaxes for his final day at the camp. At tribal council, by a vote of 6-1, Clay, the tribe has spoken. Episode 12:Clarence wins the reward challenge, he brings Blizz and Lord of Random on the resort trip with him, to try to gain their trust. Lori wins the immunity challenge, foiling the guys' plans of voting her out as an all-around threat. Clarence and the Lord of Random decide that Blizz is their best target, as they know she is an extreme mental and strategic threat. They rally to the other guys and they agree with this. But Lori and Blizz have a master plan. Lori goes and she flirts with Flashman and Clarence, easily winning back Flashman’s vote, but Clarence still isn’t convinced. Blizz has already approached Marshall and has been having a conversation with him, in attempts to gain his trust. Flashman comes over and tries to convince Marshall to vote for Lord of Random, based on what Lori just said to him. With the 2 efforts combined, they get Marshall’s vote. Blizz then goes to Clarence, and tells him what she said to Marshall, and tells him to go talk to Flashman if he isn't convinced. Because he is close friends with Blizz, and after talking to Flashman, he makes up his mind. At tribal council, by a unanimous vote of 5-1, Lord of Random, the tribe has spoken. Episode 13:Blizz wins the reward challenge, and a trip to Yasur mountain, she brings Clarence along, as he is her closest friend and she also needs to get his for-sure vote. Flashman wins immunity. When they get back to camp, Marshall is rallying to get Blizz eliminated because she is a strategic threat, but the one thing people didn’t expect her to be at the start was a social threat, but because of her close bonds with Lori and Clarence, and Lori’s flirtiness around Flashman, they have their votes secured. At tribal council, by a unanimous vote of 4-1, Marshall, the tribe has spoken. Finale:The host calls the tribe over to the challenge area, and the first thing he does is congratulate Blizz, Clarence, Lori, and Flashman on making it to the final 4. He then announces the immunity challenge will be happening right then and there. Clarence wins the immunity challenge, and they head back to camp. Back at camp, Lori, knowing she is probably going home next, decides to pull a Clay and just relax at camp on her final days. She makes weak attempts to flirt with Clarence to try to get his vote, but his friendship with Blizz is all-around just too strong, and by the time she decides to try to flirt with Flashman, he had already essentially been brainwashed by Blizz to vote with them for Lori. At tribal council, by a unanimous vote of 3-1, Lori, the tribe has spoken. Clarence and Blizz stay up late into the morning, just talking and saying it's them in the final 2 together. That morning, it was a close competition between Flashman and Clarence, almost too close, but Clarence managed to clinch onto the win, making him the winner of the final immunity challenge. Because of his closeness with Blizz, and because he thinks he can win against either Blizz or Flashman, he decides to bring Blizz to the Final Tribal Council with him. At tribal council, by a unanimous vote of 1-0, Flashman, the tribe has spoken. The Reunion:Clarence and Blizz state their cases. Blizz says she all-in-all played a better and more involved game than Clarence, and never hid behind her allies, like Clarence. Clarence fights back with Blizz has more blood on her hands, sure, neither of them played an exactly villainous game, but he has less blood on his hands than Blizz. After the jury questioning and voting, the votes are read. By a vote of 4-3, congratulations Blizz! You are the winner of Capy’s Survivor: Vanuatu! Possible Returnees:Blizz, Clarence, Flashman, Lori, Lord of Random, Clay, Bron, Nevaeh, and Talia. Leave your opinions about future all-stars, your favorites, and the season itself down below.
2020.08.09 10:43 Guacomolemonster23m. 19 Days of shingles. Blisters heal but potential new breakout. Please help.
Hi everyone. Ive been suffering with shingles for nearly 3 weeks now, (21/07/20 - 9/08/20). What once was—has now calmed down, the blisters have gone and are now healing. However, parts are still itchy and there are other little red spots surfacing around close proximity to the areas of the initial breakout. These little red spots are also itchy and mimic what the outbreak looked and felt like in the beginning. They do not look or itch in the same way that a bug bite such as a bite from a mosquito does. Similar yes, but not the same. I thought that where the virus had broken out at its different locations, those locations would be roughly in synchronisation with one another as the immune system fights the virus off. For example, in a spot-blister-heal timeframe. Now it seems as if there could be a new cycle repeating the previous one. Is this possible? Has anybody experienced this? I was diagnosed with shingles 25/07/20 and given an 14 day course of 800mg acyclovir to be taken 5 times per day, everyday. With acyclovir cream to be applied once in the morning and once at night. This was after two misdiagnosis’s, the first being staph infection and the second being a bug bite allergy. The steroid cream prescribed in both the first and second instance—I believe made the breakout a lot worse. Yes the redness was reduced, but I felt incredibly ill the second day of using the cream as I was advised by the doctors to apply to the specific sites in which they pointed to. These sites included areas where the skin was thin and had minor open wounds. I later discovered such application can be quite harmful to your immune system. As steroid cream already can be. After 2 weeks of the antiviral course, I consulted the same doctor that gave me the correct diagnosis, once again on 8/08/2020 for a follow up. He advised me I should finish the course in which he prescribed, which means my last dose is tonight. He was aware of the condition I was in and knew that the course would end the day after I seen him. The advice was to continue use of acyclovir cream on what is still present and return if the condition worsens. I live in Thailand and there has been other times doctors have misdiagnosed me, or given me advice that has hindered the recovery of what it is I consulted a doctor for. Because of this, I’m torn as to whether I should take his advice or not. What are peoples thoughts on this? Should I stop or continue to take 800mg of acyclovir 5 times per day—in addition to cream until everything is visibly gone? If so, for how long? Also, does it matter if I have changed the brand of the acyclovir 800mg multiple times? The doctor I consulted on 8/08/2019 was also concerned that my immune system may be defect when I give him the details of my diet and daily activities so he tested me for HIV and the results were negative. He said if it continues I should have my blood tested to analyse the levels of white and red blood cells. Has anybody encountered similar advice? Did it work? What procedures were taken after the blood test? If things continue to take a negative route I am open to the procedure of a blood test. However, I have been eating nothing but healthy, whole foods and avoiding junk food entirely since the breakout. In addition, I have a daily supplement intake of: Vitamin C - 1000mg Lysine - 3000mg Blackmores Multi B vitamin Gentle iron - 20mg Biotin - 5000IU Vitamin D3 - 4000IU Zinc picolinate - 22mg Vitamin k2 - 100IU Pumpkin seed oil - 1000mg Along with a lot of fresh oranges, apples, bananas, dragon fruit, watermelon and more. For breakfast I eat purple rice and vegetables. For dinner I eat Tom yum soup with plenty of onion, garlic and tomato. I repeat this diet daily with small changes in which fruit I eat. Breakfast is a constant and dinner rarely changes. (I dont eat white rice because the high levels of arginine. For those that may not know, arginine is a key catalyst in the reproduction of the herpes virus.) There is a post on google that claims tomatoes are high in arginine as well as other foods in my diet such as dark leafy greens. Then there are other articles that counter this and say that tomatoes and other foods in my diet are low in arginine and good for the herpes virus: Claims tomatoes are bad: https://www.healthgrades.com/right-care/shingles/5-foods-to-avoid-with-shingles Claims tomatoes are good: https://www.healthline.com/health/shingles-natural-treatment#9 To conclude, is anybody able to verify, debunk, or advise against any of the information above? Does bedding need to be changed frequently? Should acyclovir cream be applied more than twice per day? Can you spread the virus to other parts of your body? How long on average does it last? Can the virus come and go frequently for the rest of your life? Is it likely to surface every time your immune system is lowered? Such as feeling down or having the common cold. I know this is a slightly long post but I hope the information provided helps others as well as myself. Thank you.
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